#a 19 year old girl with BPD and tries to act like a bad ass but it just a mere worm

[hancocksleftnut]

Some Charon Head Cannons I Finally have the Balls to Share:

He was a US Green Beret captured in Anchorage by Chinese and Russian Special Forces in 2076, 11 months before the Great War and had many experiments done on him while a POW.

He was deployed at 28, one of the youngest in his squad. Charon was born in Pennsylvania and came from a military background, later joining the US Army at 19, soon after the USA announced war against the Republic of China.

In the end, he would be the only survivor from his squad, all others having been executed or dying from the Dachau-Level experiments.

As tensions around the world heightened, the US government burned all records of him and his squadron, considering them casualties of war.

As a POW (Prisoner of War) his physical stature, mental fortitude, and expert combat training made him a candidate for a “Reprograming Operation” by the Russian KGB where he was the only successful test subject.

After months of brainwashing he was finally assigned to a KGB Spy who was planted in the US government, where he was designed to assassinate and perform other reconnaissance operations.

However, the Great War broke out mere months after he was “assigned” and his contract made many unfortunate passes before reaching the Lone Wanderers.

Charon’s previous employers all had dark, ulterior motives that mainly used him as a deviant errand boy. When he becomes employed by the LW, he almost feels at peace. Though he will forever live with PTSD, he is able to put his guard down in certain circumstances, giving him small glimpses of joy and happiness again.

Until he becomes to care too much, and becomes over protective. The LW unknowingly reminds him of his pre-war life. When there was still hope and a dream of change. He doesn’t know why, but he clings to their selflessness. He watches people abuse the LW’s kindness, and then get stuck in a cycle of people pleasing because they are the Wastelands Last Hope.

#so imma just come back from the dead on this shit cause my love for this ghoul baby man will never die #also I come from a heavy military background so that’s kinda why this is my head cannon. my dad was 82nd airborne and we both played FO3 #we even took a weekend trip to travel all the places in DC as the game #anyways lol #I love Charon so much and even though I hate how vague they wrote him #I love we can use our own imagination #tell me what yall think!!! I love to talk about my big. baby man #Charon #charon fallout #ghouls #fallout headcanons #fallout companions #fallout ghoul #lone wanderer #fallout #fallout 3 #Charon headcannons #also this is written from my OC: Lone Wander Laila’s perspective #a 19 year old girl with BPD and tries to act like a bad ass but it just a mere worm #charon x lone wanderer

[raven-dirt]

1 - 70. Spoil me :)

Whyyyy

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Sometimes.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

My best friend.

03: Do you regret anything?

Oh, many things

04: Are you insecure?

My insecurities have insecurities

05: What is your relationship status?

Single. Who the fuck would want me?

06: How do you want to die?

Given I’ve tried to attempt suicide three times, I’m going to go out on a limb and guess that’s how I want to die.

07: What did you last eat?

A cheese and ham sandwich

08: Played any sports?

When I was a kid I swam, played netball and tried football. When I got to high school I was repeatedly told I was shit and stopped pretty quickly. I play quidditch now as part of one of the best clubs in my country but I don’t get any pitch time because I’m so so shit :’)

09: Do you bite your nails?

Only when one is about to fall off

10: When was your last physical fight?

Never had one

11: Do you like someone?

I have a few people I can tolerate for more than 30 seconds so yeah, I guess

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Noooope. 

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

Does hating myself count?

14: Do you miss someone?

Yeah, the dumb idiot. 

15: Have any pets?

They live with my mum but I have two dogs

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Crampy. Tired. Think these sleeping pills are kicking in, why did I start this now

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

Honey I’ve had sex in several bathrooms

18: Are you scared of spiders?

Not scared as such. Probably would be scared of a tarantula or something.

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Yeah.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Trying to think about the last time I actually kissed someone, it was so long ago I geniunely can’t remember.

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Driving home and then a solid 24 hours of sleep.

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

I do not, so 0.

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

Just my lip atm, but when I retire from quidditch I’m going to get my daith done on both sides and my nose redone. 

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

When I was a kid I was one of those annoying kids who was good at everything. Then I got sent to an elitist school where my parents struggled to pay £9k a year for them to tell me I was shit at things I thought I was good at.

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yes. I miss you and the life you promised me, even though you broke my heart in the absolute worst way by doing the one thing that I told you had never been done to me. Even though you’re now living the life I want, and I’m left struggling to pay rent because I can’t get a job that actually pays a wage I can live on.

26: What are you craving right now?

Sleep I guess

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I really don’t think so

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Yep. Sucks ass.

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

People don’t like me enough to cry over me

30: What’s irritating you right now?

This. Why did I reblog it.

31: Does somebody love you?

Hahahahahahahaha no

32: What is your favourite color?

Black or purple.

33: Do you have trust issues?

