#dying would be easier than waking up again to more of thisd thought orocess

[selfshippinglover]

🙃 ignore just another vent post so i can talk but not really 🙃

#vent #goddammmit i got through two depressive episodes in 3 days and it was hard but i did it! #so why am i having anither right fucking now? #i just wanna be left alone..... #*sigh* #it's just really hard to feel any better when the problem is something that you can't really do much to fix #and it would take yeares to fix anyways #i hate living under captalism #i hate knowing that i'm not poaid a living wage #i hatre knowing that i've only even got #a home cause it's low income so i have to stay within a certain bracket #i know i'm lucky to have it and even more so to have help with it #but like #until working class people are paid at bare minimum a living wage #we're all gonna suffer for it #and it just makes me wanna die sometimes #🙃🙃🙃🙃 #dying would be easier than waking up again to more of thisd thought orocess #for struggling for hours trying to calm down #it's just unfair #and i know thats just lkife and a very universal experiance fotr everyone #but it doesn't msake it feel any better or easier #it just means more people are suffering whgen they shiouldn't have to #:(( #and that makes me sad too #anyways gonna try and calm down i guess