#bc it's easier to believe that it's your fault when a parent won't show love towards you. you're in control of yourself. you're fixable

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a black and white animatic based on the owl house set to "Letter to an old poet" by Boygenius. End ID]

Not sure when/if I'll finish this (I have the rest planned out!) BUT I liked it too much to just sit on it forever!!! So take this messy work in progress. She's not perfect but she makes me Feel Things

(sorry about the lack of ID, I don't know how to write them for videos! If you have any suggestions/want to give it a go, feel free!)

#the owl house #toh #uhhh who's relevant to this? a lot of characters appear #luz noceda #hunter toh #emperor belos #philip wittebane #yeah they're kinda the centerpieces of it i think #most frames are pretty on the nose in terms of their relation to the lyrics i feel? not much to explain/ramble about here #i think a lot about everything Belos put Hunter and Luz through over the course of the series. about all the things he projected onto them #Luz is pitiable to him. she delusionally thinks she's the hero of this story when it's so obviously him (sarcasm ofc) #shes his brother she's him but most importantly she's a prop in his story that makes him look better. wiser. more devoted. more rational #and Hunter is his whipping boy. all the resentment towards caleb that festers in Belos' heart makes it's way into his relationship with him #his love for Hunter is so transparently conditional. and it takes so much pushing and abusing from belos for Hunter to see this #bc it's easier to believe that it's your fault when a parent won't show love towards you. you're in control of yourself. you're fixable #but for both luz and hunter they learn that there was nothing to be fixed (at least not in the ways they thought were needed) #and. i just #AUGH #this whole animatic is an excuse to get to the line ''i wanna be/happy I'm ready'' #that's what this whole goddamn show is about man!!! about finding joy and love again in the face of grief and i just. #i love it. it's dear to me #i really wanna finish this one day. for myself #okay i am going 2 go ignore everything around me and watch re4 remake livestreams