#anyway i love her and i love isamu and i gotta decide if i have a headcanon in me after writing all this

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A LIGHT AMIDST DESPAIR | JJK AU | ft. sato kaiya

trigger warning for mentions/implications of abuse and child death; nothing is ever described in detail; i try to keep everything as vague as possible, but please be careful! be warned that there is some canon-typical violence as well. if you'd prefer to get right into verse specifics, you can skip the prologue <3

prologue:

another universe yet a similar story, again kaiya finds herself struggling to support her mother after an accident steals her father from them. again she finds herself in a loveless marriage, and again she finds herself at the end of her rope one night, but rather than a meeting a demon, the young woman encounters someone else entirely.

it's pouring rain when she spots what appears to be a child crouched beneath a tree in her backyard, and of course kaiya rushes over to check on him, ushering him into the safety of the engawa. he looks terribly pale to the point of looking blue; she would have left to fetch the boy blankets and hot tea, but he clutches at her hand so desperately, cries for her to stay. without another thought, kaiya gathers him in her arms and holds him.

then her husband steps outside, sees her hugging nothing but air, and accuses her of finally losing it. kaiya pushes back, insists that the boy is there -- how can her husband not see him? and as matters escalate, kaiya realizes they are engulfed in rain again, the cold digging into her skin like a million little daggers that hurt worse than the stinging of her cheek. she turns to look at the boy. isamu.

where once a frail boy sat, now stands a mass of blue muscle and bared teeth in his place. kaiya's blood runs cold. it's happening again.

Y҉O҉U҉ ҉W҉I҉L҉L҉ ҉N҉O҉T҉ ҉T҉O҉U҉C҉H҉ ҉M҉O҉T҉H҉E҉R҉.҉

isamu seems to move in the blink of an eye, a massive fist decimating the man in one blow. blood splatters against her face. someone screams -- she screams, she thinks. and as isamu turns his glowing eyes to her, kaiya screams again, stumbling and falling backwards and crawling to get away, far as she can. she curls herself into a ball, weeping and knowing that despite all the suffering, despite all of her effort to keep going and make something good, she is going to die here.

" mother? what's wrong? the bad man is gone, mother-- " he sounds like the little boy again, small and fragile, but still kaiya flinches as his cold hand touches her shoulder. his voice grows thick with upset. " are you mad at me? did i do something wrong? why won't you look at me? "

" you killed him! " she wails. isamu cries with her.

" he hurt mother! he always hurts mother, but i wouldn't let him this time! " isamu sobs and curls tiny fists into the sleeve of her yukata, tugging at her arm until kaiya finally looks up. she stares at the boy's tear-streaked face as his words sink in. i wouldn't let him this time. "i'm sorry, please--- please, don't leave me again! i only wanted to help mother! "

he's different from the thing that killed her father, kaiya realizes, having only wanted to keep her safe from someone who hurt her. despite his oni-like form earlier, isamu seems human as he cries, begs her to not be mad, begs her to not leave him ( it tears into her heart, creating an ache that almost feels familiar ). kaiya knows it's probably stupid of her -- she hasn't made very many wise decisions lately -- but she reaches out a shaky hand to cradle isamu's cheek, wiping away his tears. slowly, he calms and meets her gaze with blue eyes that oddly match her own.

she can't manage a smile, can't control the tremble in her voice. she's terrified that she's making a mistake, that maybe this thing isn't a child at all, but hope steadies kaiya's hand as she grips one of isamu's tiny fists.

" i won't leave you. i promise. "

verse specifics:

soon after kaiya's chance meeting with isamu and her husband's death, sorcerers come to her small town and apprehend them. kaiya goes willingly to ensure isamu doesn't try to kill anyone and because she ultimately feels responsible for her husband and her father's deaths.

it is obviously debated that she should be killed because of the risk isamu poses, but she is thankfully allowed to live so long as the boy remains obedient and loyal to her -- or in other words, so long as he doesn't kill anyone.

it's discovered that kaiya has an innate technique that draws in curses by bleeding a great amount of cursed energy; she may also cut off her energy entirely, becoming impossible to sense. this is how isamu found her, and it is why a curse attacked her father yet left her alone.

kaiya herself would be considered a lower grade sorcerer if not for isamu. because of him, she is considered somewhere between 1st-special grade. i haven't decided uvu

isamu believes kaiya is his mother who died hundreds of years ago. she, too, was in a bad relationship which she tried to escape, but running away led to both her and isamu's deaths. until he found kaiya, he wandered the countryside as a vengeful cursed spirit, bringing rain with him and attacking anyone who dared to raise a hand against a woman.

