#and then lamar gets hurt ☹️.

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He still cares abt Lamar (link)

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............ MA. R Q U I S E.

OKAY THIS . THIS IS CUTE. BUT I HATE THIS. BECAUSE IT IS CUTE. ARGGHH HOW DO I EXPLAIN THISSS.... okOKAY listen i am so. i am studying this like a researcher does a bug in a jar. A Petri dish growing mold. A banana. NO ONE IS SUFFERING MORE THAN ME CREATING MY OWN NARRATIVE IN MY HEAD ABOUT NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!

he still loves him of COURSE he still loves him, which is CUTE but. BRO HAS DONE SELF-SABOTAGE!!!!!! AND IS PUTTING /ALL/ THE PURPOSE ON THE ORGANIZATION !! it doesn't MATTER at this point who did what to who and why... what MATTERS is that self-sabotage has occurred, and hollywood still loves lamar. HOOWW can i EXPLAIN this MAN like!!!! HOLLYWOOD doesn't think he's good enough for Lamar, no, he KNOWS that. But he can't live with Lamar knowing that because he's afraid LAMAR will leave him when he's TRYING and can't even convince him to stay or not trade him at his best. HOWEVER, if he convinces THE ORGANIZATION to trade him 'JUST OUT OF THE BLUE', then that's UNDERSTANDABLE, that's a BUSINESS decision, then the ORGANIZATION is the villain! AND NO ONE WILL HAVE TO KNOW ANYTHING!! except HOLLYWOOD ! super easy choice, genius plan!!

... except maybe hollywood is less fine with knowing than he thought. Maybe the plan went too well. So well that the real problems went unsolved. Even if it was a bad plan, Lamar would still believe his every word anyways. He always does. He's always in Hollywood's corner. but no one's in Lamar's.

Moving, spending all that time away from Lamar, it didn't change a thing. He still thought of Lamar, Lamar still thought of him. Still thought of him too well. Hell, he didn't even worry when Hollywood spent almost all his off-season training with his old college QB. Because he has that much faith in His wide receiver. His wide receiver that averages 10+ dropped passes a season. His wide receiver that left him for that old college QB. Lamar blames the organization because HIS old wide receiver did, his FRIEND. And now Lamar's getting turned on because of his friend. . . So maybe the plan came with more problems than solutions. Lamar didn't hate him, at least.

But he should.

#i FEEL LIKE NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRAIN I'LL NEVER HELP LAMAR REACH THE WR QB DUO HEIGHTS OF A SUPERBOWL ☹️ #i CANT AFFORD THE PAIN OF HIM REJECTING ME WHEN MY GOOD ISNT ENOUGH BECAUSE I WANT IT TO BE SO BADLY ☹️☹️ #so i BLAME THE ORGANIZATION BACK TO SOMEONE 'SAFER' AND ALL IS GOOD AGAIN 😊😊 #...i miss lamar...... lamar misses me... lamar blames the organization too despite still working for it....☹️ #everyone hates lamar... you trying to defend him adds more hate to him and you ... #whatever you try hurts him worse and he won't even run. #because he loves you. and you love him too. so much that it hurts him. and he loves you so much that he lets it. #someone needs to cut the rope. #IT'S LIKE THAT STUPID GRU POSTER PRESENTATION MEME #AND THE FINAL FRAMES ARE GONNA BE HOLLYWOOD ACTING LIKE THEM BEING ON THE SAME TEAM WAS A GIANT MISTAKE #SO LAMAR WILL HATE HIM 😊 AND STOP GETTING HURT 😊😊 #and then lamar gets hurt ☹️. #when the self sabotage was unnecessary if you had just COMMUNICATED these INSECURITIES but you CANT #because you cant let lamar KNOW you have INSECURITIES because you THINK he puts YOU on a pedestal because you know he LOVES YOU #BUT Y O U R E PUTTING HIM ON A PEDESTAL tOO !!!!!! AND YOU DON'T REALIZE THAT UNTIL YOU SEE HOW MUCH HE CRUMBLES BECAUSE OF YOUUU #I HATEEE it HERE!!!!! HOLLYWOOD IS SO INSANE. AND FOR WHAAAATTTTT!!!!!!!!! #anyways #ted asks #THANKS FOR SHOWING ME THIS THIS IS VITAL FOR MY FICTIONS THAT HAUNT ME DAILY #hollywood/jackson #ted drabbles