#Im out of antidepressants n birth control so that’s prolly why I feel so blank inside but like

[cherrysnax]

bleh

#Im out of antidepressants n birth control so that’s prolly why I feel so blank inside but like #part of me is so mad I let people guilt me into not killing my self #and I know how that sounds #weghh not ‘mad’ but more like #now what #im here #what do you want me to do #I don’t want to be here I have like 4 things I care about. I don’t want to talk to people I don’t want to do anything #and I still am but I’m just rotting #is that any better than just killing myself? I wasn’t made for existence and I think it’s okay to acknowledge that now #im bad at being a person and I don’t want to anymore!!! bro I been suicidal since I was 8 am I just a good actor so these people think pilld #actually work lol 😭 they just make me numb and TAHTS part of the reason I wanna die #im not living I’m just here ✌️ and everyone knows I’m not gonna fucking amount to something #I don’t get why killing myself would be a bad thing if u believe in like heaven or whatever we’ll all go there eventually #well not me #or my parents #I don’t think I believe in that anyway. how the fuck do I have acid reflux I ate ONCE today #but yeah we all die why can’t I choose. I have like 4 wants maybe. #and like money wise me killing my self is the worst option only because so many people have invested in me #but I never told them to do that. that’s on them #whatever I need to take a walk tomorrow I’ve been in my room for too long anyway #prolly get my head clear or whatever #suicide ment #vent #I would much rather vent abt how much I wanna kill myself than try and regret it