#Bad news is that I might go hiatus forever

[gabessquishytum]

This has been haunting my head forever, but as we all know Robert Smith was the leading inspiration for Dream in the comics with more than a bit of Neil sprinkled in there (and a few other goth rock bands like Bauhaus' Peter Murphy) and I just can't get over the image of a goth rockstar Dream.

It's the late 70s, and our boy Dream is riding a creative high of LSD and pedal effects to the top of the pops. They're calling the band he fronts, name and members are up to you or whoever takes this idea on, Goth bc they're too dark for New Wave but are just upbeat enough to steer clear of Televison's particular brand of Post-Punk. It's a newer label but a fitting one considering how dour and moody the genre has gotten since Ian Curtis's death. One he despises as he claims he's very happy with his current success and how his life is going.

But he's not happy. He hates playing to the newly forming stereotype of his fans, but he isn't. Celebrity Marriages hardly ever last and his relationship with his novelist wife is crumbling around him. He loves his son but the touring schedule is killing all of his free time. He's also pretty deep into substance abuse but he wouldn't admit it to his big sister let alone the random journo who has a camera in his face while he's trying to catch a 5:30 am flight to start his newest tour. He's just burnt out and creatively stuck as the label tries to pigeonhole him into this new subgenre, which he doesn't want anymore. Life, his life, can't be doom and gloom forever even though that's where it looks like it's heading. Forever being hailed as the Nightmare King.

Meanwhile, three radio stations over, Hob Gadling is desperately trying to hang onto life. He's a bit older now than when he first broke out onto the music scene as a rambunctious coat rider of the Sex Pistols, but he's still going strong. Punk has always been his outlet. Life sucks and you keep on living despite it. It tried to kill him not long after he debuted with substance use, but he powered through it and got clean. His wife died in childbirth, but he stuck around to raise his son. He even took a three-year hiatus and completely missed how much the sound had changed from his younger years. Even as post-punk has risen in popularity and the friends he knew have either died or changed their sound completely, he won't give up hope! Punk's not dead and neither is he. No matter how long his hair gets or if he grows out of his leather jacket.

The two meet rather coincidentally. Hob just happens to be opening for Dream on the Europe leg of his tour. Unsurprisingly the tension around Dream's band has become a powder keg and when he finally snaps and fires his guitarist, his bassist also leaves. With half the band gone, Dream considers calling it quits right then and there. Fuck the new album, fuck the last fifteen or so dates. He wants to go home. But Hob sees how close they are to finishing the tour and puts his foot down. They will finish the tour! So he offers up his services to Dream. He's not bad with a guitar and if Dream can cover the bass, then he'll play all night if he has to. Because out there on stage? That's life and he wants to keep making people happy and give them something that might transcend time and space. To never die bc his name is there among the annuls of rock history.

And in time, Dream will come around to his new friend. He will learn to appreciate the zest for performing and living his new friend has. He will also think he has the greatest body known to man and will forever laugh at the terribly done anarchy A Hob has tattooed on his ass, but that's neither for here or there. For now, Dream pulls himself together and gets his bass out from the dark pits of hell the roadies call gear storage. For the show must go on.

Oh god I want an entire novel length story around this. It’s fantastic! I have so many thoughts about these two!!

Hob is falling in love with all the new sounds that he’s hearing. He spent his time on his hiatus being a suburban dad, and now he’s back on the scene is just feels amazing. He can’t get enough of Roxy Music and David Bowie and Elvis Costello. And he’s determined to drag himself back up among those names! He’s got so many ideas of where punk can go! And he’s fascinated by Dream and his band. The lyrics are a little dark and wallowy, but Hob understands that actually people need to hear that. Life in the UK isn’t easy, particularly for young people. They need something loud and desperate and real. Little does he know, Dream feels like what he’s doing is so far away from being real. He feels likes such a fraud. He can’t get off the hamster wheel except by shooting up and passing out.

Hob recognises all of this in approximately 0.5 seconds after meeting Dream. It makes him pretty sad, but he’s determined that he’ll lift Dream out of his funk. If nothing else, he’ll make him love music again.

So when Hob said he was OK with a guitar, he was lying - he's actually a bit of a genius, and it's fair to say that Dream falls a little bit in love with him about half way through the sound check. Instead of hiding in the dressing room and licking his wounds over the band breaking up, he actually watches as Hob opens for him. Hob is very classic punk, it's all very "fuck the government, fuck me up the arse" kind of stuff, but Dream doesn't get bored for a single second. Hob is just that entertaining, and his riffs are insane. Dream itches to write a song for him. And when Hob ends the set with a jokey little song that his five year old son allegedy wrote the lyrics for (lil Robyn is very punk, just like his daddy) Dream’s eyes actually get a bit misty. It's probably all the smoke.

And there's really no time to get emotional! Dream’s drummer, Constantine, thankfully didn't walk out with the rest of them. So somehow, with Hob’s virtuosic guitar skills and sheer determination, plus Dream’s refusal to fail yet again, they actually make a really decent show. Dream feels a tingle of the old spark that he used to get when he first started out - it probably has something to do with the way Hob upends a bottle of water all over his head half way through the show and grins like a maniac.

After the show they crash in a local hotel. Hob calls his kid from the payphone and Dream wishes that he had the courage to do the same. Instead he takes some pills so he doesn't have to feel the high from the show gradually wearing off into nothingness. He doesn't know why Hob comes and sits next to him in the dark, pressing against him from thigh to shoulder. He stays for the whole of Dream’s trip, in fact, humming something quiet and classic. Dream feels quite ashamed of himself, and for the first time he thinks that maybe he'd feel better without the drugs. Maybe.

As the tour gets off to a slow start, Dream starts to notice that Hob is having some kind of positive effect on him. Just little thing. They get breakfast together, so Dream actually eats something, which is unusual. Their little arguments don't get out of hand, because Hob never lets them escalate. When Dream is angry and spitting at the world, Hob is sure to point of something positive. Not that Hob doesn't get sad, too - he just deals with it differently. He goes for long walks, and turns off the news when it gets bad. He gets himself a snack when he's irritable, and laughs about it afterwards.

Dream writes him a near impossible guitar solo and it feels like a "thank you".

They have a sweet, unexpected first kiss. It's 2am and they're standing at the edge of the road, waiting for a mechanic to come out to their broken down tour bus. There's no one around to see, so Dream rests his head on Hob’s shoulder. He's sore, and weary. Hob turns his head slightly and tucks an arm around him, and it just happens. They kiss. It is, of course, the first of many.

And you can bet that Dream kisses that anarchy tattoo a million time, too.

#the sandman #dreamling #nsft #cw drugs #cw substance use

[sitp-recs]

🎶 HD Wireless 2023 - Sitp Recs

After a short hiatus I come bearing Wireless gifts! I was hoping to get started today but a power outage gave me some free hours (and a charged phone) on Thursday night so here we are. The fest has been posting for the past two weeks and these are my favorites so far. I was thinking I might just update this list as I go on through the second half (instead of creating a new one) so pls expect a few reblogs. The idea is to celebrate these amazing works and invite folks to check them out before reveals! Keep in mind that as usual, my picks are 100% personal and based on my own preferences. I strongly recommend checking the full collection. Enjoy!

Fic:

🚬 Don’t hate him when he gets up to leave by @deliciousblizzardshark (M, 2k)

The linens are white and empty, sunlight slanting through the window illuminating a bed that has been deserted. Draco knew Potter would leave; he’s always gone by morning. Draco doesn’t even remember what he looks like in daylight.

🦵Wrong in all the Right Ways by @phdmama (E, 4k)

Draco is pretty sure that Potter is trying to kill him. Not in, like a murdery sort of way. There’s been too much atonement and forgiveness and redemption for that. Too many difficult conversations that ended, more than once, with awkward hugs. Maybe even some tears. They’re not friends obviously, but at the very least, they’ve moved past the past. (Mostly.) So no, Potter’s definitely not trying to kill him in a permanent death sort of way, but more like… In a horny sort of way.

🌃 All I Think About by @skeptiquewrites (T, 4.4k)

Sometimes all it takes is one perfect late summer night in June.

📱 Mirrors inside me by @cavendishbutterfly (E, 6k)

Draco’s been in love with Potter forever. And just because they work together, and they fuck, and they text and break up and get back together regularly doesn’t mean Potter needs to know. In fact, it’s a pretty good reason why he shouldn’t.

🎹 About This Place by @academicdisasterfic (E, 10k)

Harry left everything, including Draco. Harry’s returned to everything, including Draco. Things are never quite so simple, though perhaps they could be. Based on ‘You and I’ by Lady Gaga for Wireless 2023.

🌈 I only want the ones I envy (I envy) by porcelainheart3 (E, 13k)

Despite this arrangement he has with Draco, conducted entirely in the privacy of a dusty stationery cabinet, Harry is definitely not gay. But to appease his friends, he agrees to go on one (1) date with a man. Just to be sure.

