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Regressor!Ragh Barkrock Headcanons

(with cg!Gorgug and cg!Zelda)

Needless to say after the events of the Prompocalypse, there is a lot for everybody to work through. But before all of that even, Ragh already is having a lot to work through. There's so much about himself that he was repressing in order to fit into what others wanted or expected him to be, to fit into a safe little box that wasn't reflective of his true self. It was so much easier to be the bully than to admit certain things about himself. Sessions with Jawbone help him to come to terms with a few major aspects of who he is. During their sessions they tackle the fact that he's been denying his feelings about Dayne, that he'd been denying the fact itself that he was gay. They also start working through how his mom's health has been bearing down on him since he was a little kid, how he still sometimes feels like that scared little kid who worries about his mom, and by extension Jawbone recommends that Ragh might benefit from trying age regression. There's some trial and error, but sometime between prom and the next school year he figures out he falls somewhere around 7 or 8. By the time summer is over, he's not only opened up about his sexuality and has become proud of who he is, but he's got another thing to open up about still: his regression.

It's Gorgug that he tells first, naturally. They are the closest, after all. Or not so much as tells him with words, but rather it just sort of happens when he is first sorting through everything with Jawbone and giving the whole regression thing a go. They just kind of fall into a regressor and cg dynamic without even meaning to once they start hanging out after defeating Kalvaxus. Ragh doesn't even notice that he middlespaces around Gorgug so much, thinking he's just feeling really relaxed now that he has friends that accept him. In fact it's Zelda that points out how Ragh will sometimes drop his guard so heavily around Gorgug, that he loses his edge and looks at the other boy as if he's hung the moon. Gorgug, ever oblivious, never really noticed—though that didn't apparently stop him from responding in kind, softening his voice and treating him more gently than he normally would. He's always been an only child, but it's clear that he's got the makings of big brother material.

Once Ragh sort of works out that he has been middlespacing with Gorgug, he makes the next step (at Jawbone's suggestion) to ask if Gorgug would like to be his cg. Only if he wants though, was it weird to ask? Maybe he should forget it, it was dumb, right? Yeah, don't worry about it! Despite wanting to include him in this and being told that it can be beneficial to share parts of ourselves with the people we love and trust, Ragh still has a lot of issues with rejection—specifically the fear of rejection—to work through. It's all part of an ongoing healing process! So imagine his surprise when Gorgug says okay, agrees like it's the most natural thing in the world and that Ragh didn't just make himself incredibly vulnerable. It's so different than how things were before with Dayne, when any hint of vulnerability would be used against him; the idea that such vulnerability can be rewarded is still foreign to him, but that doesn't stop the spread of the grin on his face as Gorgug suggests they go get some ice-cream, a grin that only brightens as he takes his hand to lead the way.

Visits to Basrar's Soda Fountain kind of become a staple of Ragh's regression. While it's a typical hang-out spot for the Bad Kids, Gorgug winds up taking Ragh there once a week—usually going after bloodrush practice on Thursdays when all the rough-housing has inevitably brought out that rambunctious little kid he's got hiding away. Sometimes Zelda meets them there, if only to see the absolute mountain of ice-cream Ragh is about to scarf down with only the true gusto a child can manage. His order is always the same too: rocky road with extra marshmallows, topped with lots of cherries and whipped cream. The majority of it does tend to make it into his stomach on most occasions, but usually Zelda and Gorgug wind up having to wipe his face a bit to free him of the dreaded ice-cream mustache. Not to mention his hands, which are sticky with the drying cold-confection. Ragh might be a big boy but he's still a messy eater, and he's small enough that he doesn't realize he'll make everything else sticky if they don't clean him up. But so long as they get to go play on the park swings afterwards, he doesn't put up too much of a fuss about getting cleaned up.

On the off chance that Gorgug is busy, Ragh finds himself slipping around Zelda. The time they spend together is always very chill, and usually involves the two of them laying in the grass as they watch the clouds, listening to her music with an earbud between them. To anyone else her musical preferences might not seem the most calming for a kid, but for Ragh the thrasher metal is so irrevocably Zelda that it has that effect on him. Nothing bad is going to happen to him as long as he's with her, and the music is just another reminder of her presence. Plus, it certainly doesn't hurt that he's an energetic kid and this is some pretty energetic music. Ragh asks her questions about what they are listening to that day, what songs are her favorites, stuff like that. Later on he'll get Gorgug to help him burn a special CD for her, being sure to decorate a sleeve to put it in. It's a fun arts and crafts project for him and a gift for her, so it's a win-win!

The trip they take for spring break—or rather the adventure they go on—is a lot of excitement for the little guy. They get to go to a floating pirate city! Time in the Hangvan is filled with a lot less "are we there yet"s than anticipated, as the novelty of a van that can transform into a boat and talk doesn't wear off so quickly when you're seven years old. Especially when that van has magic on it that makes little rooms in the back for them. Despite how cool and exciting everything is however, the adventure is still scary at times and can take a lot out of him when he starts fraying at the edges so to speak. The stuff with his mom does not help this, and so whenever the group does get to rest it isn't uncommon to find him practically latched to Gorgug's side. More often than not they wind up falling asleep with Ragh snuggled up to his side with Gorgug's arm slung around him protectively.

And while Gorgug is busy trying to call Zelda, Ragh is busy with his own little task. He may not be able to help with the calling thing much, but he does think it might be nice to bring her something back. He's the type of kid that is all about the "I found this cool shell/rock/etc. and I thought you'd like it" lifestyle. Wherever it is they go, he's always picking up something to add to the small bag he bought back before they left for this exact purpose—nobody even notices him doing it, and nobody really questions why he's got a little satchel filled with seemingly random items. As far as they are concerned, that's just Ragh being Ragh. Once they get back he's sure to give it to her, and gets Gorgug to help him tell the story behind each of the little "treasures" he brought back for her. It was their adventure, but he wants all three of them to be able to share a piece of it!

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