#Ignatiy

[rose1water]

“What can console a man in the dark times of spiritual calamity, when all human help is either powerless or impossible? Only this: the acknowledgment that I am a slave and a creation of God. This consciousness alone has the power to console. No sooner does a person prayerfully turn to God with his whole heart—‘Let Thy will, my Lord, be done in me’—than the storm of the heart subsides. From these words, if uttered sincerely, the heaviest of sorrows lose their power over man.”

— St. Ignatii Brianchaninov

#St Ignatii Brianchaninov

[sleepythug]

at one point I wanted to pursue writing film criticism but after following hundreds of critics on twitter I realized film critics can be a bunch of bitches, bearded 40-somethings with victim complexes, and the aura of a hall pass monitors; and there’s a social hierarchy among them that’s unbearably adolescent. 

#also my fav film critic ignatiy vishnevetsky #dropped from av club #and idk if he writes for publications anymore

[ohtobeleah]

Was It Over? // Jake Seresin

-> Series Masterlist

Summary: When Jake is tasked with taking his kids this festive season, he never though he’d get a call in the middle of the night that would change his life. Marriage is tougher than it seemed on paper—but whats harder than accepting your marriage is crumbling around you is watching you ex wife slowly fade away.

Warnings: Character Death. Sick!reader. Breast cancer diagnosis. Jake Seresin x F!reader. Angst, hospital & medical inaccuracies. SLOW BURN ROMANCE/ANGST. Inaccurate medical information. Relationship turmoil.

Author Note: Masterlist subject to change as series is still a work in progress. Descriptions, word counts and titles may vary.

-> Chapter One: [The Diagnosis] The last thing you ever expected was to be diagnosed with breast cancer. To make matters worse? You’d been separated from the love of your life for just shy of a year. How do you tell the love of your life you might be dying? It’s simple really— You don’t. (Out Now) 2.1

-> Chapter Two: [Chemo & Charisma] Jake arrives in Rhode Island to accompany his three kids back to Houston Texas the next morning. He expects it to be slightly awkward, but something he doesn’t expect is to be cryptically seduced by you—his ex wife. (Out Now) 4.6

-> Chapter Three: [V For Vendetta] When your stomach can’t handle the Chemo medication, you empty the content of your stomach. While doing so, you and Jake come to a crossroads about your relationship going forward. (Out Now) 4.5

-> Chapter Four: [Parental Guidance] Jakes Mother simply cannot understand what he saw in you, your mother simply cannot comprehend why you left Jake. (Out Now) 4.1

-> Chapter Five: [Why Do They Call It Love?] Jake spends time with his side of the family and your kiddos in Texas. The lies quickly come to an end though when an overworked and overwhelmed nursing student makes the wrong call to your not so emergent contact. (Out Now) 5k

-> Chapter Six: [Chaos & Conflict] As panic consumes Jake after finding out about your current medical condition, Jake calls your mother to fill in the gaps. Nurse Lydia escapes being taken to her supervisor and Jake lets lose on his mother who tries to stop him leaving. (Out Now) 4.4k

-> Chapter Seven [Faucet Failure] Jake makes his way back to you after finding out the truth. While under sedation to give your brain some rest, you remember the good times and the bad with your husband. (Out Now)4.6

-> Chapter Eight [Oh, Honeybee] Jake can’t accept why you’d keep such a life threatening situation a secret and you can’t accept why he suddenly seems to care. (Out Now) 4k

-> Chapter Nine [The Pomegranate Theory] Jakes still trying to wrap his head around what’s happening with your health. Doctor Ignatii oversteps? And you settle in while Jake helps you write some of your newest book. (Out Now) 4.3

-> Chapter Ten [The Potato Head Society & The Other Guy, Jarred?] Jake helps you shave your head in hopes of keeping your power and control. Facing your own mortality makes you question your faith in a higher authority and Jensen and Jake met for the first, and what you hope, will be the last time. (Out Now) 4.0k

-> Chapter Eleven [The Man] When Jensen and Jake butt heads over who’s what to you, it blows way out of proportion to an extent so high, that Jake lashes out. (Out Now) 5.6

#was it over? // jake seresin #jake seresin fanfiction #jake hangman seresin #jake hangman imagine #jake hangman seresin x reader #jake seresin series #jake seresin imagine #TopGun hangman #topgun fanfic #tw: cancer #tw: breast cancer #tw: stroke

[jerichoes]

not doing the jo names meme cause three of them would be basically the same, one wouldn’t exist, and one would be named ignatiy

#it’s just not too exciting #other than the fact that one of them wouldn’t exist lmao

[arteefalo]

// #arteefalo Artista: ©Ignatii Nivinskii (1915) Título: St Sebastian, by . Etching, 39.5 by British Museum, London Medium: Etching, 39.5 Size: 33.2 cm Imagem: Reprodução/INTERNET ___ #IgnatiiNivinskii ... Follow us on our social networks: Instagram: @arteefalogallery Facebook: @arteefalo Twitter: @arteefalo https://www.instagram.com/p/CiCWF6zOUCb/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#arteefalo #ignatiinivinskii

[lesser-known-composers]

Giovanni Girolamo Kapsberger (1580–1651) - Apotheosis sive Consecratio SS Ignatii et Francisci Xaverii: Act I: Illa ego regum nobilis altrix (Spain)

Conductor: James David Christie

Ensemble: Ensemble Abendmusik

#Giovanni Girolamo Kapsberger #early baroque #Youtube

[pedanther]

«Le malheureux Barrois a été empoisonné avec de la fausse angusture et de la noix de Saint-Ignace, dit d’Avrigny; maintenant j’en répondrais devant les hommes et devant Dieu.»

