#anyway this is aether taking things too seriously and getting ill about it

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

okay so. like. wan ed 12. dazai is stopped by a log in the river and starts actually drowning. funny haha wan bit.

but repeating something ive said (hi haven) i think this is actually a really good example for how ada dazai doesn't really want to kill himself. he could've actually drowned here. thats his 'goal' right? but the moment it starts happening he's trying to get his head back above water.

"I thought I was dead"

hilariously wet and horrified or not he obviously didn't want to die here. theres nobody around to hear what he said anymore anyway. and that's why, despite being yk... a wan ending animation? i still think this is such like. a case in point.

#i think its obvious from how unlikely to work his other attempts are in the ada #things like the oil drum or the mushrooms. asking woman to commit double suicide. all of that has such a low chance of working. its- #-humorous even. when he meets atsushi kunikida gets there shortly after. even if atsushi wasnt there he was DEFINITELY not planning on dying #anyway this is aether taking things too seriously and getting ill about it #im not saying ada dazai isnt still aiming to die we've all talked about the martyr behavior #but hes not really trying to die via suicide #anyway shout out to my bestest friend haven(-gum-rockrose) for sending me a song for the dazai playlist which made me ill and then prompted #me to find this clip later in the conversation #which then lead to me talking here #hurrah 🎉‼️ #longer post #theory time w/ aether #it's not actually i just want to find this later