#and gay guys are into me sometimes but i don't really pass consistently enough for it to happen often

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it's just like. okay. when i say i like men in a gay way and women in a lesbian way i don't mean that i think straight attraction is icky or my attraction is somehow more enlightened and progressive. i mean that I've spent the formative years of my sexuality in a place with my gender presentation where people are equally as likely to see me as a man or a woman and often seem to think of me as both, and i cannot separate both my attraction to men or to women from that. ive always felt drawn to butchness because its this concept that your love for the same gender shapes your gender presentation and vice versa, but it's specific to womanhood and attraction to women as a woman in a way i can't entirely relate to. like, in many ways i am both a man and a woman, and i am attracted to both men and woman in a way both shaped by and reflected by that fact.

#there's not really a clear label for that is there #i suppose i don't need one it's just to have that cos you can find similar people #i suppose bisexual as a gender is the closest i can get #like both sexes and also attracted to both sexes and those two things each are linked to and affected by the other #i don't know. i expect my feelings on this will change as i transition and people start to really see me as a man #and not the in-between ive been in since puberty (thank you pcos combined with massive badonkahonkawonkadonks) #it's just sort of frustrating to feel like nobody gets it #like lesbians are into me cos they think im butch #a specific type of man-autistic nerds (affectionate)-seem to just see me as a regular ol woman #and when confronted with the reality that i am not seem to not really care either way about my gender #other trans people are into me and they do generally get it but not always #and gay guys are into me sometimes but i don't really pass consistently enough for it to happen often #like im not actively seeking a partner n i don't both passing day to day cos everyone knows im trans already #n binding is a living hell when you're fat with a fucking. idk the size like E or F probably. cup size. #so mostly ppl approach me thinking im butch but occasionally ppl think im a guy in photos i post and such or #strangers will ask my friends abt me thinking im a guy #but like generally speaking no matter what i don't get to just be A Man. and i don't know if i really want to be! i like being trans #and it sucks because ive missed out entirely on dating in middle/high school like when you find out who you like #simply for being trans. ik most queer ppl end up doing it all in college its just frustrating yk. cos all my cis friends get to do it #realistically speaking im p much just t4t i really only have actually tried to date trans people + trans people are hotter + they get it #which im fine with. i love trans people . just sucks to be excluded sometimes even when u don't want in

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🍍 Has this muse's sexuality changed over the course of playing them?

qrow has been and always will be a disaster bi with a female lean. i think that's been pretty consistently portrayed throughout the blog. the only thing in regards to his sexuality is the muse kind of gradually revealing to me over the course of the first year how with his younger encounters... since he's never been very good at navigating his own emotions, he definitely wasn't very good about boundaries. he was used for comfort a lot, rather than respected as an equal partner and he didn't even realize it, because hey he was still getting off, right? and didn't want the romance anyway, right? and... why am i suddenly supposed to care what happens after (no one ever cared about how i felt before?) while he's better at communicating expectations as an adultier adult, it does still bleed into how he chooses his partners and how he approaches (or avoids) encounters a lot more than I anticipated.

🍓 Have they ever fallen for someone straight?

as far as mainverse rp? no. there are maybe two straight muses around here and they are people qrow would not get involved with lol. even in multiverse rp, qrow has only 'fallen' for one or two people ever in his life so far and that was reciprocated, so still no. now, in a 'has he hit on straight dudes while drunk and been turned down' sense? yeah, that probably happened at least a handful of times.

🍌 What do "gay thoughts" look like for them?

usually the sudden realization that a guy is actually making moves on him or flirting with him followed by eye-sex reciprocation, or maybe laughing off some homoerotic tension if he's not actually into it. sometimes seeing some eye candy and checking the guy out, but keeping that admiration to himself. unless he's a bird at the time then he might whistle like a little gremlin, as you know.

other times, just fleeting fantasies during 'personal time' involving prior experiences or guys he's met and found attractive.

🍑 For research purposes, do they top or bottom? Exclusively, or preferentially?

Service top, very much preferred, but not exclusively. Misfortune makes him feel like most of his life is out of control, but sex is one of the things he's skilled enough at to wrest some of that control back, to make a plan and usually see it through to good result, so that feels good to him. bottoming does tend to happen more with the same sex, if only because guys see a twink like him and maybe have some expectations, and he doesn't always bother to get into that power struggle/banter with someone coming at him with top energy, just happy to take what he can get, or too drunk to care (see above about the boundaries thing tbh). sometimes, especially with a longer term partner(s), it can be a desirable thing, though. he'll feel better about being more vulnerable and having less control, and just letting the dynamic play out that way, if that's how the mood strikes that day.

🥑 Do they pass for straight, or do people take them for gay at a glance?

He can pass for straight, especially if he's living in his toxic masculinity. to those who don't know any better, he looks and acts like a man's man huntsman hero, a stereotypical womanizer, too, by choice and design, so some people won't ever look past that. ...but then again someone might also see him standing like the dramatic bi disaster bish he is, unbiased by other assumptions, and realize that's really, really fruity, my dude.

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