“The unfortunate Barrois has been poisoned,” said d’Avrigny, “and I will maintain this assertion before God and man.”

“Poor Barrois was poisoned with false angostura or Saint Ignatius’ nut,” d’Avrigny said. “I will swear to it before God and man.”

False angostura is the southeast Asian plant Strychnos nux-vomica, and Saint Ignatius’ bean is the seed of the related Strychnos ignatii. Both are noted as sources of the alkaloid poisons strychnine and brucine, which the doctor mentioned before as the probable culprits for Madame de Saint-Méran’s death (and, before that, the Count of Monte Cristo mentioned when he was discussing practical chemistry with Madame de Villefort).

#the cristo account #the count of monte cristo #chapter 79 #lost in translation #not a reblog

[waterandenergyrelief]

8th Meeting, 15th Session of the Expert Group on Resource Management.

Session 4: Decision Support – 2

Chair: Karen Hanghøj

Agenda item 7.2: Development and deployment of UNFC - Groundwater Resources Working Group Update (ECE/ENERGY/GE.3/2024/7)

Peter van der Keur, Chair, Groundwater Resources Working Group and Geological Survey of Denmark and Greenland (GEUS)

UNFC Application to Renewable Energy

Gioia Falcone, Co-Chair, Renewable Energy Working Group

Recycling construction materials

Julia Stegemann, Professor of Environmental Engineering, University College London, UK

Sand and construction materials

Tom Bide, Senior Scientific Officer, British Geological Survey

AMREC-PARC Case study

Bob Felix Occiti, Senior Policy Officer - Research Oil and Gas Program, African Energy Commission

Joint UNFC – PRMS Financial Reporting Template

Victor Babashev, Chair, Petroleum Working Group and Ignatiy Volnov, Regional Director Russia and Caspian, Society of Petroleum Engineers

Discussions Agenda item 6: Responsible resource governance: Development and deployment of UNRMS - Critical Minerals Markets Information System (CriMMIS) Concept

Simon Strickland, Senior Adviser on Strategy, Cabinet Office, UK

Transparency in Critical Raw Material Value Chains

Elisabeth Tuerk, Director, Economic Cooperation and Trade Division, UNECE

Circular Metals

Brian Cantor, Director, UK ICE-SRM for Circular Materials, BCAST, Brunel University, UK

UNRMS: Considerations for Steel Recycling

Cameron Pleydell-Pearce, Director, SUSTAIN Steel Hub, Swansea University, UK

Ukraine: Resource management challenges and opportunities

Roman Opimakh, Director General, Ukrainian Geological Survey

Activities of the UNECE Hydrogen Task Force

Branko Milicevic, UNECE

#resource management #expertgroup #extractiveindustries #egrm15 #United Nations Resource Management System (UNRMS) #United Nations Framework Classification for Resources (UNFC) #Assuring sustainability in resource management #Expert Group on Resource Management #industrial water #mining wastes #sustainable water management #sustainable energy

[usefullistanbul]

The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

During the reign of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, several notable rulers ascended to power, shaping the course of Bulgarian history. Here are some of the key monarchs of that era:

Petur (Teodor, Kalopetur): Ruled from 1186 to 1196. Ivan Asen The First: Reigned from 1186 to 1195. Kaloyan: Held power from 1197 to 1207. Boril: Governed from 1207 to 1218. Ivan Asen The Second: Ruled from 1218 to 1241. Kaliman The First Asen (Kaloman Asen): Ruled from 1241 to 1246. Mihail The Second Asen: Reigned from 1246 to 1256. Mitso Asen: His reign lasted from 1256 to 1257. The Right Reverends Patriarchs of Turnovo The religious leadership of Turnovo, represented by its Patriarchs, played a crucial role in shaping the spiritual and cultural landscape of the region. Here are some of the esteemed Patriarchs of Turnovo:

Yoakim: The first Patriarch, revered for eternity. Vasilii, Yoakim, and Ignatii: Their memories are cherished forever. Makarii: Honored as a blessed Patriarch and Sacred Martyr. Dorotei, Roman, and Teodosii: Their legacies endure eternally. Simeon: His memory is revered forever Sightseeing Turkey. Yoanikii: Remembered for eternity. Evtimii: His memory is immortalized forever. Important Dates in the History of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom The history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom is punctuated by significant events that shaped its destiny:

26th of October 1185/86: Announcement of the uprising against Byzantium, leading to the reestablishment of the Bulgarian state. 1187: Declaration of Turnovo as the capital of The Free Tzarstvo (Kingdom). 9th of March 1230: Victory at the Battle of Klokotnitsa, leading to the naming of the newly built church “Sveti Chetiredesete Muchenici” (Saint of Forty Martyrs). 1235: Reestablishment of The Turnovo Patriarchy, with Yoakim The First appointed as Patriarch. 17th of July 1393: Fall of the capital city under the Ottoman Empire after a prolonged siege. These dates mark significant milestones in the history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, highlighting its triumphs, struggles, and eventual decline.

