#I miss being on here lowkey

[sunshinepixels]

small town diner wip

#ts3 #the sims 3 #sims 3 #black simblr #ts3 community lot #a little small town diner i've been working on #its okay #i lowkey hate the outside #a long way to go before it's perfect #but oh well #i dont like the flooring i think ill change it back to what it was before #bleh 😖 #thats it bye #i miss being on here all the time 😭

[hopeflower]

hi <3

#i’ve been back at work and lowkey dying. i miss being here. miss you guys! #.・⚘ ༄ › out.

[snailfen]

#10 for the ask game! Do your worst lol

10.) worst part of fanon

ok this is dumb BUT i hate it when people make moon the shortest/shorter than pebbles out of their iterator designs. shes literally big sis moon this is NOT my girl. its also just super weird when shes the shortest in a lineup without SOS, or when she and SOS are BOTH short as the only female characters of the lineup. Why are you doing that

other than that, suns he/him pronouns. they never use anything but they/them ohhhhh im gonna kill you your ass is going to hell

#IM BEING SILLY-ANGRY HERE there are special cases! if someones useing any pronouns for suns thats valid but #i dont like how people automatically assume that theyre male? its weird #lowkey “choosing a gender for kris deltarune” kinda vibe :/ #i also miss sigs they/them swag but thats more of a canon thing i think #asks #ask game

[theloveinc]

It’s so funny how rereading one single ya dystopian series has made all my daydreams go from something mundane and beautiful to like… “me and Bakugo are surviving a war against reproductive rights🙂” and I’m genuinely having a good time

#I am twelves years old #and lowkey it’s berry nice #altho it’s nice I keep craving to read fanfics abt the ships in these totally irrelevant books #like written on par with what y’all write #I’m going insane I had a daydream ant not only going to hs with Bakugo but having a teenage pregnancy😭😭😭😭 #lowkey one of my fave days dreams I’m still obsessed with is from … ok you know what I will stop there LMFAO #but zamn. #I dont wanna say the reason I haven’t been active on here much is bc I’m reading books #bc I’m totally having a weird decline rn #but also like. I do think my need for creative outlets is being fed by FUCKKNG YA NOVELS #but hey they taught me how to do tf what I DO! #so there’s that #and I’ve basically spent the last week on the bathtub reading books instead of being on the phone #probs like … 3 hrs of my day is bath LMFAO #coping like this is amazing #oh well going back to my apartment tomorrow where the bath ain’t sh*t so that will fix that #love u all dearly miss u all dearly #hope you’re all well🩷 #caitie blabs

[toastsnaffler]

everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏

#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too #things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄 #jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that #having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically #and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me #despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence #and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik- #she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh #and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space #and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she- #likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man #i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them #theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road #theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill- #finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me #old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc #anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included- #bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately #also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that #im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it.. #ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too #its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes #regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a #fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling #and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........ #sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!! #.diaries

[analyticallyminded]

i really need to go through and hammer out some more details of jemma's timeline bc i Know things have changed but like. figuring out exactly where and the implications that it has all requires sitting down and working it out

#maybe i'll try to do that this weekend #bc i miss being on here and writing #also lowkey want to come up w a new mainverse bc rn a lot of her main events finish up in like #2019/2020ish #and that's like. a hot minute ago now #i didn't plan this far ahead #my tummy hurts but i'm being really brave about it – out of character. #anyway don't mind me i'm just shitposting to pass the time

[redrocx]

idk whether I should delete that gif set since it hasn't gotten any notes but also it took quite a while to make 🥲

#gosh this sucks #i don't even have anyone to talk to about him 😔 #lowkey miss being in the gazette fandom lol at least my gifs got notes there once upon a time #tho i think that fandom is dead here too #and my dumbass deleted everything oh well

[sage-nebula]

I'm sick, and I've been sick for awhile, and I don't think it's contagious but I do think it's been getting worse, but I'm probably not going to die from it. But on the plus side, if I did die from it, at least the results of the election in November wouldn't affect me, right?

#at least i don't think it's contagious bc my gf didn't get sick when she was here #and i was like. lowkey sick when she was here #now i'm like midkey sick #i feel bad both when i don't eat AND when i DO eat #nausea and stomach pains almost round the clock baybee! #also near constant fatigue and also coughing and mucus in my throat #and sinus pressure. and achy back muscles. #i miss being semi healthy. like i was never GREAT bc of poor diet and lack of exercise and shitty sleep but like #i was better than this at least. this sucks #probably won't die from it tho so. back to stressing abt November 😔

[shingia]

here for my yearly checkup on this account!!!

idek if my old moots are still active here but if you are omg come and say hi‼️

#i miss being here fr :( #i was scrolling down my blog yesterday until like 3am?? #and idk i was feeling kinda sad bc i miss my tumblr era lowkey?? #also i started rewatching haikyuu!!!!! #it’s like i’m healing my inner child except that specific inner child is 18yo??