kaiya is, in fact, a reincarnation of isamu's mother, and this is discovered after some time at jujutsu high.

isamu most often appears as a child with a ghostly pallor, but he is capable of taking on a much larger form that resembles a blue oni. along with heightened strength and speed, the rain he conjures is imbued with his cursed energy, harming anyone who is caught in the storm.

pre-shibuya, kaiya and isamu live within the walls of jujutsu high; it has been five years since they met, making kaiya 26 in this verse. post-shibuya, kaiya enters the culling games in hopes of helping innocent non-sorcerers caught in the crossfire ( unless otherwise plotted ).

possibly more to be added/edited!!

#a light amidst despair | jujutsu kaisen | kaiya #haha may i just say I HAVE MANY FEELINGS!! #i've had isamu for all of a day but lemme tell you i'd die for him :' )) and so would kaiya :' )))) #and pls know i'm holding my hands out so eagerly for dynamics in this verse #kaiya is such a sunshine lady and so openminded that i feel like you could toss just about anyone at her and she'd go 'friend? friend <3' #anyway i love her and i love isamu and i gotta decide if i have a headcanon in me after writing all this #btw the abilities are a slight wip just bc i dunno how strong i want them to be #part of me is like 'don't make them very strong' but then again isamu is hundreds of years old so he's probably gonna be strong #i'm pretty set on kaiya not being all that strong on her own though -- decent in a fight but definitely no match for stronger opponents #if she's alone #but she's never alone bc isamu is stuck to her like glue :' ) #okay i'll stop rambling for real this time ASDFG #headcanons | kaiya

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Twisted Fates

Part Three

(Part One)

"...what?" Grimmjow muttered as he stuffed his mouth with noodles "The fuck are you looking at?". Isamu's eyes widened "Huh? Oh! Nothing! I was just...looking at your hair..it's a little lighter than mines". "Really? Didn't notice.." He grumbled, "Now that you're fed and got a place to stay...start talking brat". "Right!" The boy said as he wiped his mouth "...you may not believe me, but I promise everything I say is one hundred percent true..and I can't tell you how I know any of this but please know that it's all true". "..are you like her stalker or something?" Grimmjow deadpanned "Secret admirer?". "No! God no! That's disgusting!" Isamu deadpanned "I told you, I'm a distant relative of hers". "Whatever, keep talking" he said as he continued to eat. "...you went to middle and high school with her" Isamu informed, "It was in high school that she met the man who killed her". Grimmjow nearly choked on the noodles, coughing them back up as he tried to breathe "W-what the fuck are you talking about?! She met him in high school? And he kills her after?!...how did you know I went to school with her?". "I know, I know" Isamu tried to calm the male down "But you have to believe me. I cant tell you anything other than it’s true..". "...what the fuck" he sighed as he drank some water "I swear to god if you're just fucking around with me kid...". "I'm not!" He assured "Just listen! The man who killed her has known her since high school...so, if you want to stop him. You need to find out who he is, then you can stop him before he kills her". Grimmjow deadpanned "....and I'm supposed to magically gain the power to go back in time and find him? I could just stop them from meeting and everything will be fucking roses and unicorns, right?". Isamu shook his head "No. You can't stop them from meeting, you'd change the future too much and that would be bad". "...the hell are you talking about? I don't have any fucking magic or whatever to go back in time, moron" he pointed out "Even if I did, why would I even do that? I didn't know her then and I didn't know her now, so why would I do that for some fucking woman". "...Grimmjow..would you believe me if I told you that this is something you need to do?" Isamu asked with a seriousness around him and his words. Grimmjow wasn't sure if he should laugh or not, so he decided to look away, "No, I wouldn't. It doesn't make sense why I should do something for someone I barely knew..". "I can't say anything else about how or why, but I can send you back in time to find Y/n's killer" Isamu suddenly sprung up to his feet "Will you do it? Will you save her?". "You..can send me back" he deadpanned, wondering if he should call the police now or later. "Yes..I can" Isamu said proudly "I need Y/n alive...and you're the only one who can save her Grimmjow!". His eyes widened, "...me?".