🥃 if i could never give you peace by poisonivy206 (E, 17k)

Eleven years after the Battle of Hogwarts, Aurors Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy are forcibly brought together by a new case that's bound to reopen old wounds. Enter a Firewhisky problem, prejudices that never really go away, and an obsession as old as time.

🚙 Rich Friend by @sorrybutblog (E, 18k)

As far as Harry can tell, Draco Malfoy is still rich as hell. He’s just not a wizard anymore. Featuring: Draco Malfoy trying to make it as a Muggle pop star, Harry Potter as our confused and horny hero, bad driving, good music, and the mysterious magic of falling for someone.

🍫 Waking Up Slow by @sweet-s0rr0w, art by @ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm (E, 22k)

'Twas the night before Christmas, although it’s July / Draco’s a shopkeeper, no-one knows why / There’s hiking and witch caves, freak snowfalls and more / Bad Christmas jumpers, nosy neighbours galore / Narcissa’s here too, but… something’s amiss / And what’s in those chocolates that’s making them kiss?

🪩 Take You Home by @lqtraintracks (E, 26k)

Everybody’s a little fucked up after the war, Draco especially. What starts as hate sex after a night out, eventually turns into something else, something more like comfort. And even though his friends all tell Harry he’s just being used, all Harry’s doing is making sure Draco gets home in one piece. He’s not falling helplessly in love.

🐍 Sun Thief by @floydig, art by BlackRose532 (E, 28k)

It’s 2005, and Draco Malfoy says, “Fuck the Ministry,” Harry works as a handyman in muggle London, and Draco should really stop pissing off the Squib gangs. Or: Harry beats up a pimp and isn’t sorry about it, Draco deals black market potions, and they’re shagging. Again.

🍊 Nothing But You On My Mind by @moonflower-rose (M, 29k)

Potter has been in Australia on an internship for almost a year, and Draco cannot wait for him to get back home. They'll finally have a chance to talk about their feelings for each other. What could possibly go wrong? Loads, as it turns out.

🌊 What We Left Behind by peachydreamxx (E, 33k)

Harry's recovering from an injury. Malfoy's recovering from heartbreak. Beaten down and bruised, Harry takes up Malfoy's offer to stay at his secluded seaside cottage in Dorset. It'll be good to get away from it all. It's only for a few days, and it's only so he can heal. Nothing else. Digging up past feelings will only make matters worse, and besides, Malfoy doesn't feel the same way. Does he?

🏝️ LA, Who Am I To Love You? by @epitomereally (E, 42k) ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

Harry’s summer in LA is not going as expected. Pansy Parkinson keeps inviting him to parties in the Hollywood Hills and harassing him to finally go to the physical therapist, Blaise Zabini keeps slipping new strains of his company’s magical weed into Harry’s pockets in hopes of an endorsement, and Draco Malfoy keeps having sex with everyone but Harry.

🧩 The Waiting by @oknowkiss (E, 43.5k)

It’s been almost ten years since Draco Malfoy disappeared during a routine Curse Breaker training exercise. Harry, his partner in more ways than one, is determined to figure out why. As the past resurfaces and the present fades into confusion, Harry discovers the only thing more unreliable than memory is love.

🐶 Everybody Hates a Tourist by @wolfpants (E, 51k)

On a stag do in sunny Brighton with the Gryffindor lads, the last person Harry expects to run into is Draco Malfoy. After a glimpse of Malfoy’s Muggle life in Britain’s gay capital, Harry’s curiosity gets the better of him and he finds himself returning to the seaside again and again, drawn to the city, drawn to this new version of Malfoy that Harry barely recognises from school.

Art:

📸 Alive by @itsphantasmagoria (E)

Harry is lost after the final battle, but he finds comfort from an unexpected source.

🎙️ Why don't you like me? by @caroll-in (T)

Failing to ask Harry out, Draco deals with his feelings in a very dramatic fashion.

🥂 Shivers and Cold Champagne by @maesterchill (T)

Sometimes, you meet someone in the club, and you just know...they’re all in.

🕶️ keep driving by @babooshkart (M)

cocaine, side boob, choke her with a sea view

#hd wireless 2023 #sitp recs

[rickssugarplum]

Rick Returns

After a much too long hiatus, I have finally made a new Rick fic. Wow. A lot has changed since my last fic, but I want to thank all of you amazing readers who have been so patient. Please forgive me if my writing is a little rusty. Thanks again and excited for Season 7 tonight! ❤

(Rick C-137 x Reader) SFW-, Swearing, Hurt/Comfort, Missing Someone, Season 6 Spoilers, 1,900+ words

Rick comes to see you again after a long time. And you find some changes in him.

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It had been too long. Far too long. You hadn't heard a single word from Rick in what felt like a lifetime and were still wondering what the hell went wrong. It seemed to have happened out of nowhere. One day, everything had been fine, and then suddenly, he all but disappeared. He didn't come see you anymore; he wouldn't call you up, not even a single text. At first, you started to think an adventure went awry. Then you started thinking something was really wrong, but you weren't sure what. Is he on a new planet? Did he have to do a high-paying mission? What if he's hurt? Or could he be dead? With how things are now, he might as well be. He started to become a series of bittersweet memories now. You did everything you could to try to forget him, but that was pointless. Rick Sanchez wasn't a man you can just forget, no matter how hard you tried. Many tears were shed, and many thoughts crept into your mind. If his leaving had nothing to do with his space-traveling lifestyle.

Did I do something wrong?

Did he find someone else?

Was I...not enough?

Many months had passed, and you were certain the blue-haired scientist was out of your life forever.

Close to midnight, you were in your bathroom washing your face and getting ready to sleep. As you enter your bedroom, about to lay down in your bed, you hear a sound you thought you would never hear again—the loud warp of a portal.

Immediately, your heart sped up rapidly as you wondered if you were hallucinating. But when you saw a young brunette boy in a yellow t-shirt, you were completely puzzled.

".....Morty??"

You were worried he was here to tell you really bad news about his grandfather. But you had no time to even ask what was happening before another figure broke through the portal. A figure much taller. The silhouette of his spiky hair caught your eye immediately.

It was him. He was here. Rick was back in your room.

His eyes were fixed on you right away. There was almost a determination in them. Yet he also looked unsure.

"Thanks, Morty. I'll take it from here." He motioned the kid to the portal, presumably back home. The boy took a worried glance at both of you before turning back through the portal and disappearing. Now it was just you and Rick. Looking into his eyes for the first time in forever, all the pain came back crystal clear. And the source was right in front of you.

"Bab-"

"DON'T. YOU. DARE. 'BABY' ME."

Rick shut his mouth and understood right away. You were not going to let him off so easily.

"You son of a bitch." You spat at him.

"I know you're mad, and I-"

"Mad!? You ghost me for months; I haven't had even one measly fucking text, and you think I'm mad!?" You interrupted. "I didn't know what the hell happened to you! All these months without any contact from you. Nothing."

Rick stayed silent. He had no argument to make.

"At first, I just thought, 'Oh, he's on a big adventure with Morty! No biggie!' Or had a run-in with an alien mob or something, and it would just take a bit longer to get back to me," you explained. Looking back at Rick, he was rubbing the back of his neck, his eyes looking down to the floor. But you knew he was still listening.

"I was starting to think you were dead." You confessed, trying to keep yourself together.

Rick took in a deep breath before he answered. "I owe you an explanation. All I ask right now is that you'll let me give you that," he requested.

Goddamnit. Just hearing his voice again is painful.

"I thought you were done bailing on people," you said bitterly.

Rick interjected, "Hey, don't start with that." You watched him grab his flask out of his lab coat and take a sip from it.

"Why? Truth too much for you? Does the great Rick Sanchez actually have a kryptonite?" you mocked.

Rick put his hand over his mouth, keeping himself quiet as you let out everything you suppressed inside all this time.

"You told me you'd never leave me behind. No matter where you'd go, you would stick around." You scoffed. "I was really fucking stupid to believe you."

Rick was starting to get agitated. This was not how he pictured this playing out.

"Ugh. Look, I didn't come here to argue."

"No. You want to smooth everything over so I can do any favors you'll want. Bet you never even thought about me all this time. Out of sight, out of mind, right?"

"It's not like that!" he argued. The nerve of him "Why wouldn't it be? It's the same ending to every chapter in your life, Rick. You'll never change."

He winced. That one stung a little. You knew some of your statements could hurt him, but you were too angry to care. Part of you wanted him to see how it felt to be let down by someone you've given your heart to.

"You left an entire dimension after destroying it."

Rick was losing his composure. "Don't."

"Left your family on a tiny planet when the world was going to shit."

He didn't want to hear any of this. "Stop."

"You left Morty to be with some fucking crows."

"Knock it off," he warned.

"Or what!? Are you gonna leave again?" you challenged. "I was starting to accept the fact that you wouldn't come back. What would stop you now?"

