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EMP Writing thots
It’s weird cus I’ve published 4 whole chapters of fics. And each time, I’ve written the writers notes before the actual fic. Idk yo, I like writing about writing more than I like writing.
Anywayys, here are some more thots on my Sevika x Reader fic, Fix Her Up
- NO straight person could have written something this depraved. Writing this fic taught me that, as well as showing me how much I love a good lil bit o’ power play. Power dynamics especially between two characters in bed is such an interesting thing to explore.
- This chapter actually includes the scene that first inspired this fic. This fic helped me discover somethings about myself which is nice. Imma keep writing and learning more about myself.
- This took me so long to write. Because 1) I’m still a beginner when it comes to fic writing, 2) I fear rejection, and 3) writing the smut flusters THE SHITE outta me.
- This took me no time to plan it out and I wrote most of it like a year ago, and was in the editing process and almost ready to post it. But I stopped and got cold feet cus I was afraid this wouldn't be as good as the first chapter that I was so proud of. So I avoided it for a long time, only working on it in lil stressed spurts at 3am. Which is why this took me over a year to even come close to completion. A few months ago, I said “fuckit, we ball.” Whatever I write was gonna be good enough, and if it was shitty, I was just gonna lie down and cringe in my bed like that one Spongebob episode where Squidward said “fuutuure! fuuuture!” repeatedly. I NEED to get this story off my conscience, out of my head and into the world so we could all get some closure. Also cus I think it’s a good chapter, I crave love and attention and my hubris knows no bounds.
- Anyways, if you were thinking about this fic, or were happy to see it update, or were one of those people leaving me kudos, thank you so much, seeing those kudos thru the year was nice and helped push me to get this published
- I held this so close to my heart for so long and now I’m finally ready to share this with ya.
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Hi, I saw the 'feel free to ask me about paganism' and I have a few I've been holding on to. When did you get introduced to paganism? Has your opinion on it changed since then or has it always been the same? How do you tell if your a witch? Is it something everyone can do or only certain people?
Hello! Thank you for giving me an excuse to ramble about The Witchy Stuff. :) I was introduced to paganism via Scott Cunningham's Wicca for the Solitary Practitioner (or something like that...I don't recall the exact title) which a friend loaned to me my freshman year of high school. She just wanted to use some of the correspondences in there to curse our classmates, but I read the whole thing - devoured it, more like - and something clicked into place for me. The idea of a religious view where there was no concept of sin, where I didn't feel like I was being told that I was inherently broken and in need of "saving" and "redemption", and moreover a view where if *I* felt I needed saving, I had the permission and the tools to save my own goddamn self, was revelatory to me. So I was Neo-Wiccan for awhile, which is probably why my magic still tends to follow their 4-elements framework often, especially for casual off-the-cuff spells where I'm doing things on the fly, I still have the habit of thinking in terms of elemental energy. I was...borderline Dianic in terms of how much attention I devoted to the goddess vs the god, since I was still...call it soul-bruised from the strictness and spiritual oppressiveness I found in Christianity and wanted nothing to do with any male concept of the divine. But I stopped identifying as Wiccan pretty much as soon as I realized that was an option, lol. I'd been Wiccan because I had never been exposed to anything else, and once I realized pagan didn't have to mean Wiccan, I was out of there. I've had relationships with a few different deities since, and am, loosely defined, more or less a luciferian witch at this point. My general spiritual views have also shifted. I used to ascribe to the "all gods are facets of The Divine" type of view, for example, which is one of my cringier former beliefs. (I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to all the hard polytheists I so blithely and naively insulted and probably annoyed the fuck out of back in those days.) Now...I do believe in a, call it an energetic matrix of sorts that connects all beings, which includes gods and spirits and humans and everything else, but I no longer ascribe a sentience to that energy, nor do I see that as evidence that all deities are but facets of each other. Re the other two questions, since my answer is virtually the same: you're a witch if you choose to be. That's it. That's all there is. That's how you know you're a witch, because you do witchcraft and call yourself a witch. If you do some kind of energy manipulation practices, and you like the title "witch", then there you go. And thus by definition, anyone can be a witch. Especially since I strongly divorce the terms "pagan" and "witch" - pagan is a religious designation. Witch refers to a set of practices and behaviors (a vast and varied set). Many people are both pagan and witch - I fall into that category myself. But there are many witches who are not pagan, and there are pagans who don't practice witchcraft. You can be either, both, or neither, whatever suits you - and you're never locked in to either identity! Hope this helps. Thanks again!