#The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

[newcityistanbul]

The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

During the reign of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, several notable rulers ascended to power, shaping the course of Bulgarian history. Here are some of the key monarchs of that era:

Petur (Teodor, Kalopetur): Ruled from 1186 to 1196. Ivan Asen The First: Reigned from 1186 to 1195. Kaloyan: Held power from 1197 to 1207. Boril: Governed from 1207 to 1218. Ivan Asen The Second: Ruled from 1218 to 1241. Kaliman The First Asen (Kaloman Asen): Ruled from 1241 to 1246. Mihail The Second Asen: Reigned from 1246 to 1256. Mitso Asen: His reign lasted from 1256 to 1257. The Right Reverends Patriarchs of Turnovo The religious leadership of Turnovo, represented by its Patriarchs, played a crucial role in shaping the spiritual and cultural landscape of the region. Here are some of the esteemed Patriarchs of Turnovo:

Yoakim: The first Patriarch, revered for eternity. Vasilii, Yoakim, and Ignatii: Their memories are cherished forever. Makarii: Honored as a blessed Patriarch and Sacred Martyr. Dorotei, Roman, and Teodosii: Their legacies endure eternally. Simeon: His memory is revered forever Sightseeing Turkey. Yoanikii: Remembered for eternity. Evtimii: His memory is immortalized forever. Important Dates in the History of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom The history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom is punctuated by significant events that shaped its destiny:

26th of October 1185/86: Announcement of the uprising against Byzantium, leading to the reestablishment of the Bulgarian state. 1187: Declaration of Turnovo as the capital of The Free Tzarstvo (Kingdom). 9th of March 1230: Victory at the Battle of Klokotnitsa, leading to the naming of the newly built church “Sveti Chetiredesete Muchenici” (Saint of Forty Martyrs). 1235: Reestablishment of The Turnovo Patriarchy, with Yoakim The First appointed as Patriarch. 17th of July 1393: Fall of the capital city under the Ottoman Empire after a prolonged siege. These dates mark significant milestones in the history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, highlighting its triumphs, struggles, and eventual decline.

#The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

[istanbuldaybg]

The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

During the reign of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, several notable rulers ascended to power, shaping the course of Bulgarian history. Here are some of the key monarchs of that era:

Petur (Teodor, Kalopetur): Ruled from 1186 to 1196. Ivan Asen The First: Reigned from 1186 to 1195. Kaloyan: Held power from 1197 to 1207. Boril: Governed from 1207 to 1218. Ivan Asen The Second: Ruled from 1218 to 1241. Kaliman The First Asen (Kaloman Asen): Ruled from 1241 to 1246. Mihail The Second Asen: Reigned from 1246 to 1256. Mitso Asen: His reign lasted from 1256 to 1257. The Right Reverends Patriarchs of Turnovo The religious leadership of Turnovo, represented by its Patriarchs, played a crucial role in shaping the spiritual and cultural landscape of the region. Here are some of the esteemed Patriarchs of Turnovo:

Yoakim: The first Patriarch, revered for eternity. Vasilii, Yoakim, and Ignatii: Their memories are cherished forever. Makarii: Honored as a blessed Patriarch and Sacred Martyr. Dorotei, Roman, and Teodosii: Their legacies endure eternally. Simeon: His memory is revered forever Sightseeing Turkey. Yoanikii: Remembered for eternity. Evtimii: His memory is immortalized forever. Important Dates in the History of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom The history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom is punctuated by significant events that shaped its destiny:

26th of October 1185/86: Announcement of the uprising against Byzantium, leading to the reestablishment of the Bulgarian state. 1187: Declaration of Turnovo as the capital of The Free Tzarstvo (Kingdom). 9th of March 1230: Victory at the Battle of Klokotnitsa, leading to the naming of the newly built church “Sveti Chetiredesete Muchenici” (Saint of Forty Martyrs). 1235: Reestablishment of The Turnovo Patriarchy, with Yoakim The First appointed as Patriarch. 17th of July 1393: Fall of the capital city under the Ottoman Empire after a prolonged siege. These dates mark significant milestones in the history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, highlighting its triumphs, struggles, and eventual decline.

#The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

[goldenhornist]

The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

During the reign of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, several notable rulers ascended to power, shaping the course of Bulgarian history. Here are some of the key monarchs of that era:

Petur (Teodor, Kalopetur): Ruled from 1186 to 1196. Ivan Asen The First: Reigned from 1186 to 1195. Kaloyan: Held power from 1197 to 1207. Boril: Governed from 1207 to 1218. Ivan Asen The Second: Ruled from 1218 to 1241. Kaliman The First Asen (Kaloman Asen): Ruled from 1241 to 1246. Mihail The Second Asen: Reigned from 1246 to 1256. Mitso Asen: His reign lasted from 1256 to 1257. The Right Reverends Patriarchs of Turnovo The religious leadership of Turnovo, represented by its Patriarchs, played a crucial role in shaping the spiritual and cultural landscape of the region. Here are some of the esteemed Patriarchs of Turnovo:

Yoakim: The first Patriarch, revered for eternity. Vasilii, Yoakim, and Ignatii: Their memories are cherished forever. Makarii: Honored as a blessed Patriarch and Sacred Martyr. Dorotei, Roman, and Teodosii: Their legacies endure eternally. Simeon: His memory is revered forever Sightseeing Turkey. Yoanikii: Remembered for eternity. Evtimii: His memory is immortalized forever. Important Dates in the History of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom The history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom is punctuated by significant events that shaped its destiny:

26th of October 1185/86: Announcement of the uprising against Byzantium, leading to the reestablishment of the Bulgarian state. 1187: Declaration of Turnovo as the capital of The Free Tzarstvo (Kingdom). 9th of March 1230: Victory at the Battle of Klokotnitsa, leading to the naming of the newly built church “Sveti Chetiredesete Muchenici” (Saint of Forty Martyrs). 1235: Reestablishment of The Turnovo Patriarchy, with Yoakim The First appointed as Patriarch. 17th of July 1393: Fall of the capital city under the Ottoman Empire after a prolonged siege. These dates mark significant milestones in the history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, highlighting its triumphs, struggles, and eventual decline.

