#but i really. wanted to post something bc. ITS BEEN SO LONGGGG

[jtrbluv]

tag game !

tagged by the lovely linh @latetaektalk ,, thank u soso much! this was so fun omg

tagging: @allurain @koushiningg @dreamystuffers @jinpanman @dulce-pjm @suhdays @pjmsdior @bangtans-peaceful-piegon @sugacouture

1. what fandoms have you written for (but do not currently)?

um i didn't rly write for any fandoms when i was younger, but i knew my 12yo self was probably conjuring harry potter headcanons in my head D:

2. what fandoms are you currently writing for?

for now, and for a long time, i've been writing for bts. i've like always been a multi from the moment i got into kpop but i've never actually fleshed out any of the wips i had for any other groups LMFAO. honorable mentions are got7, skz, haikyuu yup

3. how long have you been writing?

a longggg time, i think. i enjoyed writing fiction as a kid a lot. most of it would be like off-brand spy kids/harry potter/hunger games type beat stuff. and it was awful. but i was literally like 9 so cut me some slackLKSDFJSLKDjf

4. on which platforms do you post your stories?

primarily tumblr and i only recently made an ao3 acc. the only fic i have on there is a tae drabble that's already posted on here LOL. i think it's 'resolutely, yours.' but i don't even remember bye. i remember i drafted drivers license on there but i literally forgot to post it so it's probably gone HAHA.

5. what is your favourite genre to write?

e2l even though i have no e2l fics on this blog i think

6. are you a pantser or a planner?

i used to never plan my fics, like at all. but then i was so unsatisfied with the flow of things and like idk lack of clarity. drivers license was the first time i actually sat down and planned out an entire fic as i was writing it. it rly does make things easier when u have an idea of what u want. and then just having the idea can help you possibly expand on it and get even better ideas off of it. the events of drivers license and the order it was all written in changed like 20394803 times. but yeah, does that make sense... LMFAO

7. one shot or multi-chapter?

one shots because i can never fucking get myself to finish a series. i love reading them tho

8. what is the perfect chapter length in your opinion?

no clue. i love long stories and slow burn tho, it's just so satisfying and $wag when it's well-written and the characters are well-written too.

9. what is your longest published story? is it complete?

the fic i'm about to post is nearing 20k, and it might even surpass that which will end up being the longest story on this blog. insane! drivers license is around 10k i think, and then if u combine the wnrs couple's fics it's like 15k? im too lazy to look tbh SRy

10. which story did you enjoy working on the most?

oh drivers license for sure! i don't think i've ever immersed myself and put so much effort into a story before. it was truly an amazing experience, and i just know that i'll probably never be able to write anything like that fic ever again. it's rly one of a kind for me.

11. favourite request you've have written and why (if any?)

most of the requests i had on this blog got taken down bc they were so bad. i'm not sure if the yoongi superhero!au is still up on here, but i'd choose that one since i really had to branch out of my writing style for it. regardless of it being like barely 2k.

12. are there reoccurring themes in your stories?

miscommunication, so much banter, i used to see this a lot but i would take it out but... head bonking ??LSKDFJHAHA, my side characters being dumbasses and then my main characters being even bigger dumbasses (oc probably being the biggest dumbass)

13. current number of wips?

during the course of writing the current fic i plan on posting this week, i created like 5 wips and they all hit 5k, and then i straight up abandoned them. and then the endless idea bank google doc. so if i count the wips i for sure want to finish by like this year or summer... like 3 or 4.

14. three things you have noticed about your own writing?

i feel like i repeat stuff a lot throughout all my stories LOL,, it irks me so bad. i think i relate to all my ocs in at least one way or another.

