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bunny-rambles · 2 years

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my baby ;;; you're not selfish for feeling sad or lonely, you're human, and it's human to experience disappointment :(((

let me tell you a story tho: when i was a bit younger than i am now i was actually a pretty famous fanfiction writer. seems silly now that i think back on it but i actually was :' the type of famous where i woke up with people writing that they wished to be able to write like me, or that i was their inspiration, or that they hoped we could be friends. and you know what the funny story was? at the time my writing was atrocious. utterly, terribly, cringe-worthy type of writing, the type that makes older me want to go back and slap younger me in the face.

after that i took sort of a gap year, talked to some senior writers, improved my writing a lot, and when i came back guess what? my time had kind of ended, all the people that used to follow me where not there anymore and i went to receiving tons of comments to every single one of my stories to having like, one or two and mostly from my closest friends. yet the fics i wrote in that period were undoubtedly better than anything else that i had written prior. and it was kind of disheartening, but in my case at the end of the day i came to realise that writing was a thing that made me happy, first and foremost, and if by doing that i could make someone else happy as well it didn't really matter to me whether it was one person or one hundred, even if i never really stopped thinking about all the what ifs. sometimes i still wish i was the type of fanwriter that receives praise and appreciation and has people drawing fanarts on her works. because i'm human, and as such i have ambitions, i have dreams, i feel hurt, and all the likes.

what i was trying to say with this useless story is. first of all, recognition and praise doesn't make your talent. you're no less good of a writer if no one reads you and you're no necessarily better if you have thousands of followers. you're you, and what you write is a reflection of you, and it's good and it might be improvable as everything human is, but it's also perfect as is, and you shouldn't let even yourself think that it's not. but secondly, feeling sad is human, feeling left out is human, and you shouldn't feel bad about feeling like that, like you're selfish for suffering or something.

this was supposed to be comforting in some way but eh, unfortunately i never had a way with words when it came to feelings. what i was trying to say though is, i unfortunately can't fix your problems like i had some sort of magic wand. but if i can tell you how good i genuinely think you are every single time i write to you then i will, because i think it's true. and if one day i'll find you with thousands of followers i'll be really happy for you and i really wish you'll achieve that, but that won't change the fact that i still get a smile on your face whenever i see you posting a new work :3

and speaking of works! i've seen your new ruby piece and will rush to check it out, but the part of me that still believed me to be able to make a point wanted to write to you first. feel free to answer to this or not, it was more of a incoherent babble for you ahah

goodnight my sweet buns, i'll send lots of hugs to hold you tight whenever your mood drops even a lil bit

con affetto,

- 🍓

Hm,

I wish I could make myself believe that I’m not selfish or greedy for wanting to have my feelings noticed, but at this moment in time, I can’t bring myself to. I feel like sometimes, maybe I should never show emotions to anyone. Other times, I feel like this is my safe place, and maybe it should be okay to express when I’m not feeling my best. I’m 50/50 with everything at this moment in time, and I’m still working on not feeling selfish for experiencing emotion. It’s a work in progress.

Anyway, apologies for going off topic, I know exactly what you mean. I’ve been writing for years, just never published any, and I too got compliments that (now) I think were just completely undeserved. Now I’m improving, I wish for those comments back, because now I feel like my writing is at the standard I want it to be (at times, sometimes it still feels stiff and emotionless to me) but I just never get them. It’s very disheartening.

Like the Ruby piece, since you brought it up, I think last time I posted the first part I got a lot of notes, now the second part, although yes has a lot of praise instead of silent rb’s, is barely at 150. And I think it’s so much better than almost all of my posts !! It’s the longest thing I’ve written, the longest I’ve worked on a piece, and had the most enjoyment out of writing it. Sure, it might not be perfect, but I enjoyed writing it. And truthfully that’s all that should matter. It’s just, when I spend so much time on something, I’d want it to get what I think is suitable attention. That was really off topic, sorry. My head isn’t feeling very good so I’m rambling a lot more.

But… Thank you. I don’t think my writing is perfect, but I’m glad you think so. And I’ll try not to feel selfish for feeling the things that I do.

