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#also you guys know i’m an aspiring artist ofc i enjoy making people feel things
lhrry · 2 years
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Do you enjoy making people cry?
yes very much so x
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ferie-anon · 3 years
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hiiii may I ask for a ship with ateez please ? 💜 I am a cancer sun, aquarius moon, cancer mercury, Taurus Venus, Virgo Mars, and libra rising. thankyouuu 🌙💜
 Sure~ Alright you have a cancer sun with aquarius moon, you may be a mischievous and friendly person, but as much as you can be compassionate and friendly, you won’t hesitate to call out or detach from people that may be toxic and prioritize your feelings and morals. Your aquarius moon makes you quite the independent thinker at times, able to do things by yourself, maybe preferably, and you have a strong mental mindset but you may detach sometimes from emotional troubles to escape your emotions. With cancer mercury, you are more of a emotive speaker and maybe sensitive, speaking how you feel, maybe you are reserved at first when communicating then warm up later. Your taurus venus enables you as a loyal companion and desire simple sincere affection while reciprocating this affection to close friends and partner. When in a relationship or of your inner thoughts and love life, you may be private about it not really letting on much without others realizing. You have a virgo mars, which shows you are practical and diligent towards your goals and aspirations, may be perfectionistic at times and thoughtful about their approaches/initiation. Lastly, you have a libra rising, you may attract a friendly aura or garner an easygoing approach/demeanor towards acquaintances and strangers. Libra rising natives blend in through the crowd, rather than being the wallflower blend, they blend in through their sociability like in a group. 
In Ateez... your match is Mingi!
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Mingi the sunfishh~ Here he is as a leo sun and cancer moon. 🌝 ✨ Mingi is passionate and serious about his career as an artist and idol, and being a part of ateez. However, often he is teasing or getting a reaction out of his members over things lol, showing his playful side. Yet he also knows when to prioritize himself when needed, such as the case when he took a break from promotions one time for his own health. At first meeting, Mingi admired your inner soundness, the way you carried yourself despite the amount of friends you’re always with, as if you could handle anything. Perhaps the similarity between you two made you guys unknowingly aware of each others presence, often hearing each other mentioned by close friends or classmates and teachers about each others’ qualities and compliments. Eventually, one day, you notice Mingi  who peeled a flyer off the wall, while you eyed his height. Turning his face, Mingi pat your head with the flyer unexpectedly as you attempt to swat the flyer off. Annoyed, you glared at Mingi, as he simply laughed at your adorableness. Extending his arm out, he presented you with the flyer. As you looked closer, you realized it was the prom flyer reminding the date of the prom. “Do you want to go to prom with me..?” Mingi asked you a little nervous, shyly.
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His moon is in cancer, and moon in cancer natives are baby energy -3-. They have an inner child-like feel of emotions, desiring affection and being nurtured by others. Thus, sometimes Mingi fooling around is just to play with his hyungs and members :3. He can also be inner sensitive to others emotions and needs, however Mingi doesn’t display his emotions often such as crying, but Mingi is a sensitive lil baby all right. He can also show care and nurture others at times, displaying hugs or being thoughtful. Your aquarius moon may be less emotive about your feelings and needs, but oh its there. And despite aquarius moon sometimes being distant or seemingly cold hearted, you definitely have those emotions, its just masked somewhere, while you let it out possibly when you’re alone. I feel like the aspects of you two can bring out each others emotional vulnerability, and able to reach out to others and talk about your thoughts and feelings. Especially since your cancer sun may feel inclined to open up more due to Mingi’s cancer moon, because with the synergy between the sun and moon you feel more understood or trusting by his presence. Tbh I think in a relationship, Mingi’s clinginess will definitely show up and it may be to a point where for ex: you’re trying to leave for your part-time job, while Mingi may be holding on to you for a whilllee, sad you have to go since he doesn’t see you often, and you’re like, “I’m gonna miss you too, but my work-”
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Next up, Mingi has mercury in cancerr, and these natives communicate with their emotions of how they feel and connected to their heart a lot. They can be empathetic and caring when speaking with others, however cross them or tick them off and their words can turn cold as a knife once they stop caring about your feelings. You both have the same mercury placement so your communication together will be honest and sincere, and easily get used to the natural habits and talking out your thoughts with each other. You both may have a similar sense of humor, and can bond well due to being able to figure out ruses of each other and reading each others emotions through the conversations you have. Rather than overthinking and analyzing a conversation, you two may inherently feel out when tension occurred or if something felt off during a conversation, due to the water’s intuitiveness placed into the communicative mercury, you guys may be synced in terms of emotional needs and listen to each other well during convos, and being a supportive pillar, verbally and personally close.