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We Are All Going to Die.
We are all going to die. God thats the cringiest thing you’ve ever heard right? Even cringier than what I’m writing I guess.
I’d like to share with you something my friend once told me:
“The Sun that you know, the brightest thing in the sky, is no more special than any other star in the sky. Even during the day, there are thousands of stars in the sky. You’d be able to see them, too, except that our star, the Sun, is so close to us that its brightness makes all the other stars invisible, except at night.
These stars, each and every one of them, live much, much longer than anything on Earth has ever lived. While some plants and animals can live for thousands of years, the stars all live, burning brightly, for millions, billions, or even trillions of years.
That’s a very, very long time! But it isn’t forever, and believe it or not, we’re lucky that it isn’t forever.
Because if the stars never died, if they never exploded, and if they never blew up, we wouldn’t be here, talking to each other, right now. And I’m so glad that we are, because you get to learn one of the most amazing secrets about life, and I get to teach it to you.”
My name is #T18. No, I am not a robot. You know in Uni when you’re incredibly skint and haven’t got a bean to your name? I guess that’s where my story begins but god, this sounds like bullshit I should quit while I’m ahead. No, I need to finish this.
You know in science when you learn literally everything is going to die and everything is meaningless? but god that could never happen to you! I was legit exactly the same. I had a real name at one point, it was so long ago my memories are a blur. How long ago I bet you’re wondering? Well I’ll give you a hint: From my window I see a wasteland. Everything is burnt and rotting and overshadowed by a giant red circle not far from Earth.
I have this memory from when I was younger and these white clouds fell from the sky.. Its a bit of a haze.
So let me tell you a bit about my world. Everyone’s lost track of the decade. The Privileged or “Humans” lurk under the earths surface in a high tech cooling bunker. Thats where the important people are anyway, the less valuable humans died out decades ago, I still hear the screaming.
So a bit about myself because you’re probably all incredibly confused, is there anyone even reading this? No there has to be. Continue. I can’t remember my name, No I am not a human. I’m not a robot either. I am dying. I’m part of the Service, which means I used to be human I just wasnt valuable. I simply woke up one day in an overcrowded hospital. I remember looking at myself for the first time I couldn’t believe it. I have long fire red hair and dark skin, my eyes haven’t been pigmented so they’re red and the majority of my skin is scaled which best guards me against the suns blasts.
I used to feel invincible but now, the plants are dead and our oxygen supply is dead. Today’s Service (the ones that survived The Heat) all have limited oxygen supply, whatever the Privileged can spare I guess. we carry our oxygen packs on our backs which are heavier than you think, we have these little tubes that have lasted decades which attaches the oxygen to our noses.
So what do I do? Well the service have all sorts of jobs. we could literally die at any time. You’d think that terrifies us but we’ve been surviving for so long I couldn’t possibly know what living is. I work in deliveries, I go from the land greenhouses to the bunks to deliver food to the privileged, its tedious but its what I’ve always done. My journey takes about 21 hours there and back which allows me to go back to the bunkhouse for the night and change my oxygen tank.
I guess thats my entry for tonight, how do I turn you off? SHIT WRONG BUTTON oh there it i--
AU: Ok so I really never do this and I know it need a lot of work! I’d appreciate all criticism and/or ideas ?