"That's not what I meant!" he argued.

"Why would I be so special that you wouldn't bail again? You've done it your whole life. Starting with your own wife and daughter!"

Rick lost it. "I DIDN'T LEAVE MY WIFE AND DAUGHTER!" he shouted. His hands tangled in his hair, and his eyes squeezed shut.

That stopped you dead in your tracks. Confused, you stepped closer to him. A soft gasp escapes when you see that his face has now become wet with tears.

"Rick...?" you said softly. All the rage you previously had inside you has now completely evaporated. This new shift startled you. He was not someone who openly broke down. Nor would he tell such a lie while doing so.

If he didn't leave them, then why weren't they ever with him? Unless his wife took their child and left him, or if they had...

...........

No.

A new feeling is integrated into you: guilt. You were starting to pick up all the tragic pieces together. The heartbreak was plain to see on Rick's face as he trembled in front of you.

In that moment, the source of all his demons became more clear than ever before. He had truly suffered the worst kind of pain.

"Oh...Rick...." Your voice cracked. The distance between you both closed as you wrapped your arms around him. He accepts them immediately and holds on tightly.

"I'm so sorry..."

His face is buried in your neck. To shield his face, or more to just feel you again, it didn't matter. Right now, he needed this. Stroking his baby blue hair, you had almost forgotten how soft it was...

"Rick...I'm sorry...I had no idea..." you said in shame, thinking back to everything you'd said to him before. Now, he had every right to be mad at you. But his first response you received was a soft, gentle kiss on your neck, making you lightly shiver.

"It's haunted me for many years. Consumed most of my life," he confessed. Lifting his head up, you see his face. His eyes were red, and his cheeks were damp from his hurt flooding out of him. Your thumbs gently brush away the tears under his eyes. "I...thought I had finally could have a new chance to find some stability, be with a family, but...something did come up...and it all came flooding back..."

Your brows raised at that.

"So...that's why I haven't been around."

You still weren't entirely aware of the whole story. But one thing was certain: When Rick Sanchez is consumed by something, he gives his all into it.

"I'm such a fucking idiot..." you blurted out, shaking your head. "I thought...you had just gotten bored and moved on from me..."

Rick interjected, "Oh no, baby no..." He pulled you back into his arms, placing your head on his chest. His heartbeat soothed you as you took a deep breath in and out.

"You weren't the only one I hurt here... I-I had kept Morty out of it all too..."

A sigh escapes you. "He's such an amazing grandson to you," you mutter.

"Yeah...but he's not my grands-"

"Yes, he is." You interrupted. "It doesn't matter where you came from or where he came from. He's been there for you through everything and seen you at your worst. And the fact that he came here tonight with you just to make sure you were okay shows me that he still cares about you despite everything. I know he wouldn't want any other Rick. And you wouldn't trade him for any other Morty. You are his grandpa, Rick."

His arms hold you a bit tighter, a silent 'thank you' for your encouraging words.

"Did he tell you to come talk to me?" you wondered.

"Uh no. I, uhh, hooo boy...You won't believe it when I tell you," he warned you awkwardly.

"What?" You didn't know what or who else could convince him to do anything.

"I...was told I should see you by...my uhh...therapist..." he finished, rubbing the back of his neck.

Your eyes bugged out in shock. "A therapist!? You're seeing a therapist!??

He scoffs "Okay, you really don't have to rub i-" His sentence is cut off by a surprise kiss on his cheek, leaving him a little startled. "Oh, Rick. I'm so proud of you," you say sincerely. It's as if hell had frozen over. He really has changed.

"Yeah, she's, uh, she's alright," he admits with a small smile. "She also told me to tell you what I needed to say, so... I'm sorry."

Your vision starts to get blurry with tears. Those two simple words from this man mean so much. Cupping his face in your hands, you give Rick a small smile before leaning forward and pressing your lips to his. Your arms wrap around his neck, never wanting to let him go. He holds you close when he kisses you back with a little more desperation. He hasn't been kissed by you in so long.

When you finally break away to breathe, you look into his eyes again. This time, they look more serene. As if he feels some shred of peace for the first time in... he can't remember when.

"I've missed you..." you whispered. He pressed his forehead against yours.

"I missed you too, baby..."

With that, every shattered piece of your heart had been put back together. There was more he needed to share with you, but the emotional reunion and the fact that it was late at night left you exhausted. But you were going to sleep much more peacefully with the eccentric man resting beside you once again.

After all these painful months, Rick was finally back. He's changed in some ways, and you were looking forward to seeing how these changes would guide him to a better path.

Because, no matter what happens, you will always love him.

❤

#rick sanchez x reader #rick sanchez #rick and morty #rick sanchez fanfic #rick and morty season 7 #rickssugarplum

[marthawrites]

Hi friends! Heads up for my silly little blog and silly horny stories:

I've closed my requests and plan on going on a partial writing hiatus. Nothing bad or negative has happened. Without going too deep into my feels, to sum it up: I somehow feel both overwhelmed with trying to "keep up" with fandom, reading fics (I'm 3+mo "behind" at this point), and feeling lonely in fandom.

I know things are slow right now - and have BEEN slow - because of the long wait between S1 and S2 of HotD. That's what I'm telling myself, anyway.

Once the new season rolls around I'm sure I'll find inspiration and motivation again. At this point my brain keeps circling back to "who cares" and "what's even the point". So. Yay my for brain. I defs don't plan on staying away forever though!

In the meantime I might slowly work on the 3 requests I do have (below the cut) and maybe a series I've had in my mind for a looong time. If/when I do, they will be shared closer to June in time for the S2 premier. No promises, but hopefully!

Even if I'm not around much here, I'll probs still be around on discord

Thanks for all the support! I appreciate everyone who has ever enjoyed my fics ❤️

#idea share #i suppose that tag can go on this

[letstalkwhump]

Let's Talk Whump

Welcome to Let’s Talk Whump, a series of interviews that spotlight the amazing people in our whump community. I’m Malice and I’ll be your host. 

Joining us today is the fabulous @ashintheairlikesnow!

It’s great to have you here, Ash! Let’s kick this interview off with a fact or two about yourself!

Hi! I go by Ash, I am an ageless elder crone, and my life is built around the whims of an old dog and a very young cat. My primary hobby is reading, and I especially get lost in books on cults and new religious movements, World War I, and vampires.

What does whump mean to you? 

To me, whump is physical, mental, and emotional suffering. What causes that suffering can be any one of a number of things, and any of them might be what fascinates about the story. 

But it's whump when someone hurts.

And how did you find the whump community? What made you want to join?

I had gone through a tumultuous few months in 2019, including being laid off. I was reading and writing in-between frantically applying and interviewing for new jobs, and somewhere in there I stumbled back onto Tumblr after a long… long… hiatus. 

In August of 2019 I did a fanfiction writing challenge and the prompt for day 11 was 'whump'. A friend of mine had to explain to me what the word even meant, which is when I realized there was a whole subgenre dedicated to my favorite thing to write! After that, I started following some blogs with whump in their name and shortly after, took a chance on posting some writing, too. 

2019 you say, and yet I would affectionately swear you’ve been around the whump community forever! Do you think  your view on whump changed since you joined? 

Definitely! I was more timid when it came to what I would or wouldn't write out in detail early on. Eventually I gained confidence and started including things that delved into full horror, where before I wasn't sure how it would be received. 

I think I have come to appreciate a ton of tropes that didn't really speak to me or that I struggled with at first! Finding certain writers that really did a great job with them helped me get over that.

ANd now for the best bit; Let’s talk whump tropes! Do you have a few particular faves?

Noncon and recovery from it - one of my favorite things about whump isn't even the harm but the way a character recovers from it, and noncon can be a violation of physical self, identity, everything. So I enjoy the noncon but also watching someone rebuild themself afterward. 

Trauma recovery - on a related note. Most of my stories really focus heavily not on the worst of times, but in what comes after. How do you find yourself again when everything about you was erased? Or beaten, or broken? Resilience is essential in my work. 

BBU - I started writing at the beginning of the BBU taking off in early 2020 - I think my first Kauri piece was written in January 2020 actually. I love world building and dystopian fiction, so I never stop finding new awful details about the BBU to bring to the light. 

Creepy/intimate whumpers - Whumpers that get under your skin without necessarily treading into noncon territory. Think like @comfy-whumpee's Alistair, a master of overwhelming, awful affection and the power of control. Or @for-the-love-of-angst's Zever, a father-figure to OC Taron turned captor. 

Shades of gray - whumpees who weren't the good guys, but who have been forced to struggle and suffer. I like writing, and reading, imperfect people who are trying to make themselves better than they've been, or bad people who have their reasons who run into someone they can't get away from. 

Hype time! Do you have a few pieces of your favourite work that you’d like to share?

This is so hard! Oh my gosh. I need to think about this. 

Haunted - a Kauri piece. The way this one delves into the emptiness of Kauri from someone else's perspective… there are some metaphors in here I am really proud of. 