It was comforting, I’ve reread this a few times since you’ve sent it in. I wasn’t expecting you to say anything since you rarely send more than one message if I’ve not responded, but it was a very pleasant surprise. I’m sending back my love and hugs, thank you so much for being here for me. Even as a faceless anon, I still considering you rather close to me now, purely because of how sweet you are to me. Thank you (again) I’m so happy my works make you smile, and I hope to continue to make you smile while you’re here

Buona notte, fragola amica.

ti voglio bene <3

#bun speaks #🍓 anon

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yukisraven · 2 years

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aight i didn't reread most of this but this almost everything in one long incomprehensible mess. have fun ^-^

ok, so picture this: a six hour drive and i'm banging out the tunes on the car's main speakers and trying to convince my dad that stray kids are good. And then, then, a certain song comes on. a certain horrible song. it's thirty seconds long and the entire time the car is just filled with the tension of both of us being too aware of how cringe the song is. this is your fault. like why. there's a cat licking your birthday cake is not the ideal car tune. yeah. oh and i may have had to skip a few emotional songs because. well. because. :). ok bye <3 ily /p teehee. shut up i'm not a softie (maybe a tiny bit but like. shut up.) i can hear you laughing at me from here you little stinky

bitch. bitch. i. hate. you. /j. i did not need to get rickrolled mid-revision. i mean, i wasn't actually revising, but i was supposed to be. no-one needs to know i was writing fanfic instead like a loser. but bitch. bitch. yeah. that's it. ly ciao

ALSO also skz are apparently gonna have a world tour this year. if we lived in the same country and like knew each other irl etc etc i would so take you to it. and yeah. also dancing to secret secret with you in a rainy twilight when no-one's watching. yeah. ok i'm gonna try and revise again.

soft. soft. why is this stupid cat song like this. it's literally called meow. i'm hugging you so much rn. maybe fighting you a little bit too. but hugging you sosososososo much. i wish you were real so i could like. physically hug you. well, you are probably real but yk what i mean. ok. i'm actually gonna revise now. bye.

soft. i am trying so hard to resist the urge to redownload the app and just leave an ask saying some dumb shit or smth and then run away again. why did you have to be so cool and likeable? /nm . lol let's see if i ever get the guts to send you all this bullshit. i'm a wuss so i'm guessing rn i won't. or at least i'll delete this bit bc it's stupid. but yeah. if you're actually seeing this. hi. (°//-//°) (⨀//-//⨀) ⨀-⨀ (⨀⨀) <- haha boobas

there is approximately 12.09 kg of human flesh for every 1 kg of ant flesh. i don't know why i went to the effort of researching and calculating that. maths. pain. suffering. not psychology revision. :| lmao. anyways. hana dul set CHEESE

you did watch bakuten? yeah i'm pretty sure you did. ok. cool. of course you did misato kinnie. yeah.

haha i feel like i should regret sending you this but oh well.

I am so many emotional very much cackling tears rage oh my god

AHAHAHAHA cryign thats ur fault for playing that playlist instead of just skz music <3<3 IN FRONT OF UR DAD ??@?@?@ IAOEBEJSOSJ theres a cat licking ur birthday cake is very u vibes okay shut upzjsheb oh. Well i just got rickrilled by ur playlist. Are u happy now. Is this what u wanted. Asshat. <3 Softie the most softie although ur probably going tk have enough reason to call me that after a few hours ahah ahaa. Hah thats ur punishment for not revising ig ^-^ cryign red face in hands yeah that would have been nice. Red face in hands tears many tears branch u absolute softie so true. secret secrwt n shes in the rain n then we inievitably slip in the rain<3 or me anyway because i cant dance for shit anymore n i pull you down w me oh my god i want to go to concerts w u and sit in the sunrise arguing n OH YMY GOD BEFORE I KET YOU CODY FRY OH MY HOD ITS SO PRETTY AND GENTLE TREE I WILK SOB shut up dont insult the cat song ur insulting urself. Basically. Dont i will literally ruin u n then hug u. Sobing actually so true i wish you were an irl so i coukd hug u too dying crying. So true i am very cool n likeable/hj but also but also i could literally say the same about u. Intriguing information thank u olive <3. SO TEUE . i . No sadly. Unfortunately i kin coach shida instead

#ily/p ohmygdowbegdi #sobbing n then many tears #one of these day i will aftually start crying/pos in a public olace bc of u n then what #worstie <3 #long post #tw caps #cryign please i was debatibg wherer to answer this or keep this in the inbox n answer in messages because owpqjdv3iabdje

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