[deep-sea-horror]

ah ah ah stupid cunt dont think im not gonna see you reblogging from pro-israeli accounts and not block you

#'ppl should look at news sources from other countries to get an unbiased as possible account' #'heres this story from an israeli news source about hamas beheading babies even tho it was already debunked' #you have worms in your fucking brain. KILL YOURSELF #a thousand ppl were killed by single strike today. #israel and western media has time and time again used pictures of supposed israeli victims only for them to end up being palestinian. #israel does not have the right to exist. it is a glorified military outpost #this has been the topic for over a week now. how you missed my support for palestine i dont even know. #now fuck off. and if you're a mutual being quiet about this or even lowkey supporting israel in this you can fuck off too #i dont want you anywhere near me you disgust me and i wish you the worst

[renlios]

i  miss  my  brat  :/ 

#i am lowkey writing up some drafts #but sobs i've missed being here sm #i realllyyy need to make icons but i'm being so lazy and i can't find a psd i like so 💀 #how have we all been though

[florida3exclamationpoints]

.

#my friend who moved away captioned her bereal that she misses home #and i lowkey feel like a bad person #bc i dont want her to be sad #but it felt so ?????? idk reassuring ??????? #to see her say she misses it here too #like i dont wanna take pleasure in her being sad but it almost made me happy #bc i miss her so much but she just got married so i kinda figured shes happy and not thinking about me anymore #idk. anyway.

[lalalaugenbrot]

at this point i think there's going to be a psycho-like imprint of me on my bed

#i have been just... lying here for almost 60 hours now #and no end in sight #i haven't been this knocked out since covid or chemo therapy #and i feel like even the zelltief didn't last this long #anyway i'm on mobile so i can't make the setting but don't reblog obvsly #and don't cathch the flu kids #or whatever this is #seriously me being able to type this feels like a small medical miracle #it also lowkey reminds of that one time ten years ago #when i had just moved to hamburg #and we had a lady bug plague at the dorm #and i got really really sick #and i was just lying there as i am now #and i was like #if i die now i'll simply be eaten up by lady bugs #cause noones gonna miss or find me here

[liebgotts-lovergirl]

Maybe it’s because I’m on dark mode but your Band of Brothers works are extremely hard to read with the black on black text.

Also constructive criticism…? The HC about Ron Speirs talking in his sleep felt a bit silly. Especially him muttering about the peanut butter. Window sill, I get, perhaps repainting or fixing the window sill has been weighing on his mind…

✿ Firstly: Yeah, it's definitely the fact that you're on Dark Mode bc I asked around & it's legible on multiple different other settings for other people.

If I were to change the text color (since my post backgrounds are normally white) it would just be white-on-white for everyone else. 😬 I even tried pink on white to make it brighter at one point but it was just blinding.

✿ And secondly: Anon, buddy, pal, amigo, somniloquy isn't always connected to our conscious thoughts.

Some people speak in completely different voices or languages, some people speak in complete gibberish, & some people mumble about random things.

Nobody knows exactly what causes somniloquy to occur but up to 66% of people experience it AND it's very commonly experienced by people suffering with PTSD.

The friend in particular whose experience I was referencing mumbled "salsa" in her sleep one night. She was the Last person I'dve expected to sleep-talk (let alone about a food she didn't even like) which is what reminded me of Ron.

ALSO, I will push Secretly Strange Speirs until the day I die because this was a man named RONALD who people called SPARKY who was an ACCOUNTANT who OWNED POODLES and SQUARE-DANCED. Sometimes life is stranger than fiction lol.

✿ And just one last thing, Anon, my dude: when I want constructive criticism, I'll ask for it💖

#kthxbye #<3 #this is me being nice btws lol #the rage that simmers within me at any given time is enough to rip through like a tornado BUT this is a teaching moment #AND I don't wanna scare off any of my other nice Anons who have been so lovely <3 #just gonna drop this & move on lol #lowkey i miss like actual Anon hate #where are the funny dudes that are like 'You're ugly & I hate you' #i miss them <3 they were entertaining at least #this is just...odd ? #bring back real Anon hate & not this passive-aggressive bullshit lol #Anyway here have some funfacts about somniloquy lol #AlyAnswers

[piplupod]

genuinely very :( because i looked at the doesthedogdie page for the sandman and here we are yet again w the excessive gore !!!! i am so fsjdfjkl tired of it!!! i cannot watch it now bc wowzas there is. a lot of shit in there. RIP me and my sensitive little snowflake soul i guess :/

