#But it's also specifically fitting for Akutagawa because for Akutagawa apparence really IS everything.

[kyouka-supremacy]

Thinking about pre getting together sskk where Atsushi can sense Akutagawa is significantly more relaxed and affable with him when they're alone yet cold and mean every time there's other people around and he's deeply hurt by the change and them fighting over it and them telling each other “So you're mad I'm kind at you? What do you want Jinko” “I want you to hate me when we're alone too” because. yeah

#I don't have fanfictions in my mind I just have random line prompts that hit illegally hard #One could argue that Atsushi should be flattered Aktgw feels like he can drop the mean facade only when he's alone with him but actually? #I think that's exactly how Atsushi would react because Akutagawa being like that would trigger his terror of being– #inadequate / unworthy / not good enough etc etc #Let 👏👏 Atsushi 👏👏 be 👏👏 the 👏👏 immature 👏👏 one 👏👏 for once #But it's also specifically fitting for Akutagawa because for Akutagawa apparence really IS everything. #Especially where he was raised to think it didn't really matter how strong he was but whether Dazai recognized him or not = #how Dazai perceived him = how he appeared in front of Dazai = how he appears in front of everyone else for extension #They're so deeply fucked up... #atsushi nakajima #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #bsd #bungou stray dogs #mine #Also au where I don't have to get a diploma where I would write thousands of sskk fics #Also I just feel like it'd hurt Atsushi so much because he'd feel deluded and betrayed‚ in the way #“once again it turns out that no one really loves me- at least not as sincerely as to show it in front of others” :( #3am trying really hard to study Hans Kelsen but I keep thinking about Them #Please may the next exam go well 😭😭 I actually care a lot for this subject #q. #10/09/22