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#bc of money (i've never been able to afford it) nd even if i have a job someday nd can save up...
silenthillbunni
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#i dont know if i'll ever be able to travel
#bc of money (i've never been able to afford it) nd even if i have a job someday nd can save up...
#im not sure i'll have someone to go with. i can imagine going to like germany or norway on my own but not places further away
#also like my anxiety... idk if i'll be able to w that. im so scared of flights nd airports lol
#but ummm.. since i dont live in la la land im v aware that we are killing the earth at a rapid speed. thats real nd true
#idk if im gnna have time to get a job nd save up before everything comes crashes down
#i would love to at least travel to japan once! i rlly want that. also taiwan. vietnam. thailand. south korea...
#idk why it's those countries so close to eo but i just rlly want to visit those countries. also the philippines (1/2 l's lol?)
#ahhhh idk why im thinking abt traveling now when im busy being in pain
#maybe it's bc one book im reading a woman nd her mom is on a trip to japan. nd im watching vlogs skksks
#ughhh i hope i'll one day have the ability to at least travel once
#japan is my dream trip T-T
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silenthillbunni
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#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant
#nothing good ever happens to me. every aspect of my life is a mess. im constantly miserable w nothing to pull me out of it
#it's been getting worse nd worse for years nd if it keeps getting worse im not gnna be able to take it much longer
#ofc there are sooo many others who have it way way way worse than i do. so i feel weak nd pathetic for being so affected by it when i know
#it could be literally sm worse than it is now. like i get that. i know im not nearly as bad off as many ppl are
#but idk still it's rlly tough to have *nothing* that makes me keep going. the literal only thing is that i dont kms bc i dont wanna hurt mom
#bc im poor so i cant do ANYTHING. i cant go anywhere. not the cinema not concerts not to the mall not to the bookstore not an amusent park
#i cant even go to cafées bc i dont have any money at all to spend on that
#i have no friends to hang out w. even if i couldnt afford going anywhere i cant even just take a walk or sit nd talk to them bc there r none
#my sisters havent talked for me in over a year
#and like yada yada i dont have anything to pull me out of my misery bubble. no friends to comfort me no family to hang out w
#nothing to do or nowhere to go. hell i havent even been able to eat for 8 months so i cant even like eat smth yummy nd watch a movie lmao
#i cant even read bc of the constant noise! i cant go out into the forest bc there r always subway construction work or choppers or gun shots
#i know im 'focusing on the negative' but what am i supposed to do when theres nothing positive to focus on lol?????
#im always physically uncomfortable bc of pain nd health issues nd im always anxious nd stressed too so like... yay
#and. this is where i sound mean but like after years nd years of nothing good happening to me... idc for others anymore like
#when they talk abt their loving relationships and their kind friends nd them going to concerts im like.. wow !! u get to be happy!! i dont!!
#im just envious nd jealous nd bitter bc why cant i have ANYTHING good???? not just ONE fkn thing?
#other ppl get to have multiple things but i get nothing?????
#and its not exactly like i hate them or wish illwill on them im just like wow kinda dont feel sympathy for u bc u have sm things
#i've never had :))) nd u can never understand how awful it feels to be deprived of it so idc :))))
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silenthillbunni
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#journal dump bc i have too much on my mind
#1) i HATE my neighbors. theres never one quiet moment. they stomp around and slam cabinets all the time it feels like
#2) i've been reading more recently even if concentration's hard bc of noise. but i also feel like there r too many books i wanna read
#but yeah. too little time. so instead i cant settle on a book and kinda dont even read as much as i want to. a stupid problem really
#3) it's crazy to say but i wish i had a part time job. sitting at home 24/7 for 5/6 years has been SO terrible for me.
#everything feels meaningless. every day is the exact same. im not LIVING. im rotting away and all my issues get worse. im also so fkn bored
#and i dont wanna sit at home and do assignments (even if thats what i technically should be doing)
#i want a job to go to which takes me away from home + gives me money
#then i can come home and sit and rot and ENJOY it. bc now my lazy time is only smth negative and bad for me :/
#ofc i hate the mere thought of having some soul sucking utterly pointless job and our capitalist society is a slave hellhole. but.. as it is
#im not even able to enjoy ANY of my time bc all my time feels bad. plus im only getting poorer and poorer so i cant afford to buy anything
#4) im so fkn bored and going crazy from eating the exact same food every single day for the third month now. im sick of it
#everything tastes so bland and disgusting. it's genuinely making me depressed 😭 i wanna eat REAL food. im so tired bc no nutrition :((
#i cant do anything except wait for my appt w the doctor next week and hope they put me on a waiting list for surgery.. but ong im sick of it
#5) i miss my sisters :/ we live in the same apartment but its like i've completely ceased to exist to them
#except when they need to be passive aggressive to me. lol. i miss them. but they just dont wanna talk to me :/
#but tbh. most of all... i just want my health issue to be over so my body can function normally again.
#i can face anything in life if i can come home to a cup of coffee nd some chocolate ^-^ <333
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