15. a quote you like from a published story

alrighty this is a lil snippet from 'drivers license':

this is from the second letter oc wrote to jk:

"The same delusional daydreamer hopes that one day we can talk and laugh like old pals. Like nothing ever changed between us. I hope you achieve your dreams that you always thought seem too far-fetched, yet in the back of my mind I always knew you could easily grasp. I hope someday you can live a life of lesser worries and insecurities, because you rarely had any to start off with. I always hoped the world for you, because you deserve it. And despite everything, I still believe you do."

this paragraph seems pretty simple but i think it did the best job of like describing oc's emotions and realization of things,, its kinda cliche tew yas love that

16. a quote from an unpublished story

alr this is from the e2l jimin series that is going to take me forever to write bc the outline for it is SO LONG

“Would it kill you to at least show up with a shirt on?“ You sneer, patting your forehead with the back of your hand due to the sweltering sun. The event hasn’t even started yet and you can already feel your hair sticking to the back of your neck.

Crossing his arms, he scoffs, his biceps bulging out as his arms bend. Not like you were staring at them. “Sorry couldn’t hear you, too busy boosting the school’s morale.”

17. space for you to say something to your readers

i feel like i don't show enough appreciation to my readers and mutual on this blog. i have met so many lovely people and have gotten so much support, i hope u all know that it does NOT go unnoticed. i always tend to go back and reread all the comments and asks that i get on my stories bc it rly does make my heart soar. it makes my day!!! thank u all for sticking with me thru all my 3am shitposts and inconsistent writing schedule LOL,, you all have my whole heart and some more <3

#tag game

[jozstankovich]

ALL THE APPRENTICE ASKS 👀👀👀

OHH DANG this is a longggg one, and I think I’m gunna split it into two posts (also bc I still need to answer the last 13 questions lol)  Some of these I decided to write little drabbles for as answers bc i’m having funnnn.  ^^

1) Your apprentice was brought along to one of themasquerades with a friend, who promptly ditched them ten minutes into it. Whathappened? How do they react?

Joss watched their friend disappear into the crowd, she said she’d only be gone for one dance, but Joss seriously doubted that.  Their friend was, well, a bit of a flirt and was already flitting from one partner to the next.  Joss rolled their eyes and moved off toward the edge of the room to wait.  So many people swirling around them in their bright costumes and masks was making them dizzy.  

Finding a relatively secluded corner, Joss plopped down unceremoniously at an empty table, resting their chin in their hands to watch the dancers on the floor.  They sighed, wishing, just a little that they had someone special to dance with.  At the sound of a throat clearing at their elbow Joss turned to see a masked figure in black, red hair spilling over his mask holding a hand out to them.  “May I have this dance?”  Joss’s eyes widened and they stared at the man’s gloved hand in front of them.  “Come on, I don’t bite.”  He flashed a roguish grin at them from under his mask.

Joss blinked, turning red to the roots of their hair, but took the man’s outstretched hand and stood.  “Uh, sure why not,” they replied, grinning bemusedly as their partner lead them out to the dance floor.

2) Does your apprentice get flustered over anything? Whatmake them flustered? Do they turn red? Stumble over words?  

Answered here ^^

3) How would your apprentice handle being so close tosomething that they desperately want, only to have it ripped away? What was it?

I thought about this one a long time, and there aren’t a lot of tangible things that Joss would want desperately. It would be more along the lines of a piece of knowledge (like who murdered Lucio) or their missing memories.  How they would handle it would involve pushing themself even harder than before to acquire what it is they want.

4) Talk about your Apprentices’ self-esteem

It’s actually pretty high.  When Joss was a kid their self-esteem was at the other end of the spectrum, mostly because of their heterochromia and just how shy they were in general, but as they grew older they began to accept themself and embrace their quirks.  Now they don’t even really give their appearance a second thought.

5) What’s one physical flaw about themselves that they hate?Do they have a reason for hating it?

“Look Uncle Les, look what I learned how to do!”  

Joss came bursting into the room, radiating excitement.  Their uncle stood, wiping his hands on a dirty cloth, and gave his full attention to the child in front of him.  “Well, let’s see it then.”

Joss held their hands in front of both eyes and when the pulled them away they grinned from ear to ear.  “Look!  Its called a glamour,” they explained with excitement.

“What’s that mean?”  Their uncle asked, confused.

“A glamour is a spell that can change any aspect of your appearance.  I can’t change my whole face or anything yet, but look at my eyes, they’re both the same now!”

