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rodolfoparras · 15 days

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I do see Everett being the one everyone goes to because he just silently listens and nods along uninterrupted, he also loves listening, so Soap info dumping is probably his favorite.

Price bitching about some random soldier on base being an idiot for some odd reason or about a higher up and all of a sudden they've got this quiet little weird freak giving them the stink eye all the time

Definitely doesn't talk about the 141 during his little meets with Ghost and Roach, they're his besties and because he was actually entrusted with this info. The other people shouldn't have been talking to loud near him ✋😤

He has a few different masks he rotates through. A white balaclava with rabbit ears for on base (the boys definitely fidget with them all the time) and then a plain black one for missions, and then just a black medical one for when he's on leave. For colder missions, he has masks lined with rabbits fur to keep warm. He's got a buzz cut and gets a lil chilly

The rabbits feet are SUPER personalized depending on the person. The metal type, the designs in the metal, the type of rabbit itself. Everett spends a lot of time on them and wants them to have a lot of meaning

I joked with my bf about giving him an eye patch and him (play)fighting with Soap because of the constant pirate jokes, he probably does get a really cool prosthetic and a normal looking eye one for when he visits his family

I looked up quite a bit of stuff of disabilities a lot of veterans suffer with and wanted them to be well represented. Wanted the boys to be as accurate as possible.

Also Price snoring 😭 Soap is the only one who can share a bed with that man because he can't fucking hear nothing

(this isn't technically canon to the timeline with my oc in it but a fun thought I had when developing the story, the actual retirement story is way angstier) For polycule 141 retirement, I joked about them having a super big bed to bit like 6 ish people, but landed on them buying like an old school together (this is personal, I think it'd be so fun to live in an old school 😞) and fixing it up together.

They all get their own spaces, no fighting for the bathroom, more than enough space to cook and to have huge family dinners (holidays with family are spent here, AleRudy and FarahAlex are invited obviously, parking is never an issue, but the polycule do have assigned spots) I also think movie nights are fun because of school theaters. They do infact use the intercom system to talk to each other

At the high school I went to, there was like two massive fields, a track area, and tennis courts. So that + the weight rooms and gym, they have plenty of freedom and choice for exercise. And Everett has a dog (Soap's biggest opp)((and two cats)) so there's so much space for him

Security on this bitch goes crazzyyy. Ghost and Price are taking NO chances with their boys. (Especially Ghost because he is not losing another family) bitch is like fort knox, no one is touching these guys

I think you could make a really fun oc, it takes so long fleshing them out but I think you could do it ✋😤

#AlecOc2024

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He sounds like a great listener I’ll happily rant my heart out to him bc most of my days I just keep asking my sisters question and telling her random facts that she couldn’t care less about 😞

Everett seeing a higher up harass a new recruit and maybe using the things he knows about them to spread some rumors on base and make the higher up feel embarrassed 👀

Hello I love how you put so much thought behind his masks!! You know what would be neat if he could keep gadgets hidden in the bunny ears also the masks lined with rabbit furs sounds so neat!!

Everett being excited to tell them about the meanings of the rabbit feet and anyone who listens just looks at him endearingly 🧎🏻‍♂️

Soap being impressed with all the prosthetic eye especially those with intricate designs and begging Everett to wear them all the them

I love that you did your research!! Genuinely made the headcanons sound realistic! Especially prices, soaps and roaches!!

I love snoring price sm idc I’ll happily sleep next to him even if the makes the earth shake 🧎🏻‍♂️

Fixing up a school would be such a cool idea or just any old building and have them happily live together 🥹 also the assigned parking spots sounds so freaking cute like ghost marking his with a skull and sometimes they park on the wrong one bc they’re tired and fight like old married couples

Not soap having furr enemies 😭but I love that there are so many pets around

But also now that you mention security system I’m thinking of price coming home late and cursing out everything under the sun bc he’s too drunk or sleepy to rmr the passwords to one of the doors

#alec answers #🐧 anon

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dopaminergicaddictions · 2 months

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3/11/24

7:40 p.m updated

I guess I reported her to the wrong agency. I have to print out the form and print out the email and print out my report.

I'm going to change it to September 21st. Take out asshole face and Brianna's pussy tree and just describe it as an incidence. I have to figure out how to word it, to get my point across.

I realize the psych ward does not have cameras in the rooms. They may have heard me bc they have them in the common area. However I don't know if the person out in common area heard me or if the cameras picked it up.

As for asshole face it'll be in the incident report.

Unfortunately I'm going to have to name you Elise. I have to name current and past practitioners. The form is entirely different. I have no choice. I'm sure they'll contact you as well as everyone else I've seen on a long term basis.

Idk if you even read my tumblr or care about me. Either way it haunts me that I can't know you personally...

Also my youtube is dead. The hours went from 220 to 50 to 35 to 28..

Maybe I should stop posting and remove my content. I try to make good content and with 160 videos and millions of tags, you'd think I'd have a constant wave of people coming to my channel..

