#esp because my ex bff abandoned me like that and my current friend was with me through that

[kim-jongin-s]

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#my only associations with real life romantic relationships are that its 1) sth i cant have and 2) sth that takes away the ppl i have #im close with my sister but since she got into her relationship (thats about to turn into marriage this year) we barely spend time together #just the two of us #my ex bff who i thought was my platonic soulmate fucked me over bc of her boyfriend & asked me to move out bc she wants to live w him #my current closest friend knows my loneliness & abandonment issues and i support her relationship bc ive seen her go through such dark ti #-mes and i have been having stressful 3 weeks and all i want is human contact and to just meet up w someone and talk about sth thats not #work but she told me she wont have time #and all i wish for is to to be someones first choice and not get left alone all the time #yeah independence is cool and all but rn i just wish for some quality time for each other and i have no one to reach out to #im really sad and dont know what to do #i hate the preaching about how you need to enjoy your alone time and feel good by yourself because bruh i just need support #and some affection #i think i deserve better but i dont get why things never get better #this was a heartbreak moment #esp because my ex bff abandoned me like that and my current friend was with me through that #and when she got into her relationship she tried to calm down my anxiety and promised me she's not gonna leave me #and she has important plans this week i get it but why does life make it be like this where i still get abandoned

[multiple-nerdery]

All asks

1. Are looks important in a relationship? Done

2. Are relationships ever worth it? If I thought the answer was no, I wouldn’t be in one so...

3. Are you a virgin? Not since almost a year ago

4. Are you in a relationship? Yes and she’s perfect

5. Are you in love? See above

6. Are you single this year? I am not

7. Can you commit to one person? Can have and am

8. Describe your crush done

9. Describe your perfect mate Its my gf of course she’s perfect

10. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nah. You have to know someone to love them.

11. Do you ever want to get married? I could see it happening. I wouldnt mind if it didn’t. Its way too early inn my life to think about shit like that

12. Do you forgive betrayal? Done

13. Do you get jealous easily? Done

14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Guys I think I might hhave a crush on my gf

15. Do you have any piercings? I want some

16. Do you have any tattoos? I want some

17. Do you like kissing in public? Not if other people are doing it, but so much yes if i’m doing it

20. Do you shower every day? Who tf doesn’t

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Guys I think my gf might have a crush on me

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? My gf is asleep so mayybe she’s dreaming about me. (also my bff thinks about me she’s gay andcool)

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? I’ve done it before

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Doubt it. I won’t even be finished with grad school

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? I want to be in the one I’m in

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Ye

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? done

28. Have you ever been cheated on? not that I know of. Since I trust and care about my exes, I will believe they didn’t unless evidence happens

29. Have you ever cheated on someone? done. but it bears repeating. no. I could never

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Nah. It’s too expensive

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Yep

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Ye boi

33. Have you ever had sex with a man? No

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? well all of them are nbs. so... i guess also no?

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yep

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? yeah friendships are how crushes start for me. not my current best friend though

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? More like one asshole friend who tried to slander the relationship, seduce me out of it, and then when it ended for other reasons, almost immediately accused me of trying to sabotage thier relationship for just being friendly

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? I never expected to like anyone.

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? All the damn time

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Ye. I recorded a cover once too. I might do that again but would have to choose the song.

41. Have you had sex so far this year? This is the year in which I have had the most sex.

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? As long as the person I’m kissing wants

43. How long was your longest relationship? 2 years, 3 months, 29 days but it was on again off again a little bit

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 4, but #3 is the same person as #4

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? none

46. How many times did you have sex last year? In 2016? No more than like 7

47. How old are you? 18, 19 in 8 days

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I would cry

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? can I say everything she is so cute and perfect oh my god and her sense of humor is great i could just lay around all day watching youtube with her

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? far as I know, he has nothing to apologize for. I’d be impressed he made it from (Iowa?) to NYC tho. And i love presents i always accept them

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yep. She my gf

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? Ahngst person. I’m through putting up with their bullshit about abandoning people who care about them. They hurt multiple of my friends, irreparably. They avoided us when we happened to run into them in the coffee shop they work at but then turned around and started low-key stalking my bff. they don’t deserve any affection from me. I don’t hate them, but they can’t be part of my life healthily anymore. Maybe as friends, much further down the road, but they havve to put in the work for that because hell if I’m reaching out to them.