Blood, Freely Given - a vampire walks into a hospital. God, I love when I get the chance to work in a more horror-centered space. This one is lyrical and I love it.

I’m Here - a boy remembers everything he was made to forget. This was maybe the most intense thing I've written. It is disjointed and chaotic and I adore it.

Oh my god! I am obsessed with Blood, Given Freely’s vibes! Creepy but somehow tugging at my emotions- damn! Do you have a particular writing routine?

My best writing happens in a coffeeshop with a pastry and a latte on hand! I almost always sit down and put on a playlist based on whichever story, then write out a whole piece on two or three hours. Then I spend a day or two editing and cleaning up, then post. 

I used to try to write once or twice a week. Lately that's fallen off to every other week or even less. Life gets busy! But I still write when the mood strikes me. 

And do you find somethings are easier for you to write than others?

I am so so so bad at writing fight scenes or action. It's like pulling teeth! On the other hand, I am pretty good at dialogue, I think. The different voices of different characters come to me fairly easily. 

Can we get a peek behind the curtains and see what your currently working on?

I am half-heartedly trying to get started on a novel that I keep going back and forth on, involving a man looking for a vampire in 1926 upstate New York. But not for the reasons you think.

Actually, maybe exactly for those reasons.

I am definitely enjoying writing horror more often. My OC Finn Schneider's story is pure nightmare fuel, and I find myself thinking about him a lot. 

Do you have a joke or pun you would like to share to spread some smiles today?

When I was in high school, I decided to start telling bad jokes on purpose, as my "thing". To my credit, I kept it up for years. I had jokes I would tell at every party. They were all terrible.

I was surprised that people kept asking me to tell more.

Now I can't remember any of them. 

I mostly run screaming from puns. They are the real monsters here. 

Haha, puns seem to be very popular in the whump community, particularly in our urls! Would you care to share some writing advice with our readers?

My best advice has always been and will always be just to write often. Like any muscle, it gets stronger with exercise, like any skill you get better primarily through practice. Even if you doubt yourself, keep writing. You will look back and be shocked at how you improved even without realizing it over time. 

Try to set aside time to write. It doesn't have to be anything in particular, any one story. Write anything at all. 

Shout-out time for some of the wonderful people on here!

Oooooh it would be such a wildly long list. I will try! Okay, here are just a few:

@albino-whumpee who we recently lost created some incredible whump art from a very personal place. I miss them. 

@wildfaewhump @comfy-whumpee @whump-tr0pes @hackles-up @card-games-and-pain @whumpiary @sableflynn @redwingedwhump @whump-it @for-the-love-of-angst @boxboysandotherwhump @whumptywhumpdump @winedark-whump @justplainwhump @just-horrible-things … gosh there are so many!

Finally, is there anything you'd like to add?

The whump community has been an incredible place to make my writing "home". I've met some pretty amazing people on this hellsite! May we all continue to enjoy the suffering of our silly little guys here together! 

Thank you for joining us, Ash. It was an absolute pleasure to have you on the show! 

And to all you fabulous folk at home, have a whump-derful day!

[manogirl]

The Logistics of Longform Boyfriend Improv

Here's some random thoughts about longform boyfriend improv (and thank you to whoever coined that phrase; it's my absolute favorite way to think about fanservice because yeah, that's what's happening) I've been having and do I think it's prudent to put this on the internet? I don't know but here we go.

I'm intensely interested in the logistics of how it gets decided and codified, especially at GMMTV. Like, clearly some guys are interested in doing it as a career move, and some aren't, and GMMTV seems to roll with whatever is preferable to the actor, at least at THIS point. I feel some kind of way about the fact that Krist and Singto, say, or even Off and Gun for that matter, went into the whole thing without understanding where it would be going, because, welp, no one knew at that point.

Let me say this: I don't think in 2016 GMMTV thought that a huge number of endorsement deals would happen for dudes in these branded ships; I think it might have taken them some time. Maybe they did and I'm naive, but god, I kind of have to doubt it, especially given attitudes towards homosexuality in Thailand at the time.

So if they stumbled into this goldmine, and didn't know the longterm direction it would go, they paired guys up who had chemistry (or didn't; sorry Podd and Khaotung, but no, it was never gonna work) and threw them out there without realizing what was going to happen. It's entirely NOT surprising that some of the guys were like, no, wait, what?

Off and Gun rolled with it, but Krist and Singto didn't. Tay and New were on hiatus for how long because it seems like Newwiee was uninterested in doing the whole LBI thing. And I don't think any of those choices are bad or good, they just are. (I find Nanon to be a VERY interesting inflection point. Did Nanon know when he signed on for BBS that he was signing on for LBI? Did he agree to that? Did it organically happen over time [I find that VERY hard to believe]? Did he agree and then grow to hate it? Or was it before LBI became so intense, and as it intensified around he and Ohm, did he scream 'get me off this ship?' Fascinating. Logistics.)

But guys coming up now? They know. Satang and Winny and Aou and Boom and Marc and Pawin and Great and In and Sea and Keen and Leng--they all know. Now, have all these people agreed to do LBI? Who can say? I feel pretty solid in saying that Satang and Winny are WELL on their way, and Aou and Boom seem to be vying for it as well.

Because here's the thing: longform boyfriend improv MUST PAY. It pays in money, I'm sure, but also in fame and fans. It pays in status in GMMTV and I think we ALL know that. (The women are seemingly eager to do GL, and I think it's not hard to see why.) I think about the trade-offs, and I have to imagine these guys do too. That's not to say a guy can't get big without doing LBI; Fluke Gawin has a devoted following without doing ANY LBI, and that's fab. But if you're Winny or Satang, and you've been the side guy forever, does it seem like LBI is the way to the big time? Is Satang eyeing the Bright/Nanon road to music stardom that went through BLs for them? (Or Jeff Satur for that matter. Or Krist Perawat.)

I'm not interested in discussing the decisions these individual men are making around LBI. That feels pretty infantilizing to me. It's not a 1-to-1 comparison, but I think about this sometimes when it comes to men who compete in rough sports, like boxing or football. Some men (and women, if we're talking about boxing) will choose to take the trade-off of an uncertain health future in order to play a game that might bring them fame or fortune or hell, they just love. I'm not interested in parsing each person's choice to make that trade-off. That's up to them.

We can have a discussion about whether LBI hurts or helps BL in the long run, and we can have a discussion about whether it's harmful in a societal sense, and that's definitely an interesting discussion. But whether or not Ohm Pawat decides to get into another LBI situation? That's not something we can say a damn thing about. Only he knows, working with his current situation and what he wants for his career.

Well, that went slightly away from the idea of the logistics of LBI, but suffice it to say that this autist is highly interested in the nuts and bolts of making it all work, and about who does it and who doesn't. I'd love to just sit down with Phuwin or Dunk (my Thai isn't very good and these guys are fluent in English) and ask about the logistics. I don't want to know about the personal feelings; I want to know about the business arrangement. I think it would actually enhance LBI for me!

(Look, I know some of you HATE fanservice/longform boyfriend improv and look, I just don't. I don't want anyone to be forced to do it, and I don't care if the LBI ends. I just enjoy it while it's happening.)

#fanservice #longform boyfriend improv #thai bl #GMMTV

[souryogurt64]

hi sarah!! your knowledge / archivistry (def not a word) of fall out boy is so extensively impressive. i’ve just finished gray and have been reading about on tumblr to get a better understanding and found some of ur posts about it!! there was one where u mentioned that right before / around hiatus, pete had a very public meltdown and i was wondering if u could talk more about it, it’s one of those eras i know so little about it and am always curious to know more about

This is from my latest Panic essay---

“A VERY DARK CHAPTER”

But before I finish Ross’ post-Panic! arc, we need to check in with Pete Wentz again. Because at this point, he was still doing pretty bad. You may recall that when we last left off with FOB, it was late summer 2009, FOB had just released their final video, and Montgomery was practically screaming from the rooftops that a breakup was imminent.

Anyway, on October 4th, Fall Out Boy performed their last show, alongside Blink-182 in Madison Square Garden. Shortly afterwards, Wentz—fidgeting, choked up, and wearing a too-big suit—made a very unconvincing case to MTV that their greatest hits album Believers Never Die was not just “the label trying to push something out.” A month later, the band went on hiatus, something that Wentz was “very resistant to,” though Stump insisted it was necessary for the survival of FOB. Shortly after the announcement, Montgomery quoted Wentz,: “We're on a break that doesn't have a definite ending…[Fall Out Boy] was going to imminently implode.” Wentz took the hiatus hard; he later said he began abusing pills again, and that “I felt like a loser…I didn't see how I'd ever come out on the other side."

