#faking it and gaslighting myself into being in a good/energetic mood as it were

[xiaomao-ai-wo]

11/27 looked up winter flowers and got helleborus so here he be.

#november coffee art #helleborus #winter flowers #kinda have a lot of chores to do this week and kinda sorta really trying to set my self up for success #faking it and gaslighting myself into being in a good/energetic mood as it were #happy Monday loves

[libbee]

Identifying personalities using astrology and psychology.

If you have been on my blog since I started writing (Jan 2022), you have noticed my evolution from a total mess to somewhat manageable. My life was dominated by 8th house theme. Everything was crashing to the ground. I was emotional, intense, hysterical, confused, chaotic, irrational and damsel in distress. In terms of astro, I am Scorpio rising with moon and venus in 8th house. This gives you an idea as to my inclination in occult, spirituality and the life theme I carried.

The major thing I noticed was that I seemed to bump into people who were either toxic or showed their toxic side to me. I would face slot of weird emotional reaction from people that left me confused. I lacked self concept so it was hard for me to identify whom to befriend, who's a good person, who's taking advantage of me, etc. I was also people pleaser, clingy, dependent.

In my imagination, i was obsessed with becoming popular, well liked, loved by all, getting unconditional love, validation, attention, approval from people around me. Since my personal self image was very bad, I also attracted people in my life who behaved with me the way I thought about myself.

After reading astro and psychology, I started noticing patterns amongst people. So many people are really red flags but if you're unaware you'll fall for their persona which is actually a facade. Narcissists are heaven for a people pleaser because they both fulfill each other's insecurities.

After I became aware of my shadow, through trial and error, I started picking up behaviours, thoughts and styles in people I interacted with. So many times I was fooled by exaggeration, crocodile tears, lies, fake promises, fake self confidence. So many people love to be the center of attention, love the cry the hardest, love to spout wisdom not because they actually believe in that but because they want to dominate, belittle the others and control the situation in their favour. So many people knowingly hurt others, harm others, abuse others but dont care because they consider the victim weak and frail. It is a sad world. Man eat man world.

I started to label what is a lie, manipulation, gaslighting, silent treatment, domination, fakeness. For eg, the songs we hear and the movies we see are full of narcissistic fantasy. We want to be special, loved, hero, admired, perfect and our unconscious is manifested in the TV movies songs. I guess this is one of the reasons why songs are so addictive because they stimulate your core desires and emotions. They are also highly energetic and control your mood, feelings and life.

I also learned mindful living, grey rock method, boundaries, setting goals for myself, rational thinking, saying NO, not victimizing myself, being peaceful and dream free. Hopefully, I attract people with similar energy in my life now. And also avoid people who hit my red flag radar.

#astrology observations #astro observations #astrology #astro community #shadow self #astroblr #occult #8th house #scorpio woman #moon