#The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

[sleepythug]

hey brian, I was wondering if you had any recommendations on film criticism/theory/reviews. are there any critics/thinkers you deeply admire that write well and have challenged your ways of seeing/thinking that you believe would help in better appreciating the medium?

i probably could have gone much longer on this five years ago but my brain did some sort of system reboot and lost all the memories ive had consuming film reviews, criticism, etc this ask makes me want to dust off that book i have of pauline kael capsules on my shelf lol anyways here's list of some fav critics/people to seek out if ur eager to dig deeper into cinephilia:

my most favs

ignatiy vishnevetsky (my fav)

jonathan rosenbaum

filipe furtado

dave kehr

david bordwell

j. hoberman

dennis lim

kim morgan

neil bahadur

nick pinkerton

xxx

james agee

miriam bale

richard brody

k. austin collins

fernando f. croce

manhola dargis

bilge ebri

manny farber

sean gilman

molly haskel

kent jones

pauline kael

peter labuza

matt lynch

adrian martin

calum marsh

adam nayman

nick newman

tony rayns

vadim rizov

jonathan romney

dan salitt

andrew sarris

scout tafoya

armond white

robin wood

ppl on letterboxd who's musings i enjoy

jake cole

max coombes

ryland walker knight

john lehtonen

willow maclay

luke mccarthy

matt mccracken

diogo serafim

arthur tuoto

ethan vestby

kurt walker

*also, i do like ebert but as i get older i realize i enjoy other lesser known critics a bit more+his taste in the latter years (21st century) is kinda wack tbh. 2007, one of the consensus last great years of american cinema, his best of the year was juno (i know, i know, it's an opinion but still lol) . cannot say he wasn't a formative figure, him being the most well known, most accessible film critic, and did the thing the best critics do in elevating, shedding light on artists they believe feel deserved of recognition/putting more eyes on their work.

**i think there's more people i could name-drop but i havent read enough, or been exposed to them as frequently, to go all-in on an endorsement of them/their work

#anonymous

[ohtobeleah]

Was It Over? // Jake Seresin

-> Chapter Nine: The Pomegranate Theory

Summary: Jakes still trying to wrap his head around what’s happening with your health. Doctor Ignatii oversteps? And you settle in while Jake helps you write some of your newest book.

Warnings: Sick!reader. Breast cancer diagnosis. Jake Seresin x F!reader. Angst, hospital & medical inaccuracies. SLOW BURN ROMANCE/ Inaccurate medical information. Relationship turmoil.

Word Count: 4.3K

Author Note: My birthday present to you all is a new chapter of Was It Over. Once again I just wanted to say thank-you all so very much for all the love and support you have given me throughout this series. It truly means the world to me.

Series Masterlist | Main Masterlist

The Pomegranate truly is the perfect symbol when comparing the differences between men and women. The enjoyment of a pomegranate is something that cannot and shouldn’t be rushed. Instead, it's something that requires patience and gentle hands. With deliberation and commitment comes the reward of its sweet, sweet flesh. 

When rushed, there is failure to collect all the seeds. Many men sacrifice the collection of its entirety for the sake of saving time. They'd rather risk the loss of a percentage of the fruit for immediate gratification. What we often fail to consider is that there may be a reason for the  dissimilarities between men and women. We tend to point out that the majority of men don't have the same attention to detail that women do instead of focusing on our individual strengths, and how they can balance and support each other. 

Instead, you chose, for the longest of times, to consider that your husband was willing to learn something that perhaps didn't come instinctively to him as it did to you. It's the energy you put into cutting and deseeding the metaphorical pomegranate that represented your marriage, but Jake never seemed to want to learn how to carefully harvest all those beautiful seeds. 

You and Jake both collectively brought so much to your marriage, you both had something to learn from one another in order to grow. But choosing resentment when you decided to step away from the man you loved more than life itself was never an option. 

Because resentment always leads to isolation: 

“Okay small steps for me Y/n.” Doctor Ignatii asked as he held your arms and stood before you. Everything hurt, everything felt wrong. Everything was stiff and out of place, but the sooner you were up and walking even if it was only a few steps here and there–the quicker your recovery would be. Having a stroke wasn't exactly defined as a step in your cancer treatment plan. No, it came right out of the left field and took you, your mother and your doctors by total surprise. “That's it, small steps.” 

“I don't think I should keep going, it feels wrong.” Your body didn't feel like your own, the ground underneath your no-slip socks felt uneven. Your feet felt like lead–heavy and weak at the same time. Your head had maintained a dull ache since you woke up post surgery that hadn’t gone away. Overall you just didn't feel like yourself and it showed. 