In the years following, Wentz’s mental health continued to worsen. Later that winter, Montgomery wrote that Wentz suffered severe and unexplained injuries to his face. While Montgomery implied his injuries occurred in Seattle, Kerrang! reported they happened at “a New York City nightclub” and he was “not at liberty to divulge” details. On Tumblr, Wentz suggested, “I was wasted. You should see the other guy,” and was advised by his lawyer to remove a post implying he had knocked a guy unconscious—and taken out a couple teeth. Kerrang reported that after the incident, Wentz was at “rock bottom,” “listless and drifting,” and desperate for an “outlet” for his emotions. 

While Montgomery’s article came in very late January, Wentz’s injuries had actually occurred in mid-late December, shortly after the one-year anniversary of Folie a Deux. Surrounding the anniversary, Wentz listed reasons why Folie had gone so wrong, including, “MTV basically evaporated on us.” Concerningly, he also reposted a famous quote about holding an–albeit metaphorical– gun in your mouth, and wrote (in part), “For what feels like forever, Fall Out Boy…was a part of everything I felt…. Without it now, I feel like I am unraveling.”

Then, on the morning of February 1st, Montgomery reported on several alarming posts from Wentz, which appeared to follow some kind of “decision” made by the band. Wentz tweeted that “[FOB] might happen without me,” and alluded to plans of dying young. In a separate blog post, Wentz said that in losing FOB, he “lost a part of [himself.]” Finally, as reported by Montgomery, Wentz “signed off [a final post] with a Latin phrase, ‘Acta est fabula,’ which translates loosely to, ‘The play is over.’” Montgomery–sounding desperate–wrote that, “e-mails to the members of Fall Out Boy, their label, Island Records, and their management team went unanswered,” a stark contrast to his usual line of merely “a spokesperson.” 

And just hours later, Stump conducted a prearranged interview with Spin. When asked about Wentz’s tweets, Stump gave a detailed response including, “Steven Tyler isn’t in Aerosmith anymore, but his gravestone will probably say something about Aerosmith. Whether we play again or not, I don’t know.” Though the band subsequently tried to play the whole scene off as no big deal, things looked more dire than ever. 

Speaking about this time period, Wentz told Kerrang, “It was hard to go from every waking hour thinking about the band to nothing. I needed to do something or I’d go totally crazy.” While he said this triggered electropop side project the Black Cards, the band wasn’t founded until six months later in July of 2010. Montgomery, though, wrote that Wentz “was actively searching for a new project to re-energize himself.” Subsequently, throughout the hiatus–possibly because of the incident–Wentz and "[his] friend" wrote Gray. Later, throughout 2011 and into 2012, the Black Cards released a number of songs online and ultimately an EP, entitled Use Your Disillusion.  

However, despite both of Wentz’s creative outlets, he continued to struggle. In February 2011, Simpson filed for divorce; TMZ reported this was due to Wentz’s “erratic behavior” and that Wentz “begged her not to leave.” Wentz told Howard Stern that following the divorce, he dropped to only 95 pounds; he also told Rolling Stone he began abusing Xanax and Klonopin, and suffered from paranoia so extreme he believed microphones were hidden in his home. 

Things with his former bandmates were not going well, either. Tumblr user @omegalomania outlined that in 2011, a member of the band performed on a diss track by an Illinois based hardcore band. Lyrics included, “You suck…It’s over…The band broke up…Get fucked.“ Stump provided guest vocals on another track on the album. Wentz later told RS, “Patrick was still my best friend…At the same time, I felt like he needed to get some of that Pete Wentz stink off of him.”  It’s beyond evident that–in the words of Andy Greene–this was “a very dark chapter for the band.” 

[euijin]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 🥳 🎊

HELLOOOO EVERYONE i am going to make a new year post after all! currently beginning working on this at 11:32 pm because i know it’s going to take me a while and i thought it would be nice to spend the turning of the new year talking about my friends. i also hope you enjoy this header i’m using it because i’m too lazy to make a cute one and i might later and also one of my friends said do it or no balls. 

honestly this year went by incredibly quickly for me. it was pretty uneventful, which might be a good thing!! i did get to meet two of my best online friends in the world when i saw stray kids live this summer, and that was probably top 10 days of my life!! so i’m really thankful that happened this year if nothing else. i’m one year closer to graduating community college as a part time student, and i’ll be turning 26 this month 😭 but you know, making it another year in itself is a big accomplishment if nothing else! i’m proud of everyone that made it another year and thank you for being here with me to read this post. i really appreciate all of you, whether we’re close friends or simply beloved casual mutuals, or if you’re even just a follower of mine; thank you for putting up with and even enjoying my sporadic posting and vaguely unhinged tags and gifs and other content, whether here or over on yangjeongin.

this will be my third turn of the new year i’m celebrating with everyone on tumblr upon return from my seven or whatever year hiatus, and it’s crazy that i’ve been giffing again since 2020. some of you have been with me since all the way back then and i’m so thankful!! i didn’t spend a ton of time on my dash this year (thank u to my bad internet that takes forever to load thereby making it an incredibly frustrating experience!) but i have more in the past several weeks and i’ve really enjoyed it!! i’m hoping that only continues into 2023. 

i do want to specifically thank some people for making my life on tumblr (and in general) better in 2022, but know that even if i don’t write you a specific message i still am so thankful for you keeping me company on tumblr dot hell in whatever way you have this past year!

i’ll put all my love for everyone under the cut and i know i will forget someone and feel bad but i cannot overstate how much i love all my mutuals enough!!

first of all, to @minijeong @miyawaki @redvelvetcult @bataranqs @seulggi my awoo9ers, thank you for being part of my life every day. i love reading back what u guys have said in the gc and i love seeing your content and chatting with u and your wacky n wild senses of humor, being your friend for the past few years has made my life better and i’m looking forward to making more memories in 2023 🎉 i love u!! i do want to call out a couple awoo9 members in particular though because i have more specific things to say!!

iwin - @anyujins ; hiii i feel like there’s so much to say but also so little?? but we started talking at the beginning of this year and have talked so much since and i just wanted to say i have really loved talking to u and getting closer to you this year. i genuinely feel like i can talk to you about anything and i am soso thankful for that and for u supporting me and i’m really glad that i can do the same for you! i know 2022 has been a rough year for you so i hope 2023 is better. for both of us!! haru - @minhos ; u probably won’t see this post and GOOD because i hate getting mushy with u. gross icky ew. but you know how much i appreciate and love you (or at least i hope you do) thank you for being my friend for so many years and for essentially creating my personality bc i think all of my interests are your fault SDFSDGSDG but thank u because in the end it’s all made my life better and so have you tee - @ddonghyun ; we haven’t talked much (or at all?) this year but i think you were the first friend i made upon my return to tumblr so know i am really thankful to you and still think about you a lot whenever i’m on this account <3 i haven’t seen you on my dash in a while and i don’t know if it’s just bad timing or you are finally escaping the black hole that is tumblr but either way i hope 2023 treats you well! eri - @wonjinist ; ultimately we haven’t been mutuals for that long but u deserve ur own message because every time i see u, despite us rarely speaking and just being mutuals that see each other and support each other on dash, i’m like omg that’s my friend eri. i simply consider u my friend regardless of how much we’ve actually interacted so thank u for your effortlessly friendly warm and kind personality that makes it feel so natural to simply be your friend <3 i hope u have a great 2023!

then we move on to the stayblr pals!! there are a bunch of you that have made my life on tumblr better in the past couple of years including (but not limited to) @agibbangs @binsuns @hyunchanz @hanjesungs @seunges @minzbins @leenow @cherry-heartss @huiracha @avocadomin @innielove @jisungs thank you for all of your wonderful content and personalities on my dash! i hope to see more from y’all in 2023 and maybe we can talk some more too!