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Mingi’s venus is in virgo, an earth sign with the same element as your taurus venus :3. You both desire appreciation and comfort and affection from each other, whether its simple hugs or cuddles or words of affirmations~ Mingi would want to help or thoughtfully and quietly tend to your needs at times, and you may pay attention to the small habits or dedicate your attention to Mingi a lot. There is a chill, comforting vibe you two radiate spending time together, enjoying each others company and giving loving attention and affection to each other. On a regular day, you could just be talking about the simplest thing like favorite food, or what Mingi had for lunch, and you both would still smile softly and feel cheered up simply by presence. 🥺☀️⚡️✨
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Lastly, his mars is in scorpio, and I notice quite a few kpop idols have this placement, ex: San and Yunho in Ateez also, changbin and jeongin from skz. Mingi has a deep concentrated mindset when working for his goals and aspirations, constantly striving to do his best. Here, Mingi exhibits his more serious nature when considering what he desires and wants to achieve, also putting it forth into action when he decides so. Such as always putting his energy and effort, it can be found when performing and rapping with Ateez (ofc, every member of Ateez works hard) Mingi is energetic and has a different look. Your virgo mars similarly, also can be quite determined towards their set goals and aspirations, whereas you more dilligently work towards it, probably putting a lot of thought into it and the process.
Having similar attitudes and work ethic, there is respect and chemistry working together and sharing opinions. Regarding initiation, I feel like Mingi would often initiate the first action a lot such as talking or holding hands, eventually when you become more at ease and initiate it afterwards. You both definitely might be subtle touchy affectionate with each other, and despite sometimes having clashes and conflict fights, you guys make up afterwards after being aware of each others feelings and emotions, if the other is hurt. Mingi can be romantic, but then his cancer placements would make him a shy soft bub 🥺💖. Your libra rising is aspecting his leo sun, making the impression or appeal notable to Mingi when he first sees you, perhaps piquing interest and then wanting to find out more about your personality, thoughts, and hobbies. 
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You guys are just sweeet, like its not sugary sweet but like a sweet cookie chemistry -> thoughtful, simple, and solid as individuals, with a sprite drink, refreshing being with each other. In a relationship, balance or finding a solid ground is good, and what you two have is definitely working out and progressing smoothly each time you are together or meet up. Your vibes together -> 💖⚡️✌🏻⛓☀️🌙☃️✨💘
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hellotvv · 7 years
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Small Realizations
I guess I just wanted to get these thoughts out somewhere to maybe look back one day.
When I become a parent (or if I do), hopefully I learn from some mistakes my parents made. My parents are good people, they genuinely love me, and they definitely provided for me. I can’t truly complain that much, since I know other people had it much worst. But my parents are human and they tbh have made some mistakes with me. OBVIOUSLY I am my own person, and I can always ‘fix’ these mistakes they made, but I feel like how a person is raised has a huge impact on their life lol. It shapes their world around them, what they believe in, what they value, what they like/dislike, and etc. I’m definitely not saying my parents are bad parents, I’m just saying that they’re human. We all make mistakes, have moments of anger, sadness, happiness, etc. Also, it’s genuinely hard raising a kid. Kids are tough, they’re their own person at the end of the day, they might not listen to you, each need to be taught differently, and etc etc etc. 
But somethings I promise myself that I would do differently than my parents: I would never hit my kid. Honestly I disliked being hit so much as a kid, and I personally idk would never hit my kid. I’d ground them, scold them, etc all before hitting them. I could see maybe just MAYBE spanking them at a LAST CASE scenario. But I don’t think it should be the first or even second option when it comes to punishment. I personally (I’m not saying spanking is bad/good) just would not do it myself. 