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Last time I dated her there was.

54. Is there someone you will never forget? most people

55. Share a relationship story. with the person I’m currently dating, before we were dating, wee were both up late at night talking, and she told me to go look at the stars which were pretty, and she was pretty high and so we went to go get food because she was also hungry and we got chicken nuggets and a pie, and then we laid in a field together and watched the stars

56. State 8 facts about your body I’ve got hands, those hands can type, I’ve got some hair, I have a nose, I have functioning (but not well) eyes, im tall, I’m p skinny because teenage metabolism and I like destroying my body recreationally.

57. Things you want to say to an ex #1: how is things in iowa ya nerd. #2: sorry for putting you through some shit, but I’m glad you value what you got out of it. #3: I love you more than anything thanks for asking me back out.

58. What are five ways to win your heart? gotta be cute, then be really nice to me, then hold me in your arms, thentalk with me for hours on end and finally share memes with me

59. What do you look like? Haha nope

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 1 year 2 months 4 days

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? whether they are a human or a lizard

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? real talk, I’d kind of like someone (who i love and care about) to get on top of me, tie my hands up above my head, slap me a little and call me names. maybe have me wear a collar too. while i struggle to try and touch her. (OR, you know, a loving and caring relationship, the sexiest thing of all)

63. What is your definition of “having sex”? most sexual contact counts

64. What is your definition of cheating? having a romantic or sexual interaction with someone who is not your partner, that your partner either doesn’t know about or doesn’t condone. flirtinng can count

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? passionate, rolling around the bed/floor makeouts, neck biting, hickey receiving (and to a lesser extent, giving). teasing. lots of teasing.

66. What is your favourite roleplay? Never done any of those. I don’t think that’s really my thing. (My least favorite is daddy/daughter play)

67. What is your idea of the perfect date? spending any time with my GF whatsoever

68. What is your sexual orientation? asexual, but i’m really sex positive. like. sex is nice but i’m not attracted to anyone

69. What turns you off? trypophobia images. bumpinig heads into places they shouldn’t go. condom breaking. parents coming home thats a big one.

70. What turns you on? being bitten, being pushed down, being challenged in a sexual context, driving esp at night, the idea of doing things in someone elses bed (as long as its clean and they don’t find out), holding hands

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? I haven’t had a wet dream in a long time, and the last time i did, it was about fucking a chair so.... eh

72. What words do you like to hear during sex? any variant of “oh that feels so good oh my god mmm yes right there don’t stop fuck me harder” and various pleasure moans

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? love and cherish me forever.

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? does she have a face i could stare at all day and not get bored of it?

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? romantically, making out in the backseat of a moving car. platonically, driving the car so me and the other person could make out in the backseat even though we were supposed to go home. There’s more i’m sure but I can’t think of them

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? dunno.

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? some age differences are okay. some are not. For instance, I’m gonna be 19 next sunday (not tomorrow) and my GF is 17, 18 in october. That’s an okay age gap. 16-20 is not. It has to do more with experience than age, though, since a 16 year old is a child in high school, and a 20 year old is a grown adult in college

78. What’s your dirtiest secret? who I lost my virginity to

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? my gf commented positively on the photo of one of her past crushes. recently. I was worry but I trust her and I know she loves me

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? last night

81. Who are five people you find attractive? my gf, my girlfriend, my significant other, my partner and the girl that I love (they’re all the same person)

82. Who is the last person you hugged? shit its been a while i don’t even know

83. Who was your first kiss with? my first bf

84. Why did your last relationship fail? she wasn’t in the right place to be dating at the time. but she is now, and I love her more than anything

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? iunno

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