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#and i got yelled at for being antisocial while i was sobbing and sick with grief and unable to get out of bed
pulchrasilva
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21 days
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Having people you care about who are suicidal while you're not suicidal is truly a special torture I think I want to go back to wanting to kill myself im gonna throw up
#vent post
#it's just. knowing theres no quick fix or surefire solution because there never was for /you/
#it feels a little hopeless yknow? like what can i do really? how can i singlehandedly restore your faith in the world?
#how can i stop your body from causing you constant pain?
#i literally cant. and im not good at handling the fact that i cant do much
#doesnt help that last time a friend tried to kill themself i sorta didnt see or didnt take note of the warning signs
#now someone is letting me see all the warning signs it's setting off the 'THIS IS WAY WORSE THAN LAST TIME ALARMS' and idk if thats true
#but its really putting me on edge about it
#for forever i was used to knowing people who want to kill themselves but dont ever take action to do it
#which is miserable and terrible but it's not particularly scary
#PLUS doesnt help that by coincidence i was remembering other horrible miserable things that happened after my friend tried to kill themself
#and my brain loves to imagine what mjght happen if they /do/ try to kill themself. what I'll do when i find out. whay ill do if they succeed
#i dont really want to think about it but we're thinking about it i guess
#hey isnt it kinda funny that my parents /still/ dont know my friend tried to kill themself that night
#and i got yelled at for being antisocial while i was sobbing and sick with grief and unable to get out of bed
#oh im gonna throw up. anyway
#dont mind me im mostly ok
#feeling a little sick but i can manage
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