#Ok so I never do fanfics#and this is super sciency#which I am definitely not#but I was watching Wall.e and got an idea
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Guys Reveal The Most Cringeworthy Things They’ve Ever Done For Girls They Like
Warning, this is about to get really, really, really cheesy, but bare with me for a second. I love my boyfriend a lot, and before I loved him a lot, I liked him a lot. Why did I always have such strong feelings for him, you ask? Well, for the most part, it was because of his actions. I had my fair share of guys who would say lots of things, but what made my boyfriend different was that he actually did those awesome things for me. To me, the things guys do for girls they like can be the difference between leading a girl on and actually having feelings for her.
That all being said, I’m speaking from the point of view of someone who actually liked the guy back. When a guy goes out of his way to do something romantic and the feelings aren’t returned, things take a turn from cute into a more cringeworthy area. A recent Reddit thread asked guys to think back to the most cringeworthy things they’ve done to get a girl, and, oh, man, they are PAINFUL.
Read along and hang tight, people. Things are about to get cringe-y.
He made her multiple websites.
Probably the cringiest is making a series of super sappy single page html websites for a girl I liked. The websites were really badly designed, similar to what you'd find from the 90's only using modern practices.
– /u/Truly_Loveless
He legit wrote her a song.
Wrote a song.
It was an instrumental but even still…
– /u/NobodyTouchesTheHat
Stocksy/Emmanuel Hidalgo
He made her a mix CD.
Made a mix cd.
– /u/FordBeeblebrox
He read Twilight because he knew it was her favorite.
Read Twilight because I knew that was her favorite book series at the time.
In my defense I only got as far as page 8. We became friends but my affection was unrequited. A shame but finally asking her out was a tremendous relief. She was quite attractive. Still is. Being attracted to the artsy creative types is suffering.
– /u/yvaN_ehT_nioJ
He told her he liked her and then nervously ran away.
Telling a girl "I LIKE YOU" in the most nervous way possible and running away, in high school. Her friends laughed at me for a long time. Nowadays I think back, That was fucking cringy, but I really don't give a fuck. I laugh every time I think about it.
– /u/MenOfGondor
He wrote an essay (complete with a bibliography) about why she should go to prom with him.
I wrote a persuasive essay about why she should go to prom with me. It was two pages and had a bibliography. Yeah fuck.
– /u/IamWalrus222
He kept buying her gifts, even after she rejected him.
Buying her random gifts and stuff months after she had already rejected me, in hopes that I could win her over. That wasn't a great time for me.
– /u/greg225
Evgenij Yulkin/Stocksy
He sent her flowers with a note that said, “You are the one.”
Sent a girl flowers in high school with a note that said "you are the one" because she had told me that she loved the movie The Doors and that's what Jim told Pamela when they met.
No response and next time I saw her I heard her say "oh god that's flower guy" and basically ran away.
– /u/atticusfinch1973
He used to write poetry and leave it on girls’ desks in high school.
I used to write them poetry and leave in on their desks before certain classes in high school.
– /u/bwv131
He plunged the toilet after she clogged it.
Plunging the toilet after she clogs it. I'm married so this is basically the same as getting flowers for a girl after the honeymoon phase is over.
– /u/thegriz3
He wrote her half a poem on AIM and told her she had to hang with him if she wanted the rest.
Ooof. This girl was giving me excuses why she couldn’t hang out with me and I wasn’t getting the hint. I wrote her a poem and only sent her half of it (on AIM). I said to read the other half, she would have to meet me in person.
That was fucking sad, but in my defense I was 17.
– /u/Mustang80
Jovo Jovanovic/Stocksy
He gave her advice about a guy she liked.
Giving dating advice to a girl I liked about the guy she liked. Lol, this was back in my teens, I'm sure I've done way cringier things. Just can't remember
– /u/rokindit
He became a vegetarian for over a year.
I was vegetarian for 18 months, because of a girl who was really into the cause of “ending animal suffering”. Of course I didn’t give a fuck about animal suffering and loved meat, just wanted to impress her…
It wasn’t all that bad. To this day whenever I think “I don’t have enough strong will to do that” I remind myself “You were vegetarian and didn’t even get laid for it, your will is rock solid.”