“Your neurological pathways need time to re-adjust to normal.” Doctor Ignatii was hopeful you'd have a pretty smooth recovery, his worry about any deficits post stroke was at a pretty low concern level just based on how quickly they were able to react to the stroke itself. “Give yourself some time, I'll touch base with the plastics department and oncology to discuss your pre-op notes prior to your mastectomy.” Doctor Ignatii explained as Jake watched with crossed arms off to the side as you took a few uneasy steps around the room littered with Christmas lights and decorations for the holiday seasons. “It's gonna be a slow but steady recovery, we just wanna make sure prior to your mastectomy that your body can handle the additional stress it's placed under while in surgery. The fact you're taking baby steps right now is a really good sign.” 

“Can I have a shower soon by any chance?” All you wanted was to not feel sticky and gross. “Is that in the realm of possibility any time soon?” 

“Only if you try to walk to the bathroom.” Doctor Ignittii replied with a quick wit you appreciated, he wasn't treating you like a sudden gust of a strong wind your be knocked on your sare and you truly appreciated the vote of confidence from your doctor. “But sure, I don't have any problem with you showering, maybe ask for some help?” Doctor Ignatii gestured over to where Jake stood just watching over you. He kept his respective distance but his eyes never left yours. He’s yet to leave your side for more than twenty minutes to grab something to eat, drink and take a deep breath. He was still trying to process how quickly things had changed. 

“Happy to help.” Jake teased as he sent you a wink, the half sided smirk was prevalent across his flustered but composed face. “Respectfully.” 

“Respectfully–” You replied as you stood on your own, Doctor Ignatti had stepped aside to let you take the lead. “You need to call our children and let them know you haven't abandoned them at their grandmother's house.”

“I should do that, shouldn't I?” Jake sighed, he'd been avoiding the call all together. With it being Christmas Eve Eve and your surgery still going ahead as planned, it was a call Jake wasn't looking forward to making. 

“I think it might be a good idea–” You slowly but surely sat down on the edge of your hospital bed, the IV poll you were gripping for dear life pumped against the side before Jake stepped a little closer to fix the tangled wires and cords. “Thanks.” You smiled softly as you watched him work.

“I'll let you know how our pre-op meeting goes, Mrs Seresin.” Doctor Ignatti interrupted with a quick tight lipped smile. “And–” Jake raised an eyebrow as your doctor paused in his tracks. “Although probably unsolicited, I've seen too many families come through these halls to know time is a fickle thing, if your kids aren't aware of your current situation, I favour the side of full transparency, no matter the age.” 

You didn't know how to respond so you said nothing and settled on a simple nod with kind eyes to match. Jake however, wasn't as graceful with his snarky growl. He was the very embodiment of a protective German Shepherd with his guard up.

“It's a good thing we didn't ask for your opinion then isn't it.” Jake snapped, he didn't mean to take his insecurities out on the man who had if nothing else saved your life.he was still trying to figure out who this Jensen guy was. But he did and it made you frown with shock horror that such a snarky comment would come from your husband's mouth.

“You’re right, I overstepped.” Doctor Ignatti held it hands up as if to say he was sorry. “I apologise, I'll be back later with an update for you.” You said nothing, you simply chose to remain silent until your doctor had left the room and silence had once again fallen over you and Jake. 

“I didn't mean–” Jake wanted to say he didn't mean to be so snappy. That he really didn't mean to bite the hand that saved his wife, But you 

“You meant it.” The tone you used broke right through the exterior of Jake's hardened shell. Despite his inability to make it known that all Jake was trying to do in that very moment was show a united front on your decision to keep your family, your husband and subsequently your children in the dark about your current situation—he still helped you back into bed, tucked your legs under the Blau and fixed your pillows. “And he’s right you know, whether we want to hear it or not the kids probably need to know why you left so abruptly.” Jake's phone had been ringing off the hook since he left his mother's house. Jasmine was persistent regardless if Jake was answering or not. Constant texts, missed calls, updates on the kids she knew he was thankful for despite his missing in action status. 

“You wanna tell the kids what’s going on?” You and Jake hadn’t really discussed it, he was following your lead on this one. Jake didn’t want to overstep any boundaries you’d set he wasn’t aware of, or had unintentionally forgotten about. He was holding off on everything, telling his sister what the hell was going on, telling his mother more than she ever deserved to know, telling the kids their mum was a little sick. 

“No—no, I wanna tell the kids, for now, that I’m just a little sick and that’s why I needed you here more than they needed you over the next few days.” You explained your view. “I don't want them panicking about me, they're young, too young to need to know the severity of the situation.” 

“Not telling them doesn't make the truth any less real, Honey–what if we tell them and–“ Jake never got a chance to finish his sentence, he never got a chance to say that if you didn’t want to tell your kids he’d support your decision regardless if he agreed or not before you interrupted to explain where you were coming from. 

“They don't need to know Jake, I can't tell them, I can't tell my children that I might be dying alright I just can't.” You were a little more harsh than need be, but the emotional weight of the situation was taking a toll on you. “But I wasn’t about to bite my brain surgeon's head off for offering a valid opinion on a rough situation.” 

“You know what?” Jake cooed as he reached out to touch your cheek, the pad of his thumb caressing your soft skin. The gentle touch brought you a solace you'd never truly understand as Jake's emerald eyes swirled with all the love and admiration in the world. “You’re right.” Jake didn't want to argue, not now, not when he could tell your emotions were running high and life seemed like it was against you. You needed him in your corner, for better or worse. “I’ll call Jas, I'll tell her what's going on, full God's honest truth and then we’ll tell the kids that you're just a little sick.” 

