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banjomelodies · 6 months

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Spoilers (since I recently rewatched Scaras videos and saw comments about the Nameless Child) (+unintentional Ei rant)

I remember seeing a lot of people question Scaramouches whole thing about holding a grudge on a dying child, but, honestly, as an immortal being that was still learning for the most part at the time, I think it makes sense. He mentions in his character stories that he wasn't aware a human could deteriorate and pass on in a single night. To him, he believed he had so much more time. They had made promises, he cared for that child, showed him the home that once imprisoned him. And if you really think about it.. he didn't really witness death like this until now. He never saw Niwas body, and I don't know if he ever actually saw the bodies of the various workers in Tatarasuna when they finally passed away, as he also mentions that he didn't expect to be flooded with a negative emotion upon witnessing death (though granted, his relationship with the Nameless Child would obviously be drastically different than the random acquaintances of Tatarasuna, so there's just a chance that he really didn't get hit by heavy emotions).

All that he was aware of was that he was alone again. Ei abandoned him, and he only knew that Niwa supposedly ran away and left him alone, and then the child he treated as family left him too. Grief forms in so many different ways, and anger at things around you, or the person who is deceased, can be a common part of it. There's anger at being abandoned, anger about how life suddenly changed.. so many different factors go into it. And instead of being able to handle that anger in better ways, he found himself burning down a building, and attempting to off himself in the flames, and when he lived and tried to keep going with a newfound fear and hatred towards humans who only ever broke his expectations, or had the potential of only hurting him more, he landed in a group that took advantage of and fed that anger.

Scaramouche never had the chance to properly grieve or figure out how to handle emotions that were still new to him at the time. Him having a grudge on Niwa, Ei, and The Nameless Child makes sense, as it's all he knew. There was never anyone there who actually tried to properly help him. In his brain, he was abandoned again, and again, and again, and it eventually just spiraled into a hatred for other people.

I know a lot of people don't usually go for the "I'm going to try to analyze the characters emotions!" route when watching videos about things like this, since, obviously, why would you. But, there are legitimate reasons as to why Scaramouche would be mad at someone for dying, and it's a sucky situation all the way through. But the best thing is, he probably finally got over the anger he had on Niwa and The Nameless Child upon becoming The Wanderer (I don't care what anyone says he doesn't owe Ei any forgiveness - Her situation was straight-up just child abandonment. Which, yeah, sure, she was doing it because she didn't want to control him, and wanted him to live his own life without her interference, but you couldn't just like.. leave him a note explaining that? Check on him once in a while? Hell, even drop him off in civilization that'd love and care for him? You imprisoned him for who knows how long in a domain that probably just felt mind-numbing as everything was always the same until he was finally broken free from it. You say you didn't want to interfere with his life, but then threw him into a situation where his life would've sucked and been non-existent as he could only just stare at walls and trees. Unless she was just gunning on humans to break him out to give him an actual meaningful life, considering he didn't have his strength at the time. But this isn't a Raiden Ei being a shitty mom rant post, so uh!!)

Ignoring my Ei rant for a second. I hope this was. A decent read. Despite how short it is. I always loved analyzing Scaramouche as a character, so making posts about his backstory is very fun.

#genshin impact #scaramouche #wanderer genshin impact #wanderer #I don't really know what else to do for tags but #I still find it interesting that Scaramouche did genuinely view the Pavilion as a 'prison'. He calls it that multiple times.#he considers it home #but he also fully recognizes the fact he was not there of his own will. and that he was in fact locked away #(correction: i actually think he only refers to it as a prison once my bad)#(i don't want to delete all my tags to correct it)

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zushimart · 1 year

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quest spoilers below

quite literally why the hell did they do that. like why did they do that. it felt so unnecessary. like, erasing his existence from the world. i dont know whether it actually altered the timeline, and he genuinely did not do those things, or if everyones memory of the events including his own were removed and replaced with a different story. but either way, it felt like such… a copout to close his story. the most unsatisfying way to tie loose ends.

him learning about what actually happened to niwa… that WAS ENOUGH!!! like it was enough emotional manipulation from dottore to understand why scaramouche went back and killed everyone. ??? like , it felt so unnecessary to do all that.

BUT LIKE ??? oh my god. i know that it shows how scaramouche was fine with quite literally killing himself to correct his mistakes, and i understand that the quest is ultimately exploring how even if he tried to change the timeline, the events in tatarasuna could not be undone or avoided. but also… it just felt like such a freaking random, convoluted way to express that. i think it also… doesnt work to do that? because if anything, it’s like. “oh, it was going to happen anyway. even without my hand in it, it was going to happen. “ and almost CAN absolve guilt because it didnt matter what scara did or didnt do in that moment. like the evil thing he did… just didnt matter. which is awful, imo, bc the point of a mistake is that if you had not made it, things would have been different. like wtf??? like??? WHATTT ..

like, he couldve just as easily got amnesia or something after the fall. we couldve relived his experiences through him slowly remembering his past. and we couldve extended kindness to him after learning about his past. like idk the whole erase myself from existence thing had me stressed. it reminded me of that horror game soma… where people copied their consciousnesses into computers and things and it was pretty clear that where that consciousness began was a completely new person, even if it was an extension of a past person.

