#*points to the Red Woman* that heathen is in brain prison for unsolicited art critiques

[sincerely-sofie]

Re: your mental health comic - I hope, if any of those characters are based on real hallucinations youve had, that you don't have them anymore. You're a good person who doesn't deserve to be talked to like that.

(Referencing this or this post, I’m not sure which)

Thank you so much for your kind words! The characters in those works are representations of actual hallucinations I’ve experienced. They were real nasty pieces of work, but I haven’t actually hallucinated one in a severe enough manner to talk to them in about… Shoot. Hang on, I need to think… 5-ish years now? I think? And the last time I did, I heard a brief sentence before I took some heavy-duty meds that knocked me out and took care of the hallucination by the time I woke up. I’ve gone through a lot of growth between now and then, and I’m now in a place where the only lasting legacy those losers have had is making me very good at abstract descriptions + personifications and self-reflection. Their cruel words are fuzzy and vague things that I barely remember.

Heck, I went through some old notes to remember some nicknames I gave them, and it was a blast from the past that I actually laughed at! They actually called me “less than worthless” to the point I internalized and verbalized it many times? Wow. That’s pretty cringe, guys. You spent your entire lives bullying a teenager. Cool. Now I love myself and forgot that was ever a mantra I recited at all times in my head.

I once had a project I was working on where I made a fictionalized autobiography set in a fantasy world starring a self-insert and these jokers. It was going to be a kind of field guide to hallucinations I experienced. I stopped working on it after a while because it was too painful for me to develop, as it was meant to dig deep into the pain and struggles I went through on a daily basis… and now I’m looking back at it and considering making it a humorous story about how ridiculous my hallucinations were— at least the ones with consistent personalities. Comedy equals tragedy plus time, truly.

I might end up posting some of the more solemn journal comics I made about these chuckleheads... It'd be weird to dig up my significantly older work, but I think it would do me some good and maybe be enjoyable / educational for others!

#figured i should reiterate this since I'm talking about schizophrenia again: #I won't be offended if anyone has questions they'd like to ask + would gladly answer pretty much everything you guys might be wondering! #anonymous asks are on if you're shy #but it's something i really don't mind talking about :> #heck— i actually can ramble for ages about my experiences if you get me on the right subject! #I always worry that people might be too nervous to ask genuine questions #And my hallucinations honestly usually read more as OCs to me nowadays than the spectral tormentors I once suffered under #i have so many jokes to make about these dopes it's not even funny #anyhoo. *holds up the Orange Boy* this dipstick loves mint chocolate chip ice cream for some reason #*points to the Black Clock* that jerkwad thinks intrusive thoughts are legitimately reflective of one's moral fiber #*points to the Red Woman* that heathen is in brain prison for unsolicited art critiques #*points to self* I put the “hot” in “psychotic” #and with that #it is beddy-bye time for Sofies :) #honk shoo mimimimi #psychosis #schizophrenia #schizophrenic #schizophrenia art #psychosis art #stuff by sofie #sofie answers asks