“Just a little–” You replied with tears in your eyes, they were pooling at your lower lash line, ready to spill and open the flood gates. “I'm sorry I didn't tell you.” Jake listened as the pad of his thumb worked to catch the falling tears that cascaded down your cheek. “I should have–you needed to know.”

“I understand why you didn't.” Jake sighed as he sat by your bed side. “I wasn't–” he began to explain but shortly after changed what he was about to say. “I put myself in a position where I could lose you, and I shouldn't have, you and me and whatever our marriage is right now isn't the priority so just know I'm not saying this to fix that.” Jake cooed as he felt his eyes watering. “Right now all that matters is that we focus on you and your health and making sure you are the only priority.” 

***~***~***~***~***~***~***

“I got you one of those pant by numbers kits and some lego flowers I thought you might be able to do to fill the time.” Your mother wore a fake smile so painfully obvious that it made your heart want to burst inside your chest. This wasn't and hadn't been easy on her, carrying the burden of being the only one who knew about your diagnosis. Now, as Jake sat by your bedside, your mother wanted nothing more than to tell him how thankful she was that she now had someone else to carry the weight with. 

But Mary wasn't about to do that, no. She wouldn't make the situation about her. But watching her little girl go through something she wouldn't wish upon her worst enemy was brutal. 

“That's really nice of you mum, you didn't have to do that.” Jake frowned momentarily when he heard you say that go to line. ‘You didn't have to do that.’ It was a sentence he hadn’t heard in a long time. You always used to say it, Jake just wasn't sure when you had stopped saying it to him. There wasn’t an awful lot of things he was going out of his way to do that would earn him a bashful or somewhat self deprecating response like that. 

“I know, but I saw them at Target and thought they might keep you occupied.” Your mothers smile faded just slightly as she placed your presents under the small christmas tree that sat on the top of the small cupboard that could be used to house clothing and personal items patients brought with them. You hadn't paid much mind to unpacking, all you had managed was your toiletries. But your mother had gone above and beyond to make the space you were taking up residency in a little more homie. “How’re you feeling anyway?” 

“I'm alright, a little stiff but Doctor Ignatii said that's to be expected, he’ll be back soon to help with the first few steps.” You knew your mother wasn't really prying about a health update, but more about a romantic one. Her eyes quickly darted to where Jake still sat holding your hand in his. He was afraid that if he let go that you'd disappear. Or worse. “A little shocked to find out my children are still in Texas but I'm sure given the circumstances I'll manage.” 

“Well at least they're supervised and with family, that's all that matters.” Your mother replied as she pushed a little of your hair behind your ear. “Have you given any more thought about cutting your hair?” 

“You were thinking about cutting your hair?” Jake finally managed the courage to jump into the conversation, he still felt like an intruder of some sort. He was still trying to process everything, the very idea that you were battling an aggressive form of breast cancer along with the fact you'd suffered a very recent stroke was all too much for his brain to comprehend. 

“I'm gonna lose it all anyway.” You shrugged as you pressed your lips together in a thin line. “May as well get ahead of the curve and shave it all off before it falls out.” Hair holds memories, in some cultures it's even considered sacred. In some religions women cover their hair after marriage for only their husbands to see, others keep theirs pure and untreated by dyes. Some women of colour from countries across the world prefer to wear their hair in protective styles that give their hair longevity and life. 

But you? You were losing yours. The keratin in your follicles had stopped reproducing, your follicles were dying off and snapping. It was a hard pill to swallow if you were being completely honest, but if shaving your hair off before you were subjected to looking like your daughters weird barbie doll was something that could help you maintain whatever dignity you had left, you were going to do it, regardless if you were slightly worried about your head being an odd shape. It beats you know, dying after all. 

“Doctor Ignatii already took a pretty big chunk anyway from the surgery.” Your mother added. “Besides, it's a little more empowering to shave it yourself than losing it over time.” Jake understood, so he didn't argue. It was your choice at the end of the day. “Now, I'm not staying for too long, I thought I'd head back to yours, tidy up, make sure the house is in order for when you're able to go home.” Before you had a chance to argue or say she didn't have to, Jake was advocating on your behalf. 

“Thanks Maz, that's perfect.” He smiled softly as the pad of his thumb rubbed against your hand. All you did was nod along in agreement, it did sound nice. Unnecessary in your humble opinion, but nice. 

It wasn't long after that your mother was saying her goodbyes to the both of you for the day, being along with Jake wasn't awkward, but it did feel a little uneasy with so much still left to discuss. All the potential what if’s and could be’s. 

“Can you please pass me my laptop?” You were the first one to break the silence that had fallen between the two of you, only the steady threthem of monitors could be heard amongst the thick silence. 

“You still working on that book?” Jake asked rather tentatively, it was a touchy subject. If you said yes then that meant you hadn't had time to finish it before your due date. Jake knew he played more of a role in that then he’d like to admit, but the idea you were still working on the same book meant the separation truly hadnt boded well in your favour to focus on your career. For Jake however, it had opened up another career advancement. The Daggers. 

“Uh yeah actually I am.” You sat up a little straighter in your bed and fixed up the blanket covering your legs. “I shelved it there for a little while.” The explanation truly was just that, you hadn't really had all that much time to work on a new publication while trying to raise three children on your own. “I picked it up again around August, just haven't made much progress with it with everything that's been going on.” 

“Do you feel like sharing some exclusive details with your number one fan?” Jake was almost unashamed in his attempt at breaking down your walls. “Who knows, I might be able to inspire some creativity.” 