li - @connecteds ; hi beloved!! another year of me on tumblr means another year of being friends with you. sometimes it’s fun on here and sometimes it’s not but even if my time here was an absolute terrible garbage shitshow it would be worth it because i got you out of it. i’m getting emotional and i’m sitting in the living room watching new years specials with my mom rn i can’t cry LMAO but thank you for always making me laugh even when you’re having a hard time and for otherwise being so full of love, and every day i’m so grateful that some of that love is for me <3 i told you we’ll always be friends as far as i’m concerned, no matter how much or little we talk, and i really mean that. no matter what we do or where life takes us there will always be love in my heart for you. i know 2022 was really hard for you so i hope the world finally gives you back some of the love and happiness you’ve put out into the world in 2023 💫 and u know i’m gonna be here for it!! adri - @skz-films / @hyunebear ; i’m not sure which account to tag you on asdfasdgdsg i know we’ve like never spoken but i think i will always remember the gifset you made for us on yangjeongin and how much you said we inspire you that really touched my heart so thank you again :( i think about that whenever i see you on my dash and it makes my heart feel a little warmer every time i do and i think we can always use more of that in life, so thank you for making mine a little brighter this year kep - @seungknow ; kep i miss u!!! i just wanted to say hi because you deserve your own message. thank u for being my friend, and i’m glad(?) we have moved from being together in stayblr hell to pc collector instagram hell. great. amazing. may 2023 bring us many dream photocards ✨ abia - @seungminhos ; abia! i didn’t talk to you too much in the past year but i couldn’t just lump u in with everyone else it felt wrong!! missing u and the seungminhos content but i hope 2022 was okay and regardless, that 2023 is better because we can leave all that in the past now. love u <3 luna - @seunglixes ; i wanted to give you your own shoutout just to say thank you for all you do for createskz! i know life is so crazy for you sometimes but you still always do your best to keep up with the net and i think you do such an amazing job, i really admire u for that so thank you for your work and for creating such a great place for stay ccs to come together and find other great content agnes - @hyunjinz ; agnes angel beloved the fact that we have not actually spoken very much outside of tumblr tag conversations blows my mind bc you are so dear to me! thank you as always for supporting me in my stayblr endeavors even before yangjeongin existed, and for continuing to, and for being such a cornerstone in this community whether you’re making content yourself or not. you do such an amazing job of supporting everyone and i think that’s so admirable of you and really shows what a pure and kind heart you have. i hope 2023 treats you with just as much kindness!! marie - @seo-changbinnies ; marie comedic icon, free stand up show every time you’re on my dash, your tags will always be legendary. i know you’ve been going thru it recently so hang in there and know i appreciate u and miss u but it’s also so okay to take your time and focus on more important things than silly little gifs on a goofy blue website. i love you and hope 2023 brings you only good things!! vilma @hyunpic ; vilma angel...even writing this about u is making me sleepy...i’m just kidding i was already sleepy. i have always loved u but i love u even more now that we are talking more, it has been lovely!! thank u for your unhinged tags and absolutely abundant love and kindness not just for hyunjin but for everything around you. you are genuinely such a sweet person and just seeing you around boosts my serotonin so please continue doing what u do and i will message u next time i’m having trouble falling asleep <3 happy new year SZDSDGG lotta - @jizung ; lotta i think last year (or the year before?? idk) i made a post like this and said ur tags were funny and that i hope we talk more AND I FEEL LIKE WE SUCCEEDED?? either way i do consider you a friend now and also wanted to say, do not tell anyone else, but u are like in my top 5 if not top 3 ccs on this entire site i think your gifs are so nice i think u could just send me a link to every new thing u make and i would be overjoyed to see it. so here’s to another year of us making content and talking occasionally (maybe more in 2023?), i hope it’s the best one yet! ri - @foxinys ; ri!! omg u know we’ve only been talking more in the past few months mostly because of unfortunate circumstances but i regularly think about it like, well, a lot of shit is going on but at least i’m talking to ri more and that’s nice??? and i do rly enjoy talking to u! and your gifs of course. i will never forget ur gemini abundant birth chart and the fact that i guessed correctly (sort of) despite us barely talking at the time SDSDGSD and i love that <3 my astrology friend said based on the charts of people i’m friends with i tend to be drawn to gemini heavy people i think this means we were meant to be friends so may 2023 bring us friendship under better circumstances! and many other good things mia - @seungs ; mia honest to god i’ve been working on this post so long i’m getting tired ASDFSDGSDG but i love u and your content, thank u for the support and for being mary’s #1 fan in particular, sometimes i still think abt that anon that asked what grip mary had on u and laugh. i hope 2023 brings us many good things and more mc lino gifsets ✨ mona - @hyunsung ; same as above i am sounding like a broken record at this point but!! love your content and i appreciate our tag communication. we are friends as far as i am concerned i have decided this i hope u agree SDFSDGSDG but much love and good vibes for the upcoming year!! i hope we can talk more in 2023 also cassie - @seo-trashbins ; i know i talk to you like every day so i could say all of this to you anytime and i think you know all of this but i wanted to include you in this so you could see something nice next time you check tumblr. i love you very very much meeting you in person this year was genuinely one of my favorite experiences of my life. thank u for being such a good friend for all of these years. 2023 will be TEN YEARS of us being friends. thank u for loving me even when i was an annoying 15 year old and all the time in between to now. i love you!! you are funny and kind and otherwise a wonderful friend and person that i feel very lucky to know at all let alone be friends with. one day i’ll come visit you in toronto and maybe u will have ur own place and i will simply move in and live under your bed. that’s like actually the dream for me i’m ngl. but until then i’m really happy to go into our 10th year of friendship and that it’s so many of them at this point that it doesn’t even feel like that big of a deal for another new year to pass. i hope we’re friends forever 💗

OKAY ENOUGH!!!! if you read all of these for some reason you’re insane btw but thank you??? and for anyone that isn’t on here, i will once again reiterate that i appreciate you regardless. i did just get kind of burnt out i could only write so many of these SDFSDGSD but much love, i hope this post brightens your day a little and helps 2023 get off to a little bit of a better start ✨ happy new year!

#carly.txt #this took over two hours to write btw #me using small text so this looks a little less long asdfasdgadsg #but i love doing stuff like this thank you for everything everyone and happy new year <3

[anyhs-themes]

HIATUS (en)

What about my themes? I'm not taking commissions anymore, but all my themes will continue to be available for now, however I'm no longer updating them, so use them at your own risk!

Where to find me? You can still find me on my personal blog (@anyhsalinas). And if you have a theme/HTML/CSS/JavaScript related question for me, as long as it's a simple question I might have time to help you, so send it to my personal blog (here) ONLY. Don't even try to ask about these things on my other social medias where the focus is not coding, please, otherwise I'll block you (I had people doing this before and I get very annoying by that, respect my spaces, please).

Why I'm quitting?

One of the biggest reasons why I loved Tumblr was the ability to customize our blogs however we wanted and turn it into our own space with our own style. And that's why I started making themes for myself and for other people. But over the last years Tumblr has kinda neglected this feature of the platform:

Clicking on a blog through the dashboard now takes you to a default dashboard-like page (this) and not to the customized version of the blog (this), which turned customizing your blog into something pointless because we take a long time customizing our theme only so that it might never even be seen by anyone;

This change also made it possible for people to send me messages without even seeing the rules for messaging me first;

And let's not forget the fact that now we need to contact Tumblr's staff to ask and wait for their permission in order to use JavaScript in custom pages, which makes things so unnecessarily more difficult for people who want to use our custom pages (they say it's for safety reasons, but it's still possible to use scripts on the main theme, so what's the point?).

Let's talk about writing posts as well:

We can no longer use basic HTML codes on posts which made it impossible for me to post tutorials (since it blocks the codes I'm trying to teach) -- which made me need to create a blog on Blogger to post my tutorials there, and have to simultaneously take care of two blogs on the exact same topics, which is kind of annoying;

Also the new post editor has been very buggy for me. Sometimes when I try to copy a portion of the text I'm writting it just won't copy no matter what. Sometimes it will duplicate paragraphs on its own for no reason...

Tumblr has also made some bad decisions (in my opinion at least) over the years of what kind of content to allow in the platform which caused serious problems to the platform itself (as you might have seen in the news around that time), but even before that also caused a big change in its community and the majority of the blogs I loved (the meme, poetry and fandom blogs of shows and bands I like) moved to Twitter (I still refuse to call it "X", lol) and other social medias. So most of what I loved about this platform is gone forever and the only things still keeping me here are the things I have saved in my blogs, my liked posts and drafts (mostly custom content and mods that I found here for The Sims, lol).

I haven't been using Tumblr regularly in... years, actually. Only sometimes I pass by. And I no longer enjoy developing themes for this platform because now, after all these changes, it has turned into something kinda pointless. Also, I've been busy with other projects that are bringing me more joy at the moment, such as my Youtube channels and crafting. So I'm leaving behind this part of my life... I don't like saying this is an end because I can always change my mind. But unless Tumblr goes back to making our custom theme as the main page of our blogs (instead of that default dashboard-like boring page), I don't think I'll go back to making themes for this platform.

But thank you all for your support in this blog and for using my codes through all of these years! Wish you all the best. 💕

— Anyh's Themes (2013 - 2024)

[merlinsbudgiesmugglers]

Fic Author Self Rec

Fic authors self-rec! ✨ When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers ❤️

Thanks for the tag @charmsandtealeaves!

I've actually been feeling a bit blah about my writing lately, so this was really great to go and revisit my fics!

1. Decisions

Jily - Rated T - 1676 Words

One night in the middle of a war when it doesn't seem quite so hopeless.

This was one of the first fics I wrote after a fifteen year hiatus. It's cheesy and filled with mistakes but I love it.

2. A Bit of Fun

Tedromeda - Rated M - 1446 Words

"His eyes are bright, his hair sticking up in the back from their earlier activities. Andromeda runs a hand through it, and still breathless from laughing, she leans down to kiss him. She thinks she could stay like this forever, in his little flat, happily hidden away from the world." A small moment, near the beginning of Ted and Andromeda's relationship.

