#hakdhskdhsksjs GOD not unrelated but like. saw him just now of course and etc etc conversation for .2 seconds and like

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im getting cosmic punishment but i didnt even get to commit a crime :(

#misc #haksjaksk this is about this one guy who lives on my floor who i think is cool #but he always sees me when i dont wanna be seen #either im lookin like fresh garbage. you know the 'oh no one will see me' outfit. or im idk takin out my trash or smth #and i mean hes always nice n says he likes my outfits so naturally id kill for him but like. king #i swear im not this greasy all the time youre just doomed #hakdhskdhsksjs GOD not unrelated but like. saw him just now of course and etc etc conversation for .2 seconds and like #he just kinda casually like. touched my shoulder idk like ya do but the thing about that is that ive been living alone for the past 9 montha #with a break in the middle between semesters where i saw my friends like twice #so i uh. just not acclimated to like. physical contact???? so my brain paused activity for a moment like. long enough for him to apologize #cause he thought i was mad about it like NO KING im just not used to it and the clown in my skull couldnt decide what to do #when i say it.. . it sounds bad. but its not THAT bad i swear i just wasnt expecting it and got jumpscared by my own neurotransmitters #and before u say it NO im not crushing on the guy i barely know him i think hes generally a cool dude its unrelated to the short circut #im digging myself a hole here and the more i try to explain myself the worse its gonna sound. girl help