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#god this is such a pity party lmao. pathetic ass. whats wrong with you alphie why are you like this
alphiebetsoup
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4 years
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still on the floor lads
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#did not think it would turn into one of those nights but idk what i expected ive been goin thru it
#it feels too weird and too much like begging for attention to outright ask but. i genuinely dont understand what people see in me
#like why they like me or why they want me around im not special or anything. im not particularly good at anything
#or really outstanding as like. a person. im just sort of Here i guess
#i dont even really mean it in a self deprecating way im just. it confuses me. like of all people why me
#i just am absolutely fucking stumped whenever i try and come up with any good qualities about myself or why i would be worth keeping around
#and like i said i hate hate HATE asking people about it it makes me feel shitty. even talking about it like this feels wrong
#i just. need to get it out of my head
#and even when people HAVE told me things they like about me im just like..... ????
#because i cannot believe what theyre saying i cant see those qualities in myself
#idk. idk. it makes me feel shitty and it makes me feel like im just tricking peoplw into keeping me around
#maybe ive just spent too much of my life on people who fucking hated me lmao
#*to the tune of the maybelline jingle* maybe hes born with it. maybe hes traumatized
#it just scares me. people always seem to realize im not all that and leave eventually
#so im always just waiting for that other shoe to drop
#and THAT makes me feel bad too because i know i have friends who are better than that i just. cant shake that fear
#i just. dont feel like im worth the amount of trouble it is to care about me
#god this is such a pity party lmao. pathetic ass. whats wrong with you alphie why are you like this
#i need to sleep
#vent
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