#... i still jusst cant go back to eating normally.. bastard. i just wanna eat you prick stop making me feel sick when i do!!!!

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Haha fuck

#vent #that moment when you realise Its happening again #you know when you eat little over a couple of days and your apetite is just kicked? you can eat and you want and need to #but you cant stomach it? yeah #been barely eating cause theres been nothing in the house i could eat but we have food now #can i eat though? of course i fucking cant. im barely even hungry anymore #yesterday i ate.. 2 biscuits 2 slices of toast some chips and 2 mozzarella sticks. that was it. couldnt eat anymore cause i felt sick #today ive eaten 2 sausage rolls a couple jaffa cakes and 3 slices of garlic cheese pizza #for the record. when i get pizza for a dinner its a full one and i typically eat the entire thing... 3 fucking slices and i had to stop #not to mention that i got my breakfast at 1 pm cause i completely forgot to feed myself until i was in pain #i hate this i hate this #its not like i can put it back to normal and just fix i #i have to fucking wait for my body to cooperate #... im really scared that I'll lose weight. i think thats just that creeps me the fuck out at this point #ive only ever lost weight bc i was barely fed but now... now it'd be my fault technically #i couldve ate more toast i couldve ate the remains of cereal we had i didnt have to let myself be hungry #me not eating was my fault. me losing weight would be my fault this time... #ooooookay enough of that before i set something off #... i still jusst cant go back to eating normally.. bastard. i just wanna eat you prick stop making me feel sick when i do!!!! #hhhh #food #food m #ask to tag