It's getting pathetic... maybe I should give up on my dreams. Also then I can make content without my glasses on if I do decide to stupidly try to follow my dreams.

I don't expect to be an anyone. To achieve anything. To have anything or even go on vacation in state to a campground before I die even if I make it to 60. I don't expect to have anything to look forward to. I don't expect to have anything change in a positive way. I don't expect to get married. I don't expect to have kids. I don't expect to accomplish anything. I don't even expect to have "stability" for more than a few years. I have nothing on Maslow hierarchy of needs generally speaking.

I expect to be a drain on society. And be an useless pathetic disabled couch potato, no one loves until I end my life. Which I mean tbh it's coming soon.

Everyday I go on the dating sites I see exactly how pointless it is. No one likes me..no one will have kids with me. At this point I truly want a single mother and to be a insta father figure... You'd think I could find some but there are better people out there despite me wanting to be a stay at home dad..

I don't even want my own children.. I got shit genetics.. I don't want my kids to be fucked like me. I just want a kid or two to love me and to have a wife

But instead I do nothing and have nothing. I get nothing and no one likes me for who I am. All I have is friends. They are all getting married. Having kids. Have multiple options for dating if they are single.. and all I got is psychosis and ocd. A dream to be someone and everything in my life pointing to overdosing as I try every single day and see absolutely nothing change.

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villanelledeservedbetter · 8 months

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gyns ive decided to pursue counselling for women's issues bc my TIF bf (im not going to disrespect his identity because of my political beliefs that he also shares -yes he can have gender dysphoria, transition and still be a radical feminist just like you can have body dysmorphia, get a BBL to feel worth something and still be a radical feminist) has a dissociative specialist therapist who is referring him to the UK DID specialist clinic so he can get a diagnosis of DID and guess what. most of his trauma is sex-based.

his therapist who has 23 yrs of expertise said id make a great therapist and that hes lucky to have someone like me who has knowledge about mental illness. she didn't patronise me about using psychiatric terminology, she was impressed and she specialises also in feminist therapy. she can't make a diagnosis but the centre she referred him to said shr believes he meets diagnostic criteria for DID.

i said itd be a pleasure to train under her at some point in the future and she told me "once ur bf has recovered u could train me!" with a half joking tone. she didnt patronise me she followed up the week after by telling my bf I should pursue therapy and this woman is a HUGE inspiration to me. a professional who acknowledges my layman's expertise - i helped get him the right help he needed. my bf is too complex for her so she waived her £120/session fee down to £70 down to NOTHING. she is helping him for free until she moves back to the US. it reminded me of that quote about feminism being an action, not a belief.

i am going to specialise in personality disorders,autism and trauma disorders in women. i am going to find answers about DID being a feminist issue. I am going to help young autistic girls be recognised by their teachers and influence safeguarding training for vulnerable young girls - his sibling wants to be a teacher for kids w learning disabilities too so it all works out great. the psychiatrists who don't believe in DID are likely male bc they cannot imagine the trauma a little girl can go through. i am going to treat the root cause of sexist death sentence diagnoses. I am going to help identify the signs of PTSD in autism and then compare those symptoms to autistic girls vs boys. i want to help develop an autism informed treatment of PTSD and see how PTSD and autism compare to BPD. I am going to controversially examine cluster b and c personality disorders as temperament based attachment/trauma disorders. im going to find out why women are 4x more likely than men to be diagnosed with bpd. im going to find out if bpd and cptsd are even different things. im going to find out the risk factors for developing a severe trauma disorder and i just KNOWN in my gut they are based on sex.

i can help work women who feel alienated from society through gender dysphoria. im going to help women where they have been ignored so many times before. im going to help women traumatised from the sex trade, im going to help women unpack their kinks as masochists, im going to find out the different comorbidities between traumatised women without developmental disorders and traumatised women with developmental disorders.

fuck it im going to make men angry at me questioning the shit they've written down to institutionalise disobedient or traumatised women and im going to wear it with pride. im gonna find answers for women.

i can do this!!! i have lived fucking experience of all of this!! its going to take years to become a specialist in three very complex areas but im going to do it for my boyfriend and every other little girl out there being intimidated by cowardly pedophiles into staying silent.

i have my own shit, my own female trauma i have to deal with first, but right now im giving my all into life. my boyfriend, once he has recovered or at least can manage his symptoms without me needing to be there for him to make sure he is safe, is gonna pursue medical school and go into psychiatry. he is going to listen. he is going to take his time to listen to womens pain, women too complex for psychiatry, figure out if there's medication to help reduce the pain, figure out what treatment they might need treat their trauma and i will be the therapist who will help them holistically instead of viewing then as symptoms to be treated.

i cant wait to decide my own workload, provide specialist support, and be there to tell women they aren't crazy. i cant wait to shatter their negative self-perception and help them grow into themselves. i cant wait to validate their experiences, treat them as equals, acknowledge their pain and be impressed when a client comes in suspecting a diagnosis and commend them on their research.

