#and unlike before these are actually good anime not subpar 6-year-old mainstream anime lol

[neonacidtrip]

Does anyone else occasionally see a news update from someone and just turn into a feral animal over it? Asking for a friend

#its me im the friend #and by someone i usually mean an ex lol #i decided to check if they are still alive (they are!) #and its the pettiest thing. like the most petty thing ever #i get angry when an ex watches a new show before i do. hence another reason not check on them #this happened years ago with high school of the dead of all things #i ended up not watching high school of the dead until like a year ago because i was angry they beat me to it like 6 years ago #and yeah i finally watched it and it was so very terrible. kinda glad they got that one #back when i still spoke with them regularly (we still talk but its rare now) like 6 years ago #they mentioned that they were going to watch deadman wonderland so i stayed up long hours for like a day or two #and just binged the hell out of deadman wonderland so they would not beat me to it lol #deadman wonderland was also subpar. my ex does not have great taste in anime #but today i found out they watched two shows (one of which i finished a few months ago and one i havent started yet) #and unlike before these are actually good anime not subpar 6-year-old mainstream anime lol #no offense to people who like high school of the dead or deadman wonderland. they just werent for me #i actually found deadman wonderland somewhat fascinating but the anime fell flat. i plan to read the manga one day #i should also clarify that by feral animal i just mean im grumpy. im not going to say or do anything about it #i'll probably either watch the anime out of spite very soon or refuse to watch it for several years. we shall see #also in other news my ex unblocked me? yeah it the ex that blocked me randomly a few months ago and then undid it right after #it was all very strange. like i said we still talk. we havent fought. i never start conversations they always initiate them #except in special circumstances. i did reach out recently for work related reason because i had a problem that aligned with their job #i did not mention anything about the blocking and neither did they lol. i guess we are pretending it didnt happen #so i have had 3? exes block me only to unblock me a few weeks to months later? why is this a trend #why am i still awake at three am you ask? ANGER #thats half a joke. i am already over the anger with my ex beating me to the shows but i am angry for unrelated reasons #reasons that have to do with another person once again breaking our appointment after they promised we would talk today #they were a complete no show. im rather annoyed by it. but alas~ that is life #im tempted to delete this post because its really just venting but i find the wording of the post itself to be kinda funny so it can live #neo rambles #neo complains in the tags