#rly frustrated w myself that i can't watch any mainstream shit these days bc everything has just disgusting amounts of gore #i can do violence and blood and even the occasional internal organ #but GOD. so much of this stuff is incredibly realistic (which is cool i guess! but why!!) and its just. Overkill honestly #im just fhsdhghsgjkl why cant i be normal and desensitized to all of it #why do i have to be such a fucking wimp about it #also i can't even do much for blood these days bc my brain will see it and start fixating on relapsing in SH lmao #genuinely feel like such a fucking wuss and like i just should not be allowed to live bc i'm such a fucking idiot abt things jdsfjkl #anyways. lowkey upset bc it looks like such a cool concept and plotline but of COURSE i cannot handle shit in it #because EVERY cool show these days has to have excessive gore and suicide/SH implications/references #fucking tired of it. make better shows honestly fjsfjkl #but then also maybe im being a prude so idk #i feel like a wuss and i also feel like maybe im right but also maybe im just being a prude and killing art by criticizing this #so. who the fuck knows. im tired and i cannot have a single thought anymore without picking it apart into little pieces #self harm mention #suicide mention #ALSO HI LOL DID YOU MISS ME VENTING ON HERE :))))) IM SO SORRY THAT IM BACK i'll try to stay quiet more though lol

[shymaidxn]

“This is the third meal you’ve missed this week, are you okay?”  HELLO

noticing trauma sentence starters

@flovverworks

Diantha wasn’t about to admit how unwell she felt. Not when she knew crying over unfavorable circumstances wouldn’t bring her any closer to her goal. Not when she knew she had to power through learning curves a foreign world presented her, and poured over any book or conversation that could help her along the way. Not when this sweet person suddenly gave her so much of their time to help ease her woes, when they should be taking care of their own friends, and especially when they were practically complete strangers until a short while ago. She wouldn’t let the negativity in her seep out…At least, she had promised herself that she wouldn’t, yet here Akira was pointing out her negative habits.

It was something - anxiety creeping into her heart, her stomach churning, and brain buzzing with so many thoughts it all turned to white noise - she swore no one would easily see, or at least no one here would; that she had gotten so good at hiding that no one would even see what there was to figure out. Though she had to suppose Akira wasn’t “no one” now, at least for outwardly circumstances. There were so many people coming and going from this place though, that she had just assumed their attention would be elsewhere, from business affairs to friendly encounters. Yet they had always made a point to greet her, ask her about her day, even offering a little snack or even a good meal. Sure, she was the new girl, but they seriously didn’t have to be this nice right off the bat. Even with the comforting report they now had, and even with this sense of trust she's started to feel from them with each conversation. Heartwarming as it was, Diantha just didn’t feel like she had…earned it, in a sense. She certainly didn’t deserve it, at least not in her mind. But it also begged the question: How close were they outside of calming and casual conversations they had every day to warrant even this level of concern and attention to detail? 

“I’m…” Hesitation in the form of broken eye contact and the fidgeting of her long ponytail. Combing through, twirling around, straightening then relaxing. For some reason, under their gaze, even if it was just pure concern, it felt like a stab to her heart when knowing she did something wrong. Guilt - that was hard to hide. “I’ve just…Been so busy that I’ve forgotten about it.” A truth mixed with a lie; she’s made herself too busy for her own good, and only thinks about food when it’s offered to her. “B-But it’s not like you see every meal I eat, so you haven’t been around when I’m actually eating, probably…Not that I’ve looked out to see where you are.” Yeah, none of that helps her case at all, not even with that forced sheepish laugh of hers. But all she really wants is Akira to drop this and move on, so she may stubbornly shoo him away so things could come back to the normalcy she was just getting used to.

#flovverworks #( *tries to leave this vague to see if you wanna do mhyk or modern* #mhyk diantha worries would obviously be 'haha oh no i'm transported to this random world with completely strangers!! panicking low key!! ) #in reality it is highkey panic but she tries to play it super lowkey for the sake of not wanting to upset akira and all the wizards #even the mean wizards she may or may not want to stay very far away from #modern diantha worries for this thread is very 'just quit being an idol and this person who helped me move into the apartments #is very sweet and easy to talk to; but um the stresses of learning school and school life while also grappling with #what the heck am i actually supposed to do with my life now since i'm living off residuals from my groups' albums now #yet i actually miss my friends and while i'm less in the spotlight i still feel so anxious and confused on my own' #and now the nice guy from the apartments notices and she desperately avoids this conversation (unsuccessfully) #idk what you have for akira's modern but they definitely live in an apartment in my mind ffhggfhjcff #i won't force other ideas i had while writing here; but just....comfy apartment vibes )