Their uncle peered down at their face and frowned.  The pride in their little voice was heartbreaking.  “I liked them better before,” he said gruffly.  “They make you special.”

Joss screwed up their face and let the glamour fade.  “Tell that to the other kids,” they mumbled glancing at the ground.

“Ah what do they know!”  Their grandfather called from around the door.  Joss’s uncle ruffled their hair affectionately.  “I know its hard when you’re different from everyone else, but believe me, one day you’ll appreciate those differences.”

6) Do they have a personality shift depending upon certainpeople? Who does it change for and how so?

Somewhat yes.  Usually Joss is really kind of wrapped up in their own thoughts; quiet, reserved, and I’m loathe to say meek, it’s more like non-confrontational.  However, around Julian not only do they feed off of his flirtatious energy, but it emboldens them; gives them a confidence boost.  Joss is definitely more likely to take charge and be more open and forward around him.  

7) Talk about your apprentices’ backstory. How did they endup with the shop? What’s their relationship (or lack thereof) with theirparents? Traumatic childhood maybe?

Joss never really knew their parents.  Their mother died during childbirth and their father fell ill and passed not long after, so they were raised by their paternal grandfather and uncle.  The three of them lived on a little farm just outside of the city.  Their grandfather, who everyone knew as ‘Old Man Flynn’, farmed the land and took care of a few animals; cows, chickens, and a horse.  Their uncle Leslie was a scholar and a chemyst and herbalist.  He taught Joss about the healing properties of certain herbs and plants and in so doing influenced the type of magick they would come to specialize in.  

The shop originally belonged to Uncle Les, where he would sell his medicines and potions.  When Joss’s grandfather passed away they moved into the shop and began to operate it as partners.  When he contracted the plague he passed the ownership down to Joss because he knew he wouldn’t last much longer and he wanted to make sure they’d be taken care of when he was gone.

8) How does your apprentice express affection? Outwardly?More subtle-like?

For the most part I would say subtle.  Joss would be the type to give little gifts out of the blue; flowers or little handmade trinkets.  If a friend was upset they’d give them lots of attention and try to distract them or make them laugh.  However, if it was someone that Joss was especially close with, like Asra or Julian they’d be more outwardly affectionate with lots of physical affirmations like hugs, playing with their hair, or holding hands.  With Julian they’re extra touchy feely; gentle caresses, shoulder rubs, lots of kisses (they love kissing all his freckles), holding him while he falls asleep, etc.

9) Does your apprentice have any special abilities that youheadcanon and cannot be accurately expressed in the actual game? What are they?

Joss stood at the bar, nursing their drink and wondering how much longer a break the rowdy patrons would let them have.  A plump middle-aged woman with a very red face called out over the crowd for them to hurry it up. Apparently not much longer at all.  Joss rolled their eyes and grinned into their mug as they raised one finger above their head in a one-more-minute signal.  The crowd whooped and cheered as they chugged down the rest of their ale before grabbing their bow and fiddle and returning to the floor.

The woman who’d hollered at them caught their arm to whisper a request in their ear.  Joss grinned and nodded to the woman, quickly re-tuning their instrument before jumping into the upbeat song. They’d played it once already that night, but the crowd was so drunk they didn’t seem to care; many of them singing along loudly.

Joss was beginning to feel a little tipsy as well, but no one noticed when a note or two was off and soon the entire room was dancing and singing.  As they played faster and faster, Joss felt a heady rush; their fingers dancing over the strings while the bow in their hand took on a life of its own.  They spun in a circle as they played, their feet moving swiftly in time with the tempo, and when the song ended with a quavering drawn out note the room burst into a cacophony of drunken cheers.  Joss only took half a moment to catch their breath before jumping up on the table to start their next song.

Julian shook his head, grinning fondly at them from across the room.  Their eyes met for a brief moment and Joss’s responding smile lit up their face, making his heart beat faster.  It never failed to amuse him that despite Joss’s modest temperament, get a few drinks in them and stick their fiddle in their hand and they became the center of attention without a second thought.  

10) What does their living space look like? Is the shopmessy or clean?

