#funnily enough one of my allo friends has shown me the most understanding out of anyone

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i have to try so hard not to get upset when i have conversations with my family about love and sexuality because i know they will never understand anything outside of amatonormativity but fuck it hurts

being told that i will never have a best friend who will want to be with me forever because 'everyone will eventually leave because everyone wants to fall in love and build a family' just gets to me even though i know there are people who want that but it's just so hard to remember when no one in my life does

#are qprs really that hard to grasp?? #there's also the thing where #i am the only aroace person i know who wants a life partner #so it's hard to remember there are people like me when ive never met anyone who feels the same #funnily enough one of my allo friends has shown me the most understanding out of anyone #don't even get me started on aesthetic attraction #the way i can't go nuts about beautiful women because people irl will assume i want to date them #no sir she is art #how do i explain that pretty people are the same as a cute animal or a flower to me #i cant because THEY WON'T LISTEN #im sorry im ranting im just deeply passionate about this #years of pretending my aesthetic attraction was romantic/sexual has driven me to madness #aroace #aromantic #asexual