I have BPD so duh

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

So it was really fucking weird. This guy I know from quidditch had like a fit and collapsed and died right next to me and I felt really bad because I should have saved him even though I have no idea what to do if someone has a fit. So I wrapped him up in a black bin liner and was trying to think of where I could leave him so he couldn’t be traced back to me. Then it turns out he wasn’t as dead as I thought, he still had a heartbeat and started talking to me and stuff but his leg had fallen off so we were discussing prosthetic limbs and riding horses one legged. Next thing I know, I’M ON A HORSE AND I ONLY HAVE ONE LEG AND I HAD TO PRETEND I HAD TWO LEGS

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Idk probably my best friend

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Yes, I never learn

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

It’s easier to forgive, but you never ever forget

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

No, it’s complete fucking shit.

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

14

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

I don’t think so.

*** Where is 41-49? ***

51: Favourite food?

Probably chocolate or something else seriously bad for me because I do not have a healthy relationship with food.

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Maybe. I must have been a seriously shitty person in a past life.

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Turned out the lights

54: Is cheating ever okay?

No

55: Are you mean?

I can be. 

56: How many people have you fist fought?

None

57: Do you believe in true love?

I used to. Now I believe I’ll die alone, in my 40s and eaten by Alsatians.

58: Favourite weather?

Sunny

59: Do you like the snow?

Like yeah it’s pretty but it’s cold and wet and closes all the roads and stuff down because we can’t deal with anything in the UK, I mean have you SEEN the shambles that is Brexit?

60: Do you wanna get married?

Someday, if I ever find a person who can tolerate being anywhere near me

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

Not really

62: What makes you happy?

Cats. Dogs. My best friend. 

63: Would you change your name?

I have changed my name

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

Probably, he doesn’t find me attractive anymore

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Trust me, he doesn’t

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Yes

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

My best friend

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My best friend

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

Maybe? I’m not sure anymore

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

There are three people I have tried to die for in the past, and there is one that I would take a bullet for now.

[kingsterracerp-blog]

Thank you for applying, CHARLOTTE. You have been accepted as PENELOPE MORAN. Just don’t forget to check out our CHECKLIST and send in your account within 24 HOURS. If you have any questions then let us know!

OUT OF CHARACTER.

NAME: charlotte AGE: 22. TIMEZONE: est ACTIVITY LEVEL: 7/10 i should be able to be online for an hour or hour + each day, I do work two jobs so some days or for some hours I might only have energy for chats/easy threading. PRONOUNS: she/her SHIPS: /chem. ANTI-SHIPS: /forced. TRIGGERS: Removed. PASSWORD: Removed. ANYTHING ELSE: Removed.

IN CHARACTER.

DESIRED CHARACTER: penelope rosa moran. NICKNAMES: penny, pen-pen, poppy (which she goes by.). AGE/BIRTH ORDER: 25. oldest twin. FACECLAIM: phoebe tonkin. GENDER IDENTITY/PRONOUNS: female, she/her pronouns. SEXUAL/ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: /pan HOMETOWN: Atlanta, Georgia. OCCUPATION/EDUCATION: BPD officer.

(MORE) IN CHARACTER.

POSITIVES: physically strong, motherly, determined. NEGATIVES: hot tempered, secretive, sarcastic.

@poppym: i feel like i would actually pay someone to pour coffee into my mouth this morning.. @poppym: jacob decided that he was ‘too old’ to hold mommies hand today, so i picked him up and threw em’ over my shoulder. #momoftheyear.. @poppym: i miss being pregnant, now whenever i eat pickles and frosting i get dirty looks. #fuckyou #itslegit..

BIOGRAPHY.

** TW DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, TW VIOLENCE, TW RAPE**

Life in foster homes was odd, watching as everyone you grow close to get adopted, get taken- and yet, you are still there it was something that Penelope knew from a young age. Growing up, she was alone, not counting her sibling, whom she clung onto in all times, every time- she went to school- got into fights after, and came home, it wasn’t until she was older that she’d try her best to take care of the kids that would come and go from the place. She figured no one deserved to feel as alone she did. Her foster parents were not the nicest people, they were the prime example of ones that used the system for money. So it was clear that the house was overpacked with kids, she would make sure all others were fed before herself, she’d steal good, clothing– she helped raise a lot of the children that came through the doors, even if she was a child herself. From the time she was able to obtain working papers, Poppy worked~ she started working at a diner in town at the age of 14, starting as a simple bus girl, then to a hostess and by the age of 16 she was a favorite waitress, one that people came back to see. Every bit of money she got she saved, only spending when she needed new clothing, things for school, she had dreams of leaving this place, leaving this home. One thing that most would not assume at a first glance was that Poppy has the strongest motherly instinct, she had always been one that wanted to take care of her ‘family’, whether it was prepping dinners every night, making sure all the kids were passing, that their laundry was done correctly, the house was cleaned, anything to take the pressure off her foster parents, she would do. The one thing she found her ‘fun’ in, was art- all her extra classes she had were ones that had something to do with art- mainly she likes to stick with painting. It’s not something she shows off so to speak, she uses it mainly as a relaxer.