– /u/Fernis_
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Guys Reveal The Most Cringeworthy Things They’ve Ever Done For Girls They Like
Warning, this is about to get really, really, really cheesy, but bare with me for a second. I love my boyfriend a lot, and before I loved him a lot, I liked him a lot. Why did I always have such strong feelings for him, you ask? Well, for the most part, it was because of his actions. I had my fair share of guys who would say lots of things, but what made my boyfriend different was that he actually did those awesome things for me. To me, the things guys do for girls they like can be the difference between leading a girl on and actually having feelings for her.
That all being said, I’m speaking from the point of view of someone who actually liked the guy back. When a guy goes out of his way to do something romantic and the feelings aren’t returned, things take a turn from cute into a more cringeworthy area. A recent Reddit thread asked guys to think back to the most cringeworthy things they’ve done to get a girl, and, oh, man, they are PAINFUL.
Read along and hang tight, people. Things are about to get cringe-y.
He made her multiple websites.
Probably the cringiest is making a series of super sappy single page html websites for a girl I liked. The websites were really badly designed, similar to what you'd find from the 90's only using modern practices.
– /u/Truly_Loveless
He legit wrote her a song.
Wrote a song.
It was an instrumental but even still…
– /u/NobodyTouchesTheHat
Stocksy/Emmanuel Hidalgo
He made her a mix CD.
Made a mix cd.
– /u/FordBeeblebrox
He read Twilight because he knew it was her favorite.
Read Twilight because I knew that was her favorite book series at the time.
In my defense I only got as far as page 8. We became friends but my affection was unrequited. A shame but finally asking her out was a tremendous relief. She was quite attractive. Still is. Being attracted to the artsy creative types is suffering.
– /u/yvaN_ehT_nioJ
He told her he liked her and then nervously ran away.
Telling a girl "I LIKE YOU" in the most nervous way possible and running away, in high school. Her friends laughed at me for a long time. Nowadays I think back, That was fucking cringy, but I really don't give a fuck. I laugh every time I think about it.
– /u/MenOfGondor
He wrote an essay (complete with a bibliography) about why she should go to prom with him.
I wrote a persuasive essay about why she should go to prom with me. It was two pages and had a bibliography. Yeah fuck.
– /u/IamWalrus222
He kept buying her gifts, even after she rejected him.
Buying her random gifts and stuff months after she had already rejected me, in hopes that I could win her over. That wasn't a great time for me.
– /u/greg225
Evgenij Yulkin/Stocksy
He sent her flowers with a note that said, “You are the one.”
Sent a girl flowers in high school with a note that said "you are the one" because she had told me that she loved the movie The Doors and that's what Jim told Pamela when they met.
No response and next time I saw her I heard her say "oh god that's flower guy" and basically ran away.
– /u/atticusfinch1973
He used to write poetry and leave it on girls’ desks in high school.
I used to write them poetry and leave in on their desks before certain classes in high school.
– /u/bwv131
He plunged the toilet after she clogged it.
Plunging the toilet after she clogs it. I'm married so this is basically the same as getting flowers for a girl after the honeymoon phase is over.
– /u/thegriz3
He wrote her half a poem on AIM and told her she had to hang with him if she wanted the rest.
Ooof. This girl was giving me excuses why she couldn’t hang out with me and I wasn’t getting the hint. I wrote her a poem and only sent her half of it (on AIM). I said to read the other half, she would have to meet me in person.
That was fucking sad, but in my defense I was 17.
– /u/Mustang80
Jovo Jovanovic/Stocksy
He gave her advice about a guy she liked.
Giving dating advice to a girl I liked about the guy she liked. Lol, this was back in my teens, I'm sure I've done way cringier things. Just can't remember
– /u/rokindit
He became a vegetarian for over a year.
I was vegetarian for 18 months, because of a girl who was really into the cause of “ending animal suffering”. Of course I didn’t give a fuck about animal suffering and loved meat, just wanted to impress her…
It wasn’t all that bad. To this day whenever I think “I don’t have enough strong will to do that” I remind myself “You were vegetarian and didn’t even get laid for it, your will is rock solid.”
– /u/Fernis_
What cringeworthy things have you done for a girl you like? Comment below!
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