#buuuuut im a ray s1mp

[yes-m-ray]

I love how Marisha categorically rejects the whole “What doesn’t kills you, makes you stronger” type of stories with her characters. I mean, she directly said that in talks, but is also nice to see how her work shows it.

For Keyleth, “What doesn’t kills you...” stays with you your whole life, in form of anxiety and self consciousness. Stays with you in form of mourning and the truth of watching you family go away in the thousand years+ that you’re going to live. You have to work through it, help those you can help, learn how your voice carries power, and learn what being a leader means. 

For Beau, “What doesn’t kills you...” Fucks you up beyond belief. Distorts your value as a person and how you approach your relationship with the world. Damages how you treat yourself. You’ll have to re-learn, with the help of friends and those painfully new formed relationships, how to heal, and how to let people in. You forge yourself a new and shinny found family and start working in the true meaning of yourself. 

For Laudna, “What doesn’t kills you...” well, it actually did kill you, but then it didn’t. It robbed you of years, it isolated you for decades. Your killer is now trapped inside your head, making you uneasy, haunted. But you wanted new friends and ways to help them, so in spite of all that, you go out, being unapologetically yourself, and offer that eagerness to the world. Facing some rejections sure, but not letting those bringing you down, you already went trough worse.    

Her works will NEVER say “I’m better because x happened to me”. 

Her works DO say loudly “I was dealt a bad thing, but in spite of that, i’ll do my best to move forward. Its going to be awkward, painful and hard. Its going to be messy and sometimes not only upwards. But i’m working through it with everything i have” and i love her for it. 

#critical role #cr meta #Keyleth #Beau #Laudna #Marisha Ray #cr1 #cr2 #cr3 #in a way the rest of the cast also has some of this in their characters #is not like an exclusive thing to her #buuuuut im a ray s1mp #so i just see this more easily with her