I think it’s good to be able to be friends with your kids. You’re more likely to actually know who they are as a person. I have some friends who could tell their parents anything and are good friends with them. Honestly I love my parents, but I can’t say their my friends. It’s just they valued respect (which I understand), being in idk a high superior position (I called them guys once, just as a short way to refer to both of them and I got heavily scolded and yelled at, saying they’re not my friends/etc can’t address them that way), and I’d like it if my kids can genuinely talk to me about their faults/mistakes/problems. I was so scared of failure or telling my problems to my parents, since I KNEW I’d get punished/hit/etc. Like I legit feel bad about this, but if I ever got into trouble at school or struggled, I hated to even tell them. Since they’d criticize me/etc/etc. When all I would like is maybe a gentle conversation where they just go, well we could do x and x to help you fix your problem. Like if I do bad in math, I got scolded, blah blah blah, then eventually I get my tutor to help me succeed. But I wish I was able to just talk to them about my idk problems without getting in trouble. I legit got in trouble for the most ridiculous things that I don’t even wanna write about them. 
A huge thing that deserves it’s own paragraph is something I realized as I got older. I’m decently well off, and I came to realize that fk money. I don’t disagree that money can bring happiness, I think it could (at least temporarily). I don’t disagree that money would help someone’s standard of living, possibly have less stress, and etc. But fk, I never want to raise a kid where I make them think money is everything or it’s important to be rich or wealthy. I think my parents did a lot of thing well in raising me (besides uh spoiling me/other stuff I listed above), and this is a big stereotype but I think some white ppl parenting methods are pretty smart. I think it’s important to just let the kid do what they want (in terms of career choices) and just let them be happy with whatever they pick. Since, it’s their life at the end of the day. I am NOT saying that a parent shouldn’t try to inspire kids to dream big or to push them to succeed/have high aspirations. I wanted to be a doctor for the longest time tbh. Even up to 2nd year in college and somewhat 3rd year, I really wanted to be a doctor. But did I really want to be a doctor, since I LOVED to help people? Since I saw myself slaving the next 8 years of my life at school, studying, cram studying till early mornings, possibly making tons of sacrifices, and etc just to become a doctor? Honestly no, but I was stubborn and kind of willing to do it for the $$$. The reason why is, my parents genuinely wanted me to be wealthy (understandable), being a doctor has prestige/they can flex/I can flex, and yeah. I realized far too late that my motives were retarded. I’ve obviously read that someone won’t succeed at becoming a doctor unless they’re truly passionate about it or motivated. I’m genuinely not, and it took me far too long to realize that. I really wouldn’t be happy being a doctor. I talk about career passion and hobby passion, how they can be separate, and etc. But honestly giving up that many years + god knows how many sacrifices (relationships, friendships, sleep, stress, mental/physical health in general, etc) of my life to school/late shifts just for some $$$, I would genuinely question if I really made this 1 life of mine in this world amazing. I guess around this point in my life, I realize that yes, I enjoy money. Would it be nice to have money? Yeah, ofc. But I realized that I could be genuinely happy with less. Hypothetically, if I had only a decent 1 bedroom apartment (like I do rn), have a good relationship with a sweet SO, enough money to go on vacations now and then, treat myself to nice food here, and hang out with friends on the weekend with a stable job. I think I could genuinely be really happy. I don’t think I need a mansion, a huge house, lavish furniture, or whatever the fk I would do with the money. The most I could see myself using a bunch of $$$ is on dumb material things. Yeah, I loved fashion, but honestly I don’t need a wardrobe full of Saint Laurent. I bought my grailed Robert Geller sweater, and I legit wore it once (partially since it was summer) and I was happy for like 2 minutes TOPS after I got it. Idk, I hope I find a SO with a similar view. Being in a social media position where I meet a lot of models nowadays, shot with an actress recently, popular IGers too, and etc. Holy fk, I grew to hate gold diggers, juice diggers, and people who only give a fk about being popular. Yes, it’s nice having followers and etc, but ppl who make it their lives geez... I’m not saying I would hate being wealthy, but I just realize that I don’t need it. My parents still want me to do something in the medical field/etc, but fk man... I kind of just want a stable job that pays alright, and I’ll be really happy. If it’s enough $$ to pay bills, get me my own place, able to afford a cute dog, some spending $$ to hang out with friends on weekends, and occasional vacation on holidays then I’m truly content/happy. Maybe some people aspire more, which is perfectly fine. I would too (after I at least have what I just asked for). But idk I just realized that’s all I really need nowadays. But back to the whole parenting thing. I don’t want to push my kids towards any jobs just for the sake of money. I’d aspire them to dream big ofc, but at the end of the day, I just want them to be happy. I shadowed a doctor last year, and he after making huge sacrifices with his wife for his monetary success, doesn’t even want his kid to be a doctor (unless he for some reason wants to). His kid might major in psych and be clueless about what he wants to do (according to the doctor), but he just wants his son to be happy. Honestly I think that’s what I would want to (maybe not the clueless part). If my kid has good aspirations, doesn’t want to be some degen and not work, is honest/kid, then who the fk cares what career my kid chooses. If he/she wants to become a doctor, cool. If she wants to be an artist, I’d support that. If she wants to be idk an actress, go for it. A teacher? Sure, go for it. Idk, I just know that I would be a lot happier right now, if I didn’t waste so much time wanting/chasing after a career path that I ultimately would not be happy doing.