I honestly think this is my favourite Tedromeda fic, and it does make me a bit sad that it doesn't seem to be very popular. I love Ted and Andromeda here, that they can't keep their hands to themselves, and it's the first time I have Andromeda considering the possibility that she might want more with Ted.

3. Desperation

Tedromeda - Rated E - 2789 Words

When Andromeda finally gets the news that she's been dreading for nearly two years, there's only one person she wants to see

My first Smut! Although honestly, the smut is my least favourite part of this fic (and not because I think it's bad) there's just so many bits of this fic I love. I love the way Andromeda keeps calm around her father, but then she breaks the moment she's alone, how it's Ted that she needs, how it's the first time we see that Ted might be just as deep as she is.

And yes, I copied the last kiss from New Girl, but that is the best kiss ever recorded for TV and I'm going to shamelessly steal it for my favourite couple.

4. The Potter-Granger-Weasley Pool Party Extravaganza

General - Rated T - 2754 Words

There are times in life when everything falls into place with ease and perfection. The planning, the timing, the execution all come together neatly to produce a perfect weekend. This was not one of those times.

Considering that I seriously struggled with writing this fic and the prompts I was given for the Summer Soiree, I adore how it turned out. It is fully inspired by Derry Girls and that scene in Gilmore Girls where Jess and Dean get into a fight and go through a window. I love exploring the cousin dynamics, and really used experiences with my own cousins for that, plus I loved introducing a bit of Slytherin Lily.

5. She Was Not Wise Yet

Lily Luna/OC - Rated G - 1220 Words

Lily stood up triumphantly and opened the door, throwing her quidditch bag inside. She picked up her bag and with a quick check to make sure no neighbours were about and a wave of her wand, the papers she had dropped flew into her arms. Starting to feel a little bit more put together, she walked into the flat, only to have the door handle catch on her sleeve. ‘Fuck!’ (Or Lily Luna has a bad day)

Once again with the cousin dynamics. I loved exploring Lily Luna as a bit older, trying to keep her life together but also a bit of a mess. She's in her twenties and already onto her second career and suddenly here comes the boy she had complicated feelings for at school.

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Ok this ended up so much longer than I thought, but it was great to revisit my fics!

Tagging: @celestemagnoliathewriter @constitutionalweasleymonarchy @artemisia-black @startanewdream @turanga4

#tag game #fic self rec

[crowhyun]

I don't want to leave my blog on a bad note, so heyyyy yall!!

I'm going on an indefinite hiatus, unfortunately, and I felt like I should've told yall a while ago since I wasn't posting anything. This isn't a goodbye, and I'm definitely not deleting my blog, like, ever, but I want everyone to know that I most likely won't be posting for a while.

I haven't been keeping up with kpop lately and I've been focusing on other things. Sometimes, this is just how life is. At the time that I started this blog, I just finished high school, I had no job, and I didn't rlly have any ambition, and it was like that for years despite small part time jobs here and there. I was cooped up at home with nothing to do and no one to talk to, and so I spent that time writing and growing my online personal.

Now, I have a job, I've moved cities, and I'm on my own now. I've made a lot of friends, and I've grown so much into my own person. I've become WAY more confident, not only in finance and friendship, but also in romance (which is something that I thought would never happen tbh, I thought I may have been ace...still don't know if I am or not).

Basically, I've grown into a completely new person, and when that happens, you leave stuff behind. I'll love kpop (mainly bts and txt) forever, and my motivation to write for them will come and go. I still update my wips every now and then, and who knows, with their next comeback, I might even have the motivation to write a new series.

Anyways, sorry, this was long lol, but it's just a hiatus! You guys can always talk to me or recommend some fics, ask for advice, or just tell me about your day. I'll always be here...lurking 😈

#crowhyuns first official hiatus #sounds like an achievement #but not rlly lol #ill be back #thats for sure

[doctorgerth]

update, july 22

Hey, besties!! Dropping by to say I’m alive and making it, life has just been absolutely hectic for me ever since May (in both good and bad ways, but mostly really good!!!!) which would explain my absence. I only have a few days left of summer before I have to go back to work so I am going to try my best to finish up some of the requests in my box before then. I will most likely not get to all of them, and I want to go ahead and apologize for that but here’s the heads up!

Once I go back to work (beginning of August), I will be stepping away from the blog/going on another hiatus for a bit as I really won’t have the time nor energy to write for you guys a whole lot. I might pop in every now and then to interact and share a writing bit or two, but I can’t promise or commit myself to any kind of writing schedule. They’ve never worked for me in the past even when I had freer time haha

I’m really sorry I don’t have more time or energy to do stuff for you guys on here, but I do appreciate those of you who stick by me anyway ❤️ Regardless of my activity, your kindness and support never goes unnoticed!

When I do eventually return (hopefully during the holidays, if not, definitely next summer) I’m considering either redesigning this blog completely, or starting fresh with a new one. But we shall see what the future holds! For now, I want to let you guys know that, other than the few requests I’m trying to get out before summer ends, you won’t be hearing much from me for a while. But only because of work, not because I’m leaving forever :-)

As always, thanks for all your love, care, and support! I hope you all are doing well and taking care of yourselves! 💞

#doctorgerth #update #i can’t pin this post so you’ll probably see periodic reblogs of this #I’ll also try to consistently reblog art and fanfic to keep something circulating on here while I’m away #I’m so terribly behind on one piece both anime and manga :-((( #i just haven’t been super into it lately and idk why cuz I know Wano is finally coming to a close #hopefully during my hiatus I can take time to get caught up and find that love again #k love u bye

[ga-yuu]

Best moments of Yori and Yoshi Part 2 (Yoshi end!) - Part 4

I'm still on hiatus....but a small post won't hurt, right? Also! My classes haven't started yet.

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Yoritomo: "Come on Yoshino, you get to choose among us...."

Yoshino: "No no no! I can't choose. Don't give me such options or I'll be having a hard time!"

Yoshitsune: "What do mean you can't choose? What do you mean by 'having a hard time?"

Yoshino: "Women in the Shogunate might get jealous and ban me from entering Shogunate forever."

Yoshitsune: "Then stay with me in Hiraizumi. I'll prepare a room for you."

Yoshino: "That's....not what I meant."

Yoshitsune: "Hm?"

Yoritomo: "Just listening to your conversation makes me want to laugh out loud."

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Yoritomo: "What are you doing, you two?"(⌒‿⌒)

(Yoritomo-sama's smile looks scary)

Yasuchika: "I was trying to open the door without actually touching it. Imagine, if your hands were full and you can't open the door, so I came up with this certain technique and it worked better than I thought. It just blasts open people's doors. How useful, isn't it?

Sueharu: "Yoritomo...if you're looking to buy new doors, I have some offers. Look at this one, it won't budge even if Benkei punches at it."

Yoshitsune: "Was that an exaggeration?"

Sueharu: "Shush, Yoshitsune-sama! Of course, it's not."

Yoritomo: "Do I look dumb?"

Yoshitsune: "No, brother! Sueharu is the best merchant ever! He never scams people. I highly recommend him."

Sueharu: "Yoshitsune-sama...."

Yasuchika: "How pure....Yoshitsune-sama is not greedy or wicked, unlike two other people."

Sueharu: "Did you just call me greedy?"

Yoritomo: "And did you just call me wicked? You know what, Sueharu, I'll take your offer. Send the bill to Yasuchika afterward."

Yasuchika: "Eeehhh..."

Sueharu: "Sure."

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Yoshino: "Yoshitsune-sama has the purest heart out of all the people I've ever met."

Yoritomo: "Of course he does. He can be incredibly cute at times...."

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Yoshino: "I want Yoshitsune-sama to have happy days after all this is over. I want him to have a happy life living with his dear friends and Yoritomo-sama."

Yoritomo: ".........I see.. But, what about you?"

Yoshino: "I don't mind staying by his side if he wants......but I feel like....I won't be there with him.....all the time..."

Yoritomo: "What do mean by 'not being with him all the time'?"

Yoshino: "After all this is over, I won't have any reason to stay by Yoshitsune-sama's side, right? He'll go back to Hiraizumi and I'll be with the Shogunate."

Yoritomo: "But that can also change."

Yoshino: 'It can?"

Yoritomo: "Tell me something, if you want to be with Yoshitsune, what position do you want to be in? You're not telling me that you wanna be his retainer or maid and follow his orders, right?"

Yoshino: "No. I wanna be someone, who is close to him."

Yoritomo: "Ohhh."

Yoshino: "I want to be someone who can talk with him freely without taking into account our status....."

Yoritomo: "And?"

Yoshino: "I wanna give him strength when he's having a tough time, and also wanna heal him when he feels sad! Just like his friends!!"

Yoritomo: "Huh?"

Yoritomo-sama looks down and sighs.

Yoritomo: "You seriously are a dummy, after all."

Yoritomo-sama flicked my forehead playfully and walked away.

(Was he expecting a different answer?)

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Benkei: "Yoshitsune-sama, you look pale."