i was like … did we just watch scaramouche *die*. I WAS LIKE DID MY BOYFRIEND JUST DIE IN FRONT OF ME????

i would also love to know how the hell nahida was able to restore his memories. did she ever say?? i know she kept the story of scarameow, but how did she get the minute details of his life. his memories. how did she have them if everything about him was erased by irminsul. why is it even possible for some things to survive irminsul erasure. its so weird to me, like oh this was an exception. cheat code. etc. i don’t get it WREAAARGHHHARGAHRH.

this would have been such a good story of scara learning that he has worth simply by existing nd that he doesnt have to be useful to anyone and that although he may be useful to the fatui and the fatui may be useful to him , that isnt enough to substantiate a real relationship… and a real relationship is what he wants. not the worship of being a god , not the power of a harbinger, bht just to have actual meaningful connections. he did these things because he wanted to b respected, to be valued. he tried to do it through being kind , and then he tried to do it through fear. i just want him to learn to do things not because he feels indebted to you or because he needs to make up for past mistakes. not because of a ledger of give and take in a relationship.. i want him to know that he HAS VALUE SIMPLY BY EXISTING. tbey just BRUSHED PAST THATT. they just TACKED IT ON AT THE END. its literally just nahida being like “ohhh… have you tried simply Not doing that? not thinking that way???”im so f ukign . ….. shit was like cbt. The therapy AND the cock ajd ball torture.

:( childe doesnt even remember him. a kazuha & scara meeting would mean NOTHING bc kazuha doesnt even know who he is. Im sick. what tf was the point of it all. What was the point of anything. not only does he have to shoulder every mistake he made, but he has to do it alone because no one remembers. no one can offer him forgiveness, no one will recognize the change in his character and tell him that theyre proud of him for coming so far… because no one remembers. that is so evil. Im tired yall . What was the point.

#3.3 spoilers #meta

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seelestia · 1 year

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lbrh lia zhongli is probably a fellow caffeine addict bc he drinks so much tea on regular hdkfjsfj

i've actually never really used carrd, but i've seen really nice ones like dust's masterlist so yea definitely an option there!

at first i wasn't too fond of the fact that he was kinda able to 'delete' himself in the new reality but seeing his attitude about the whole thing made it up to me... like, ok fine maybe you deserve that chance to atone... /grumble /j

what are my hands for if not for headpatting zhongli hehehe

al haitham with his third eye lmao-

i actually haven't seen the livestream eep i was out when it went live... i did check the banner tho. devastated. i wanted kaveh on nahida's banner bc i want them both ;w;

BOTH OF YOU ON TIMEOUT. i'm surrounded by caffeine addicts. (/j) squinting at ayato and heizou who most likely stay up late for work reasons.... wanderer could've been my savior from all this but then again, he likes bitter stuff, so coffee being smth he fancies isn't off the table at all— i do think he'd prefer bitter tea over coffee tho! so, you'll probably see me dragging him along whenever i come to visit your teahouse <3 he likes the atmosphere in your teahouse but he won't say it out loud. (/lh)

mmm, i think ms. dust's carrd is super neat with the way she arranges her info! <3 carrd is a vv flexible site; as long as you know how to tinker with the settings, you can make it look however you want! although i just follow helpful tuts on yt, hehe. i also have my own carrd which is a bit diff from ms. dust's just to show the range of the site! thank you for the notion tips tho, rin jie, i think i'll stick to using notion for personal reasons >:3c what am i, a salesperson. sponsored by carrd™ (/j) speaking of wips, rin jie... just a fancy question, but how many do you have rn? hehehe. 👀

MHMMM, understandable!! the moment i saw that scaramouche wanted to 'purge' himself so that his old friends could have a second chance at life (the little found family in tatarasuna will forever have my heart. niwa <//3), it clicked for me and i was like: OH. SO THAT'S WHY YOU HAD A REDESIGN. and 'amnesiac' wanderer, even if he only got screentime for a split minute, was so cute with his gentle and polite demeanor (because it's so unlike the one we know LMAOOO) <3

i find it so fascinating that he wasn't able to change anything, that everything associated to him in terms of memories and knowledge were gone but he, as in his existence, was still there — in a way, it reaffirmed the inner workings of irminsul to me?? it was confusing with greater lord rukkhadevata so when this was demonstrated the second time with wanderer, i think i got a teeny tiny better understanding of it. i also love how his desire to 'delete himself' aligns with a line he said in his story trailer ("ashes") which was "i wish i'd never been born at all" <//3 SORRY I THINK I LOVE THIS LITTLE GUY TOO MUCH.

noooo, i still hope you'll be able to get kav! it's such a shame that it couldn't be a 2-in-1 for nahida and kaveh wanters 😞 i still writhe in pain because wanderer doesn't have a rerun next patch BUT THEY MADE HIM LOOK SO GOOD IN THE TRAILER?? aaaaaaaaa. on my way to steal rin jie's wanderer and abduct him like he's a pretty princess (/j)

#i am suddenly reminded of the alhaitham deshret reincarnation theory when you said third eye—#rin jie keeps giving grandpa zhongli headpats but what about me (/j)#ask box! 📬#visitor: dearest rin! 💠#cw: selfships

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