It’s at least good I realized now before med school or something, since then it might genuinely be too late. I do truly respect doctors after knowing how hard it is to become one. I can’t imagine idk what sacrifices I might have to make in the future to become one. Since while I’m young, I really just want to be able to travel the world, live a life with minimal stress for a while, hang out with friends, spend time with a SO, and etc. If I was in med school/doing residency training/etc, I’m sure you can live a decently balanced life. But it would be hard to find time to vacation, spend time with a SO when studying for INCREDIBLY hard med school exams that determines how good of a job you’ll get as a doctor, spending time with friends/family when studying most of your days away, and so much more. 
While I’m still young. I do want to go to concerts and shows with friends. I want to travel to places and enjoy them. I want to be a degen lol for a bit and be as carefree as long as I could. I don’t see myself happy slaving away the next years of my life in school/studying/etc. I could be stubborn, push myself, and etc but at what cost tho? Idk, you really do only live once. I’ve spent honestly my whole life always wanting to be older, thinking it’ll be better. Like omg how cool would hs be, how cool would it be to have a car and drive, going to college, being 21, and etc. I’m finally at a point in my life, where I’m content and don’t necessarily want to get any older haha. I am tired of always chasing a brighter future. If I was in med school, I’d be chasing the future where I’m finally an intern at a hospital, then I’d be chasing finally finishing residency, I’d then chase idk finishing specialized training, then before I know it I’m 30+ years old, and been constantly chasing the future my entire youth. Fk that. This girl I have a date with next week wrote this, “I was so scared not being able to do everything I want in my life that I couldn't be happy about the current achievements I was making. (Like getting yoga certified) I'm taking a break from hobbies and life goals/dreams to train my mind to be content with where I am in the PRESENT. Funny how life goals, as motivating as they are, can make you discontent with who you are. One step at a time” on her recent ig post. I realized that’s so true. I’m so scared of not achieving being a doctor, letting my parents down, not being wealthy, etc etc. I always want to be this amazing perfect dude, no flaws/imperfection, and was never happy with success. Any success I’ve had, Idk if I really took the time to appreciate it THAT much (i obv appreciated to an extent), and I was always focused on these life goals/dreams of mind like being a doctor. I always chased the future, and never just lived in the present. I do want to be a better me, I will always strive to be a better version of me, but all these goals sometimes can make me discontent with who I am. Like fk, I am not insanely ripped/fit, so I’m unhappy with myself. I’m not a successful wealthy boy at just 21, so I’m not happy with myself. I’m not a doctor blah blah, and when I think about how I haven’t achieved certain goals, I’d just feel sad. What’s the point in being sad about what I don’t have? I have goals, but I can’t endlessly chase after them/endlessly chase after the future.
My plans to make the present better and be more present: don’t stress about what might happen ALL the time. If things doesn’t work out, it doesn’t (kind of thinking about uh my upcoming date primarily when writing this). It’s okay if you’re not where you want, as long as you’re at least trying, then it’s okay. Don’t constantly think about the future, just take things one day at a time. You’ll be a lot happier, more productive, and more likely to have a beautiful future too. Just fking live your life Theo. Go work out, go hang out with friends, go to those concerts/clubs, go and spend time on your hobbies (who gives a fk if you’re not good, just do it for fun and for yourself), don’t go wild and not give a fk about responsibilities/school work, but I can’t live my life/plan my career for other ppl, and just do whatever I love. I don’t really believe in reincarnation or anything, so this is my one and only life. Why the fk waste time thinking about the future all the time, stressing about ‘succeeding’, and why not just make sure that I’m happy. If I have family, friends, and wonderful memories, then I think I’d be happy with the time I spent in this world. :)
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