Yoshitsune: "I'm fine."

Benkei: "......."

Benkei quickly turns to me.

Benkei: "Yoshino, as a pharmacist, I want you to tell me. How is Yoshitsune-sama?"

Yoshino: "Hm? Well...he's technically not in a bad shape. He just didn't have dinner last night and also today's breakfast."

Benkei: "He didn't have...breakfast and dinner..."

Yoshitsune: "Y-Yoshino, gave me some snacks on the way, so I didn't particularly feel hungry..."

Benkei: "That's not the same.!!!"

Yoshitsune-sama averted his gaze.

(This is new!)

Yoritomo: "Is his mom?"

Kurama: "Now he won't shut up for a while."

#ikemen series #ikemen genjiden #cybird otome #cybird ikemen #otome #cybird #ikemen mc #ikegen

[soul-wanderer]

06x06 review (that is actually not just about Marina, because man, there was a lot to unpack in that ep):

The good:

- girl’s camp at the station (finally) aka “nobody should be trusted around children except for Theo and Vic and maybe Jack, if we ignore his overall mental health status right now”

- Vic being a great mentor/leader, because we know she is, but she needs to know this too

- Theo being a gem again and being great at reflecting and voicing just what’s going wrong at the station

- Vic and Ross having a talk and Vic questioning her career. Most people go through that at least once a day and it was nice to see her voice those doubts and it was even nicer to have Ross help her through that and help her see her strengths and that sometimes things can just be right too

- Vic being offered the leadership position in regards to Crisis One - she more than deserves this

- the Helicopter case actually had some real action, and gosh, did I miss that, so yay for that

- Andy being a great friend, once again, despite Maya trying to push her away again and again. Andy just knows Maya and knows (hopefully) that she doesn’t always mean what she’s saying, so she’s not easily insulted by Maya and that’s just what Maya needs and I am glad they’re bringing Andy back for that

The best (apart from Vic’s arc):

- Ross finally finding whatever sense she lost throughout the last few episodes and realizing that she can’t risk the career she worked so hard for, especially not for a dude like Baldy. Man, that was the speech we did not deserve but most definitely needed to hear - let’s hope she sticks to that in future eps

The bad (surprise, this is where we are getting to Maya and Carina):

- Maya just eating painkillers like candy in front of the kid and then giving her a whole damn speech that might as well have come from her dad (makes sense canonically, but who the hell allowed her around a bunch of kids in her state?!)

- no, I will not comment on Maya’s and Carina’s argument at the beginning of the ep, because *sighs*

- who let Ross tell these kids traumatic stories from war? Who?! Anyone? They all cannot be trusted around children, I stg

- Maya’s bra offers surprisingly little support for the job they’re doing - girl, take care of yourself, that’s a serious health matter

- it’s bad that Beckett didn’t end up getting fried - seriously, that would have been so freaking funny, I’m mad that did not happen

The worst:

- Sullivan deadass suggesting that he and Ross quit their jobs and move somewhere else. THE AUDACITY THIS MAN HAS. I’m fucking livid at this point, seriously. He screwed over Andy and now what? He found the next woman he can do that with? That man has not an ounce of respect for women in his body and it’s showing. It’s always about him and his feelings and his needs and his this and his that and it needs to stop. They need to come up with a new storyline for him or else I hope he ends up getting fried by lightning after the hiatus

The unexpected:

- nope, not gonna mention it, y’all know what I mean that cracking noise is gonna haunt me forever

Hopes/Fears/Predictions for 6B:

- Spine inury for Maya? Not a fan of the memory loss idea, so. It would also have the potential for reconnection while Carina supports her during her mental and physical recovery, as long as Maya isn’t going full on depressed about it

- Vic being a badass leader, please and thank you

- Natasha remembering her own words

- I know that’s gonna be an unpopular one, but maybe it’s best if Maya and Carina go back to being friends - at least while they both sort out their mental health issues. It would allow them to get some distance between them and reconnect eventually while setting up a healthier basis for their relationship

- and please get rid of Beckett already. Please.

Happy Hiatus, everyone and be nice to each other!

#Station 19 #Vic Hughes #Theo Ruiz #Maya Bishop #Carina DeLuca #06x06 #I feel like I'm forgetting a few things here #ah well

[sole-soul-sold]

22/04/2023

Tell me how you move on from something.

Tell me how you get over something.

I want to know how it's so easy for someone to just get on with their lives after something that might have deeply affected them, ends.

I understand it might not be "easy" per se. BUT! They make it look so simple. So lovely and breezy. Kudos to them, for being able to hide their emotions so well. I can't.

I try, but I can't. Sure, acting complacent, otherworldly, or like I don't give a shit, is every day's work now. Blaming my asshole-ness on stupid hormones, while convenient, is still exhausting.

And annoying! So annoying. I can't help it when my hands start doodling things in class. Sketching out people and words that I know will make me cry later. I can't help the way my mind goes into overdrive when I listen to songs that remind me of what things were like in the past. How normal things were in the past, and how badly I want to go back to it. Even when I know that would be my undoing.

That's the thing, even if I crave the comfort of history, I don't want a repeat. It's silly, because that also bars me from trying new things. And I know that I haven't been physically or mentally held back by anything that is not my mind. It's all in my head and I know that! And the apparent lack of time in my life is just a convenient excuse.

Everything in my life works in cycles. Stupid, monotonous, boring, incessant cycles. I just want a hiatus, if not a complete block. I want to be able to listen to 'formidable' without thinking about what someone else thought of it. I want to be able to go places without having to think about what happened when I was last there. I want to be able to eat vanilla ice cream because I want to, not because it was someone's favourite. I want to be able to wear pink and green and yellow, without having to think that they were once their favourite colour. I want to be able to look at a guitar without contempt, watch the last episode of FRIENDS and cry for the right reasons.

I don't want bits and pieces of my past erased from my memory, no. They've shaped me and I will forever treasure the way they made me feel. Good and bad feelings, alike. I just want them to not affect me as much anymore. It's been a long time. It's high time. I should get my shit together. And for the love of me, and solely myself, stop using the past as an excuse to shun from experiences of the present.

Did any of that make sense to you? Dear God, I'm going to need mind maps for ranting too now. Wish me luck?

[fictionfixations]

Thoughts

CW: Death

I never expected to see the recent.. news, and I probably never would've, because even if you told me that he'd be dead, I honestly wouldn't believe it. I never could've expected this outcome and it may have been foolish to believe, but I did truly think that he would've survived. He was just such a great person, someone who you felt comfortable with, who could make you laugh, and was honestly one of the safe spaces here on the internet no matter how many toxic people are after him, and it hurts to know that people have died before to unfortunate circumstances and that haters have just treated it like it was nothing and continue to slander their reputation, and that this would be no different.

I just want to say, that no matter what they say, or if it comes out somehow that Technoblade was a bad person, we shouldn't let that take over of how we think of him. He will forever be the youtuber whose spent months just to win the #1 spot of a rank in a video game. The guy who was crazy good at PVP, and we shouldn't let anything anyone else say slander that.

It just hurts so badly, and I know that those who knew him closest are hurting worse having known him personally. If anyone's reading this, please don't forget to take a break for your own mental health, to be able to get past this hurdle and be able to move on. That is not meaning to forget about him, no, but to be able to move on and grow. It's gonna be such a harsh while and I can't help but worry about how everyone's gonna take this. How Phil, Wilbur, Tommy, and so on. I don't know if they were aware of how bad it had gotten or not, but nobody can truly expect death. It comes when you least expect it. I just hope that they can take a break, take as long as they need to heal- if they even need to quit the platform be okay. I hope we'll all be able to continue on and grow from this experience.

I don't really know what to do at the moment. I've just been kinda on and off and sort of just using YouTube as a distraction. I've been catching up onto Hermitcraft recently so I just.. continued that? One moment I'm okay and then the next I'm just a waterfall. It's awful and I just. I want to do something for Techno, as like a tribute, but I don't want to just be 'using' the fame of his death and somehow taking advantage of that or being disrespectful, but it feels wrong still to just.. not do anything.

We're really deep in this kinda rant now, but I apologize if this is how you've found this out. I'm assuming it's all over twitter and any other social media platform at this point, and all kinds of fanfic writers are going on hiatus' or completely discontinuing books due to it.

The only thing I'm honestly decent at would be writing and honestly, I don't know if I should try. I'm completely split. I want to do something but I'm not sure if that'd be just.. disrespectful, writing about a dead guy y'know?

So I've just been kinda telling fanfic writers that I'm subbed to in the comments that it's okay if they discontinue or if they decide not to and that they still wanna write it. Honestly I have no room here to decide for people and that's the same for me, in where I have to decide on my own. I might try to do it, I might not, but we're all in this together regardless.

Sorry if I've ended up crossing any lines or if the pain's too fresh to be talking about something like this, but if I don't say anything now, then I doubt I will later.

#technoblade #thoughts