#and i had to ask my colleague bestie to sneak in some neosporin into the office and i used it and you know whst? it made the infection go

[pepprs]

likeeee i know i do this literally every month but it fills me with such despair. making this bullet points (cringe) bc it’s so long lol

first of all why do i live in a household where… like i get it i know it’s not good to over-rely on medication and pharmaceuticals but when we don’t use them or seek them out AT ALL except for emergencies and an emergency is only when you’re so sick or in pain that you cant function… except i have BEEN in so much pain i have been unable to function (e.g. bad cramps… and wisdom t**th pain…. and ear infections!!!) and my parents still hedged and stalled and delayed me from seeing a doctor and getting meds which made my nightmare oct 2021 ear infection worse and created complications i have to suffer the consequences of every day!!!!!! like when i don’t get to decide the goalposts and every month with my period im in pain that isn’t like… too SEVERE to function but certainly makes it hard. idk how to articulate it but like… when i don’t get to decide the goalposts. when i am made to doubt whether the goalposts are actually goalposts and whether im actually in “enough” pain to warrant taking “extreme” actions. that is very dangerous and a problem. it is not good to regularly suffer pain and to not have what i need to get through it. and be the only person i know who is dealing with that kind of thing like nobody else’s parents are like this 💀

SECOND of all… and this is something i have said before… if a huge portion of ppl on earth regularly experience this pain to various degrees of debilitation then why… like i know why. but why isn’t society set up to make it easier to experience it. to let you take what you need to experience it. like you can’t walk around and go to school / work with a heating pad. you can’t lie down with it or plug it in. there are strict attendance policies a lot of the time so if you come in late or miss a day you’re fucked (thankfully that’s not the case for me at work but it was when i was in school). it just sucks and is so fucking stupid. why isn’t it understood that some ppl need to take a break once a month to ride out the pain and discomfort and whatever and then return and be fine. why have to work through it. ugh

#purrs #related to point 1: i got a h*ngnail at the beginning of the week and didn’t get it out right and so it started to hurt and possibly get inf #infected on wed and i told my parents and asked if we had neosporin and they were like 🤨 neosporin is an antibiotic. use turmeric paste #instead bc it’s an anti-inflammatory! so i put fucking turmeric on it and you know what? all it fucking did was stain my finger yellow 😍😍😍😍😍 #and i had to ask my colleague bestie to sneak in some neosporin into the office and i used it and you know whst? it made the infection go #away 😻😻😻😻😻😻 and i didn’t have any adverse side effects 😻😻😻😻😻😻😻 the joys of modern medicine 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #delete later #menstruation tw #medical tw #ask to tag #also when i asked for the neosporin i felt like i was doing something illegal. like using dangerous prohibited substances or whatever. i #don’t think that is a normal thought that normal people have about using neosporin. lol