You're the only one who can save her, Grimmjow! Grimmjow sighed softly as he rolled over onto his side, eyes reading the clock. It was ten minutes to 3 am, and he was still tossing and turning thanks to that brat. What did he mean by that? Was Isamu telling the truth? About being able to time travel? If so, why did he choose him of all people to save Y/n? She had a brother from what he'd seen, why not choose the brother? Why..was he being dragged deeper into this mess? As if he wasn't haunted by that woman enough..he could still hear those screams echoing in his mind. It was only after that he found her dead, that it began to haunt him. She was screaming as she was being butchered, banging on the wall so that he'd save her. But he ignored it all..if he'd just gone out to see what was wrong. Maybe he could've saved her and she wouldn't be dead. Maybe...that was why he was going through all of this. It was karma for not saving her when he could've. Still, even if this brat was telling the truth...what could he do? Back then, he paid no mind to her or anyone for that matter, so how was he supposed to find her killer? And why should he? Things happen for a reason, right? So why should they even mess with the past? Why should they stop her death? Wouldn't it mess with the future? He grumbled, annoyed that he couldn't sleep as he sat up in the bed. He could still hear the thumps. He closed his eyes. Thump. Th--thuump. Thump. Thump. Maybe he should hear the boy out some more. If there was a way he could save her, perhaps it was the right thing to do. After all, whenever he spoke to her, it was brief and he was kinda rude. To think that she had depended on him those last few moments of her life, to come and save her..man, he really was a piece of shit, huh? He needed to get those sounds out of his mind, he wanted his life to go back to normal, he wanted to sleep again.

"Let's say I believe you and that you really can send me back or whatever....what is it that I gotta do?" Grimmjow asked as he sat across from the teen "And tell me why it has to be me? If you can time travel, why don't you just go back a few days after she died and save her?". "I've tried" he sighed as he crossed his arms "Believe it or not, I tried but the result was that she died..she wasn't supposed to die last week, I messed it up and that was the result...then I remembered you and that's when I realized I'd gone about it all wrong. I needed you to save her, I couldn't do it alone. I only have three chances, and if I waste them all...she'll be erased from the future completely!". He could see how visibly upset Isamu was, tears in his eyes as he stared at his food. Perhaps Y/n meant much more to him than he led on to believe? "You...remembered me? We've meet in the future then?" Grimmjow asked, switching subjects "I'm probably old as fuck by then, right? Do I have a nice car? Please tell me I'm rich ..I'm tired of living in this damn dump and working my ass off with nothing to show for it". Isamu chuckled, wiping his eyes "Sorry..I can't give you any details about the future since it may change it...just know that you're be very happy in the future". Grimmjow eyes lingered on the male, would he and Isamu be good friends in the future? Is that why he made it seem like he knew his future self so well? "Anyways...you'll go back and try to find her killer right? If we're going to do this, it's gotta be tonight! If we wait may longer, it'll become her permanent future". Grimmjow looked down at his food, thinking back on how he was in high school and how much of an asshole he was to the girl. Come to think of it, even after she confessed, he paid no mind to her, never even batting an eye once she moved a month after. He had no idea what she was like back then, let alone if he'll be able to get close enough to save her. But..he had to try right? If it all depended on him, if her mere existence rested solely on his shoulder, he has to try. He looked back up to find Isamu giving him the puppy eyes and sighed, "Fucking brat...fine. I'll do it". "Awesome!" Isamu grinned, tears of joy falling "Thank you d--.....Grimmjow. Thank you....before I send you back. No matter how bad things get, remember it's not a dream and whatever you do will affect the future so try not to change or do anything major and under no circumstances are you to tell anyone that you're from the future!". "Huh? But you told me" he deadpanned "What's the difference". "My existence depends on you saving her" Isamu said sadly "Not on whether my telling you I'm from the future..because that won't change anything unless you fail in your mission". "What happens if I fail? She just disappears?" He asked. "Well...she'll die as she did last week, that'll be the future you know" Isamu sighed "Her future was supposed to be bright and full of love, but if you fail. Her future will be as it is now, she'll be murdered and you'll still be stuck here...her killer gets away with her murder". "....this shits depressing, send me back already so I can get this over with" Grimmjow said as he stood up "Wait...how do you send me back?". "This necklace" Isamu explained as he stood up as well "It'll send you back and bring you back once the time is up". "Time?" Grimmjow repeated. Isamu grinned, saluting the man "You have until that necklace starts running out of juice before it sends you back to your rightful time period! Good luck!". "Wait how do I talk to h--" Grimmjow started but disappeared in the a quick blinding blue light. Isamu sighed, sitting back down "...please save her Grimmjow...".

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