#i couldve added a lot more to this but itll work for now

[beelur]

#some 3d practice! #i couldve added a lot more to this but itll work for now #chad #3d

[ayyponine]

me: *posts 1st chapter of fic & gets zero interaction in the first few hrs* you know what :)) this is fine. yes i did hope for a good response as added motivation but tbh it looks like a lot of content is being put out rn and i can understand if ppl dont want to get into a wip especially since i couldve summarised n pitched it better, but lbr itll probably get more traction once it's finished so it's fine if the current influx of works pushes this out of the field of vision fr now i mean it is only the first chapter lol why would anyone care to read it. yknow if anything i actually prefer it this way bc now i am not chained to other ppls expectations knowing they're like waiting on me to finish n post the next instalment so tbf i can really do this at my own pace and focus on my personal satisfaction w it instead of being a slave to the notifications and

*checks the chapter again and sees it now has four hits and a kudo* oh thank god

#i crave the validation. fr a second i felt genuinely like shit right there #tfw u make yrself proud by churning out a crazy amount of words but then dont see other reading it instantly and go like #hm. this is meaningless actually and so is my existence #*sees 4 ppl have clicked so mb possibly at the very least skimmed my text before leaving the page* ah! i stand corrected #*sees wips posted around the same time getting more traction than this* oh. nvm this is trash after all #sigh. it aint much but it's honest work #i WILL be proud of my finished product even if no one ever bothers to read it again gdi i cater to ME