“Oh you're my number one fan now are you?” You chuckled softly as you watched Jake reached into the drawer your mother had put your laptop and charger in. “And there isn't much creative freedom when it comes to writing a bibliography for true crime, unless you count ghoulish overkill and an absurd use of dark humour to cover up the truly graphic details of the world's most notorious crimes.” Jake smiled back at you as he held your laptop in one hand, the rose gold Mac with stickers randomly pleased all over the lid. 

“Don't be fooled by the good looks Honey, I can read a sentence or two without stuttering.” 

“Could've fooled me.” You fired back without hesitation as Jake faked a shot to the heart. “You really want me to read some to you?” Jake hadn't asked about your work in months. You'd stopped wondering if he cared about your career path before you decided to walk away from your marriage to focus on yourself. At the end of it all you left believing Jake had stopped caring about the things that made you simply you. 

“Yeah, of course, I mean–it would be nice to read some new material, after all–the copies I have back in North Island are pretty much falling apart from how much I tend to flick through them.” Jake had never been a big true crime fan, that was until you published your first book. 

“Wait, you have my books? Which ones?” The revelation made your heart skip a beat inside your chest, so much so that Jake saw it on the monitor. It made his cheeks flush a crimson red at the very thought he could still make you this flustered. 

“Uh–” Jake started as he came back down to sit beside you, opening up your laptop and placing it on the small but practical table that could go over your legs. “I have all five.” Jake would read the dedication every night before he went to bed and every morning before he went to work. They were all slightly different but the sentiment remained the same. His favourite one to read was:

“Dedicated to the man who loves me so, thank you for your service, I love you with all my heart.” 

Jake knew deep down, after all the two of you had gone through, after all the hurt he’d unintentionally caused with his emotional disconnect, that the dedication in your newest book wouldn't be for him. It would be for your children. 

“You've never told me this before?” Jake should have told you, he should have been more open, more honest about his feelings. He shouldn't have lost sight of what was truly important to him and it definitely shouldn't have taken losing you to realise how important you were. Jake had never known female rage until he dealt and fought with a woman who was feeling undervalued, unappreciated and unwanted. 

“I should have, I know that now.” It was only a small gesture at the bottom of Everest itself but Jake knew now was the time he had to really put the effort in, to show you he truly cared, that he really did love you in sickness and in health. “I'd really like to sit here and maybe I can read what you've written so far out loud so you can just rest–and if there's anything you wanna change, I can do it for you.” 

“Oh you don’t have to—“ Your sentence trailed off into nothing as you looked into your husband’s eyes, searching for an ounce of hesitation or burden in them. But all you saw were those emerald green eyes staring back at you with all the love and warmth in the world. Jake wanted to do this, truly. “Sure, yeah if uh—I’d really like that.” 

It felt nice to be taken care of, to be valued and loved. But it wasn’t enough to undo the damage that Jake had unintentionally caused. He was going to have to put the work in, fight for you as much as you had to fight for your life. 

“Okay.” Jake smiled as he cleared his throat and turned the laptop his way. “Alright Honey, let’s go from the top shall we?”

“Take it away Mr. Ghost Writer.” You cooed as you settled into your hospital bed and found a comfortable position, if anything you were feeling rather tired. Maybe you’d be able to get some more sleep soon—that wasn’t such a bad idea. 

“In the early hours of January 1996, after an evening spent celebrating at Club Bayview in the Perth suburb of Claremonth, 18-year-old Sarah Spiers called a taxi to nearby Mosman Park. But when the cab arrived, she’d already gone. Sarah was never seen again.” Jake read out loud as you listened and laid there wondering if this was all some Lavender Haze to mask the reality that your marriage was over: 

 Or really how Jake wanted the two of you to be. Together again, in sickness and in health. 

***~***~***~***~***~***~***

“Just tilt your head a little.” Jake was being as gentle as he ever could be. “Let me know if I'm hurtin’ you.” The steam from the shower filled the bathroom as you sat on the little shower stool. The hot water cascaded down your naked self taking all the grimy sticky remanence from surgery away with it. 

“Feels perfect.” You sighed in relief at the feeling of being clean once again, Jake stood behind you washing your body with a small lofa in soft circular motions. Under the water with you. It wasn't awkward to see each other so exposed, however, given the circumstances, you felt incredibly vulnerable. “Can you get my neck a little more?” Jake obliged to your request and moved the soap free suds around your next. It felt surreal, otherworldly even after the last few days. You let the silence fall around you as you reveled in the sensation of Jake's hands roaming your naked body in a not so sexual way. It felt nice to be touched in such a way that made you feel safe. 

“Jake–?” Your voice sounded softer than it did just a few moments ago, your eyes lingered over to the sink where in the corner of your eye, you could see the clippers you’d bought with you to the hospital in preparation for this very moment. Originally you were going to do it yourself, then, you thought perhaps you could ask your mother–but now, sitting under the stream of steady warm water with Jake helping to cleanse your weakened body post surgery– you knew you had to ask him. 

“Yeah Honey?” Jake cooed as he washed your body, being ever so careful to not knock and bump the cords and wires that were still attached to your arms. Doctor Ignatii had assured Jake they could get wet–but he was still sus.  

“Will–will you shave my head?” The silence that followed as deafening as you felt Jake's hands nearly came to a complete stop. “I just–I dont think I'm strong enough to do it myself.” Again, Jake's silence was all consuming. “You don't have to if you don't want to, I uh–i understand if it’s too big of an ask–I can always ask mu–” Before you could go off on a tangent, Jake was interrupting as he came around to kneel before you. 

