#can u believe that?? not focus on maki.....unbelievable of me.

[mamorigami]

thinking about utahimes forehead...

#ooc. #just kidding im thinking of her scar. how unique and interesting of me. #describing it as not a “cataclysmic” event but just something she ended up carrying with her work.... #it ruined me in a way it shouldnt #esp with how scars are viewed on women. whatever it was didnt have to be so permanent but it did and it cost her more than it should #even tho contrary to the scar she definitely won that fight. ik its obvious but it needs to be said! #oh to write an analysis on each of my jjk muses and their relation w/ the hierarchy of power and patriarchy #that is in the world...the traditions and how they digest them (or completely disregard them) #utahime seems contradictory. i can definitely see her be that positive influence for the girls she teaches. shes definitely not someone #to explain the shit way the world works and convinces the younger gen to just take it bc thats how its always been. #but also?? to wear the traditional miko attire??? its smthn thats dear to her. whether its thru personal means or for the sake of #upholding familial traditions. which. to carry something that has existed before u were ever imagined. before ur parents were. #that is smthn so strong and intimate so she holds specific traditions close (maybe her own family. not necessarily jjk society as a whole? #but then again i doubt her family is exempt from its prejudice..) #wtf was my main point. #she strives to better the next generation. but shes already stuck in this mold. her role was crafted for her and she is still #trying to break herself out. #those are my late night uta thoughts i might change this entire view later on but i wanted to focus on. um. not maki for two seconds.. #can u believe that?? not focus on maki.....unbelievable of me. #its a battle to keep the life of tradition alive and pick apart the mold that has spread over time #oh the experience of living in such a culturally vibrant style that the lines blur. what is what and who do i believe #HER TECHNIQUE BEING A RITUAL DANCE FUCKCFUCKCUFKC