Her 9th year did have it’s drawbacks- that was the year she found herself in her first serious relationship, she loved this man more than she had ever thought, he was the perfect guy in her eyes- he just.. he had a temper. At the time she thought she could fix him, that she could show him not everyone would let him down but at a point where she was asking for simple things as in times for work, if she could go to the bathroom when with him, where every day she’d be getting beaten, slapped, kicked, burned with cigarettes, used as just a means for sex and a punching bag, she decided enough was enough and tried to end the relationship as the middle of her Senior year started, about a month before Christmas. That ended horribly, he had simply told her that “If I can’t have you, we are going to make it so no man even does.” and the next thing she remembers is being knocked out, waking up at least 30 minutes later but now… now she has four straight- foot long cuts across her face. They all stayed on the left side of her face, the longest going from her cheek to the bottom of her jaw, and one going to the top of her mouth- she was now… as he put it, marked. The backlash from the accident was a whirlwind from her foster parents claiming she did this to them, that she ruined them because she did something that could reflect badly upon them, to the school placing blame on her, saying if it was so bad, why didn’t she leave early- that she liked it– she’s heard it all. Beth wasn’t someone that liked to take pity on herself, but as she was a senior in high school, two weeks before graduating, she found out she was pregnant. In the bathroom between the Lit hall and Science wing, she found out she was pregnant. To this day, her foster parents do not have an idea of her son, of her life she’d make for them. She thought about abortion, adoption, but that February night, 19 years old, Penelope for the first time in her life fell in love. Jacob Giovanni Moran was born February 14th, and from that moment on, Poppy’s life wasn’t just hers anymore.

The day she graduated high school, that night at the age of 18 she was packed and traveled to Boston- she needed a new start- somewhere where she didn’t have a ‘name on the streets’, where people didn’t know her, didn’t know her past, and this was the perfect opportunity for her. By the time she was 23, she had been boxing for 4 years, obtained her black belt, and was skilled in hand to hand combat, she made a point in getting stronger, used what happened to her with Peter as fuel. She never wanted to feel that weak ever again. The first week she was in New York, she started MMA training classes and those guys there, the people at the gym, are some of her closest friends- and she is one of the most respected fighters they’ve had. Poppy gets a pleasure of being able to take men to the floor, to see that her body is strong enough and it can do exactly that- it makes her happy. She has her demons though, there are some days she can’t handle to be touched, they happen every few months- where she gets rather off put but the simple act of a touch, and if a victim of night terrors, daily nightmares. Her life in Boston, it was so much better, she made a family within herself, with the police department, with the guys at the gym, her son was so loved– he had enough aunts and uncles to make anyone jealous. Balancing it all with a child was hard, but she made it through, she was able to face the world with just her and her cub.

One thing she always will be is a protector, a fighter- that is something that will never leave her, and she’s sure that it’s a good thing, she never wants to go back to feeling weak, She has a very thick skin, protective walls, but she now as an adult, has finally opened part of herself up to people, to let herself be happy, and for how long it took, she doesn’t have time to be anything but okay. The thing she takes the most pride in is her career, as a BPD, a police officer, someone that speaks to the youth of the dangers of abuse– to go to high schools, colleges, workshops and share her story it’s nothing she thought she’d ever be able to do. But it’s all hidden by her touch exterior, she uses it as a means to protect herself, she never wanted to feel as week as she did those 4 years she was nothing but. Poppy is devoting her life to be strong, to use that strength to protect those that cant. She lives her life for the future of her son, she wants to shape herself into someone he is proud to call his mother.

IN CHARACTER QUESTIONNAIRE.

WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST STRENGTH? HOW DOES IT COME IN HANDY?

Just that, fucking strength– it’s all find and dandy having that mouth, that some see as strength with words, but there is nothing that beats the physical. Being a physically strong person gives you an independence no one would ever imagine; it comes in handy in my career. I was one of the only woman that graduated with my class, you gotta be tougher than the guys, it’s the only way they;ll respect you. Also, nothing says a ‘shut the fuck up’ like a knee to the face, you’d be surprised– it comes in handy.

WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST WEAKNESS? HOW DOES IT AFFECT YOUR DAY-TO-DAY LIFE?

The ‘I don’t care’ attitude I tend to have, while it’s all fine and dandy to be a boss ass bitch; sometimes that bitch needs to cry, and when you think that’s weak, that’s a whole bunch of unsolved emotions that are gonna bit that ass.

WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN TEN YEARS?

A mother to a teenager and slowly losing my mind, probably.

WHAT BROUGHT YOU TO KING’S TERRACE?

New faces, new chances, all that cliche shit.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND TELL YOUR YOUNGER SELF SOMETHING, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Stop being a fucking mother at 8 years old and be a fucking kid– no 8 year old should be starving just to keep others fed, should be stealing to get mouths fed, they should be a fucking kid. Oh and for your teenage self, don’t work 10-13 hour days ontop of school, one that’s illegal and two, get some damn sleep- stop fighting random people, get your stupid color pencils and draw a sun or some shit like that. Don’t get involved with someone that’s gonna fuck you right on up, dump his ass.

#moran #penelope moran #accepted