#but adderall wasn't much better and neither was ritalin

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oooh the med switching. is making me want to chew on nails. it is Not Good.

#i dont know if its just the first few days being rough and I need to wait it out but strattera is making me like so. bitch mode. so angry #so irritable and exhausted #but adderall wasn't much better and neither was ritalin #and focalin made me feel worst of all #and ive been on wellbutrin and it Sucked the joy out of Everything #so. do I even have any other options that could work #I just want a brain that isn't like this #I want to function I want to make things I want to stop being absolutely useless #im so tired and so miserable just sitting staring into space like a brick with no brain #i feel so stupid and incapable and I have so many arts and stories and things I want to share and do. but the energy and the focus just. #it isn't there. it never is. I dont know how to exist like this #I just want to cry and be normal and feel better #I want to finish things I start I want to do the art I owe people I want to improve I want to grow #it feels like no matter how hard I struggle and flail and cry and fight it. I can't move #I can't get out of this frustrating little divet i've found myself in #im out of the pits of despair but now im in limbo. and sure its better sometimes. but is it really #its so. aaaaaaaaaaaggggggghhhhhh. agh. i dont want to be this way anymore. im going to bed im tired of this stupid fucking brain #delete later #vent