to the men who ruined our lives: fuck you. we will rise above the shit you instilled in us, the fear you have driven into vulnerable girls hearts, the permanent state of stress induced psychosis you have placed upon parts of women with DID. fuck you. you wont destroy us like you were hoping to. youve set us back but we will come forth like a blazing fire and protect each other. fuck you cowardly pedophiles. so pathetic that you need to threaten a vulnerable overly trusting child just to gain power over them. if i can help even a little bit, I will feel happy leaving this world knowing ive helped one woman heal even a little. I will feel happy causing controversy amomgst psychologists by angling it from a feminist perspective.

women are so fucking strong and they shouldn't have to be strong. they deserve to cry, they deserve to lash out, they deserve to be heartbroken over betrayal. i dont want women to be strong. they have been strong for too long and if I can make a tiny dent in that cognitive distortion that they have to be strong, my time on earth isnt wasted. i will have fulfilled my purpose.

i will keep you gyns updated on my progress. tomorrow I will start my level 2 in counselling. its like the world has meaning now. i am not powerless to help other women. i have helped young severely traumatised girls before regain their independence, and if there is one thing female socialisation has taught me it is how to be a good caregiver, how to be perceptive, how to provide holistic advice. if there is one thing I have learned from rebelling against patriarchy it is how to advocate for girls and women to get proper treatment using science-backed articles rather than leaving them as lost causes.

thank you to the incredible woman who has inspired me like this.thank you to my bf who is an incredibly strong survivor (and shouldn't have to be), and his twin for specialising in autism.

#ramble #medicine

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throne-of-no · 7 years

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i'm a writer of ya fantasy. i have a great agent, have had books go to editors, but all turned into a "no" and this latest round, i've begun to think it's bc of the diversity: i have POC, LGBTQ+, disability, #ownvoices, and mental health rep in my books. i'm trying to think of another WIP to focus on but just had to stop myself w/"i can't write that much diversity, it'll get rejected" and i want to vomit. this is what publishing is now bc of trash like books from HarlequinTeen. i feel sick.

Hello!

I’m so sorry to hear about your rejection. It is always a hard thing to deal with, but there is always a chance somewhere down the line an editor will sign you on! Especially as what everyone wants to read/what is selling is shifting ever slowly.

The publishing industry is a really crazy place and it's really hard to deal with the feeling of being rejected so many times. One of the big things that most editor working for a company is concerned about is how much the manuscript will pay off after it has been edited and is finally out in the world—how much they will profit for how much time they put into it type thing. These guys usually go by what is big currently in the book world by looking at places like the best seller list. This can be observed back when vampires and supernatural things were a big hit after Twilight. Every publisher and their brother company were pumping out every vampire love story they could. It was literally insane as someone who hates vampires to find that there were literally no good books that weren’t about vampires because publishers don’t publish things they expect won’t pay out more than what they put in.

Fast forward a few years and BAM dystopian books became a real hit along with first person present tense (which is a phenomenon that is still in YA books, sadly as someone who hates first person present tense it’s still hard to find good books.) An observer of this could see the shift from vampires that sparkled to post-apocalyptic stories about females having the save the day while crooning over two hot guys, being published by most of the same publishing companies who published the vampire novels along with the hand full of fantasy novels because that was also a hit.

Why is this? Well, mainly because manuscripts being sent in were put up against the leading genres at the time. Dystopian types books were far more likely to be published because editors and publishers themselves knew that they would make their money back quickly if they put enough effort into it (advertisement, book cover, stuff like that).

The publishing area is a business and because of this, they are looking to earn money by putting out things that they know beforehand will do very well because of what has been doing well. As a company, they have a right to refuse books if they feel that it won’t give them the money back that they would like. I do think that diversity is something that is lacking from the shelves and that publishers are almost afraid to publish books with them because they don’t believe they will receive how much they spent on publishing the book. Publishers have been and always will be in it for the money. Nothing more, nothing less.

There is hope of course. There had been a slight shift and now there has been inclusion starting to become a selling point that could start making editors start picking up books that include it! Even though it is very small at this point, it can always grow and I myself have seen if grow over the years! You must show these publishers that stories with diversity, inclusion, etc. are something that has a following and that a lot of people buy these books. Sooner or later, they will bite and you’ll find publishers looking for books that have all these things. It just takes time. Heck, they bit on that whole sparkly vampire thing. Eventually, they’ll figure it out.

As authors, we can’t expect to be picked up because we have diversity and that’s a free ticket into the business. We must ensure our book is believable as a story and we flow these different things into our story smoothly and well written to make publishers question why the hell they’re not picking us up. Don’t feel like it is just you or it is because of your diversity that you get rejected because SOO many people get rejected daily. Use the rejection as a time to go over your story once more to ensure it is polished as polished could be outside of having an editor looking it over. Make it better if you find something. Do another edit or run through if need be. Get feedback from fellow writers for input on how to make it better. In the meantime, show support for books already published with diversity, inclusion, etc. in hopes that the spectrum for what sells the best changes and you will be able to finally be picked up.

I truly hope you will get published one day! Thanks for the ask!

~Rin

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