#had such a bad headache all day still cant tell if it was overstim or the meds or the usual headache

[ars0nism]

actually the worst overstimulation moments are when ur overstimulated from people you love. like i have two chaotic stepsiblings & theyre young and one of them has hyperactive adhd and i love them !! i love them a lot !! theyre adorable & sweet and one of them gave me a bracelet with my name (chosen name!!) on it and the other one i can bounce sonic facts off of bc its one of my special interests and its his hyperfixation but being around them for too long makes me itchy! i want to hang out with them i want to be like my sister and be there for them but every second spent with them is so horribly draining & i think thats the worst overstimulation. fuck theme parks, fuck class, the worst overstimulation is from your favorite little kids

#im just so tired throughout the day and get energy back when they go to bed bc the overstim finally ends #ugh #its easier when my sister's there bc then their attention can go to her #but shes not here this time! #anyways #this isnt their fault. i want to make that incredibly clear #i KNOW how difficult it is to manage a mental disorder and i dont blame either of them for how they act #its judt that my 'cant have any loud people around me or i die' autism and their 'cant shut the fuck up ever' adhd. clash #anyway ive convinced the one with the sonic hyperfixation that sonic is in fact a homosexual so im doing a good job #i had to explain my depression this morning actually #bc i took my meds n they were like 'but whyy' #i do hope that antideppressants are gonns make it a little easier bc of the less pressure from my depression & anxiety #but ill never truly be capable of handling this kinda stuff for too long #and thats okay #had such a bad headache all day still cant tell if it was overstim or the meds or the usual headache