The shop is meticulously organized.  The living quarters upstairs, not so much.  It’s not dirty, just messy.  Joss tends to leave clothes out and about and books scattered around everywhere.  Also, they do hate doing the dishes on a molecular level.

11) Talk about how your apprentice deals with emotions. Boththe ones they like to feel, and what they don’t like to feel.

Joss is pretty private with their emotions, preferring to deal with the unpleasant ones alone.  Especially sadness.  Joss will do just about anything to keep from being seen crying.  Happier emotions are more noticeable.  They often will wear a smile they can’t get rid, have a little extra pep to their step, and tend to hum or sing under their breath.

12) What happens when your apprentice feels upset?

Joss prefers to lock themself away, or go out for long solitary walks to cool off.  That usually works, but if they’re still mad after that, they tend to say things they don’t mean and end up feeling guilty for it.  Joss’s temper doesn’t run hot, so it takes a while for them to snap, but when they do it can be explosive.

13) What’s your apprentice like when sad? Do they get reallydepressed? Have they ever hurt themselves out of sadness?

When sad, they prefer to be alone to cry it out, but Joss isn’t prone to depression, and has never harmed themself because of it.  However, if they do find themself sad for long periods of time they usually push themself to keep busy in an attempt to distract themself from the pain and work through it.

14) A small hand-mirror has been sold to your apprentice.When they look into it, it shows their greatest fear come to life – conscious orsubconscious. What is it and how does your apprentice react?  

Taking a different route home from the docks Joss passed a series of drab shop fronts off the beaten path.  Sunlight glinted off something in one of the windows, catching their eye and bringing them to a halt to take a closer look. Their curiosity piqued, Joss decided to enter the dim shop for a second.  Inside, bookshelves lined the walls, stocked with leather bound tomes of every size and age, and the glass encased counters held all sorts of nick knacks of questionable authenticity.  As Joss leaned over the glass to get a closer look a withered crone appeared from behind a faded curtain in the back.  “Ahhh see something that catches your interest?” she croaked, planting bony hands on hips.

“Uh, no,” Joss squeaked, straightening quickly.  The shopkeeper chuckled at their reaction.  “I know who you are, and I doubt you’ll find anything of much interest to you in there,” she murmured mysteriously.  Joss raised an eyebrow, but the woman didn’t elaborate.  Instead she beckoned for them to follow her as she slipped back behind the curtain.  Joss followed hesitantly, but the back room held a far different aura.  

“Now these, these are magicakal items more suited to a witch of your caliber.“  Joss opened their mouth to object, but the crone silenced them with an absent wave of her spotted hand before displaying several trinkets -  nazars, and totems by the look of them.  As she spoke Joss’s eyes wandered, stopping on an ornate, if tarnished silver hand mirror.  The shopkeeper followed their gaze, trailing off mid-sentence and swooping in to offer the mirror to Joss.  

“What does it do?” Joss asked, running their fingers over the etched surface.

“There are larger more powerful magic mirrors out there, but this one, alas, can only show one thing.”  The old woman paused for dramatic effect.  “This mirror shows you your deepest, darkest fear.”

Joss turned the mirror over, a strange compulsion gripping them, and stared into their reflection with wide eyes.  For a long moment nothing happened; only their two coloured eyes staring back at them.  Then the mirror’s surface began to darken and Joss found they couldn’t look away.  Images flashed before them, each one worse than the last, tearing at their heart.  An angry mob, a gallows under a cloud darkened sky, Nadia’s stoney face looking down from on high with a distraught Portia at her side, guards leading in a prisoner in shackles, Julian’s frightened face searching for them in the crowd as the hangman coils the rope around his neck.  Their eyes meet and his lips move, I’m sorry.  

Joss squeezed their eyes shut, shoving the mirror back at the crone with trembling hands before they could see any more.  They’d already seen how it would end too many times in their nightmares.  “I’m sorry, I- I have to go.”  Joss mumbled incoherently as they half ran for the door, feeling suddenly claustrophobic in the cramped, dark back room, their heart hammering in their chest.  The shopkeeper watched them go with an unreadable expression on her face as she absent-mindedly stroked the edge of the mirror with a gnarled finger.

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