“No, no Honey, of course I'll help you.” Jake made sure to clarify. “It's just–it's just no one ever prepares you for your wife to ask you to do something like this.” You saw the sadness in Jake's eyes, the understanding and compassion. “But of course, yes, I'll do whatever you need me to and if being your barber is something you need then consider me the best in the biz.” 

Your heart couldn't contain itself inside your chest as you reached out to caress Jake's scruffed cheek. For whatever reason, you couldn't stop the worlds from escaping your lips. 

“I love you–” The Pomegranate truly is the perfect symbol when comparing the differences between men and women. The enjoyment of a pomegranate is something that cannot and shouldn’t be rushed. Instead, it's something that requires patience and gentle hands. With deliberation and commitment comes the reward of its sweet flesh. 

Jake knew it was the environment, the situation and the fear of being slowly taken by disease, but he couldn't help but to lean in, cup your face and kiss you like he’d missed you everyday since you left him back in January. The slow pull of desire ached in Jake's chest as your tongue danced with his: and as he pulled away to let his forehead rest against yours? He allowed himself just a single moment of reprieve: 

“I love you so much Honey–oh so much.” 

***~***~***~***~***~***~

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The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

During the reign of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, several notable rulers ascended to power, shaping the course of Bulgarian history. Here are some of the key monarchs of that era:

Petur (Teodor, Kalopetur): Ruled from 1186 to 1196. Ivan Asen The First: Reigned from 1186 to 1195. Kaloyan: Held power from 1197 to 1207. Boril: Governed from 1207 to 1218. Ivan Asen The Second: Ruled from 1218 to 1241. Kaliman The First Asen (Kaloman Asen): Ruled from 1241 to 1246. Mihail The Second Asen: Reigned from 1246 to 1256. Mitso Asen: His reign lasted from 1256 to 1257. The Right Reverends Patriarchs of Turnovo The religious leadership of Turnovo, represented by its Patriarchs, played a crucial role in shaping the spiritual and cultural landscape of the region. Here are some of the esteemed Patriarchs of Turnovo:

Yoakim: The first Patriarch, revered for eternity. Vasilii, Yoakim, and Ignatii: Their memories are cherished forever. Makarii: Honored as a blessed Patriarch and Sacred Martyr. Dorotei, Roman, and Teodosii: Their legacies endure eternally. Simeon: His memory is revered forever Sightseeing Turkey. Yoanikii: Remembered for eternity. Evtimii: His memory is immortalized forever. Important Dates in the History of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom The history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom is punctuated by significant events that shaped its destiny:

26th of October 1185/86: Announcement of the uprising against Byzantium, leading to the reestablishment of the Bulgarian state. 1187: Declaration of Turnovo as the capital of The Free Tzarstvo (Kingdom). 9th of March 1230: Victory at the Battle of Klokotnitsa, leading to the naming of the newly built church “Sveti Chetiredesete Muchenici” (Saint of Forty Martyrs). 1235: Reestablishment of The Turnovo Patriarchy, with Yoakim The First appointed as Patriarch. 17th of July 1393: Fall of the capital city under the Ottoman Empire after a prolonged siege. These dates mark significant milestones in the history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, highlighting its triumphs, struggles, and eventual decline.

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The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom

During the reign of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, several notable rulers ascended to power, shaping the course of Bulgarian history. Here are some of the key monarchs of that era:

Petur (Teodor, Kalopetur): Ruled from 1186 to 1196. Ivan Asen The First: Reigned from 1186 to 1195. Kaloyan: Held power from 1197 to 1207. Boril: Governed from 1207 to 1218. Ivan Asen The Second: Ruled from 1218 to 1241. Kaliman The First Asen (Kaloman Asen): Ruled from 1241 to 1246. Mihail The Second Asen: Reigned from 1246 to 1256. Mitso Asen: His reign lasted from 1256 to 1257. The Right Reverends Patriarchs of Turnovo The religious leadership of Turnovo, represented by its Patriarchs, played a crucial role in shaping the spiritual and cultural landscape of the region. Here are some of the esteemed Patriarchs of Turnovo:

Yoakim: The first Patriarch, revered for eternity. Vasilii, Yoakim, and Ignatii: Their memories are cherished forever. Makarii: Honored as a blessed Patriarch and Sacred Martyr. Dorotei, Roman, and Teodosii: Their legacies endure eternally. Simeon: His memory is revered forever Sightseeing Turkey. Yoanikii: Remembered for eternity. Evtimii: His memory is immortalized forever. Important Dates in the History of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom The history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom is punctuated by significant events that shaped its destiny:

26th of October 1185/86: Announcement of the uprising against Byzantium, leading to the reestablishment of the Bulgarian state. 1187: Declaration of Turnovo as the capital of The Free Tzarstvo (Kingdom). 9th of March 1230: Victory at the Battle of Klokotnitsa, leading to the naming of the newly built church “Sveti Chetiredesete Muchenici” (Saint of Forty Martyrs). 1235: Reestablishment of The Turnovo Patriarchy, with Yoakim The First appointed as Patriarch. 17th of July 1393: Fall of the capital city under the Ottoman Empire after a prolonged siege. These dates mark significant milestones in the history of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom, highlighting its triumphs, struggles, and eventual decline.

#The Tzars of The Second Bulgarian Kingdom