#i dont believe teaching young people that they ought to always assert themselves and always hold fast to their positions

[posthumus]

i disdain the fetishization(?) of the quality of 'leadership' in education. i think it's a genuinely heinous way to raise students and it amazes me that it doesn't receive universal criticism

#sorry that this reads like i've leaked the first draft of a polemic #i was gonna say more but literally it makes me so mad i should probably just keep it to myself #it's just. fuck. like okay obviously IM invested in getting rid of it because i can't talk to people and i'm not charismatic and i consider #these immutable facts about myself. but i CANNOT unsee how hideous a worldview it endorses #like you are the leaders the future elites and there is a whole underclass of people — including those who are now your peers — whom #you must Lead #and i KNOW that's misconstruing it i KNOW #but even if it's not so unsettling as that it's like: #i dont believe teaching young people that they ought to always assert themselves and always hold fast to their positions #(i KNOW good leaders defer i KNOW good leaders are good listeners but you know who else can show deference and be good listeners and possess #critical thinking skills? fucking FOLLOWERS #and you aren't mitigating the risks of widespread fucking egomania by encouraging students to display virtues other than leadership #if you just tie them right back into leadership and indeed say they are qualities uniquely possessed by good leaders) #it's just what kills me. and this is my own jealousy talking obviously. is how the kids who get designated as being good leaders #are not particularly earnest or good listeners or good at deferring tasks. or especially engaging with their peers as equals #but i'm not sure if that's a universal reaction or if im just infernally spiteful and full of hate #ok i'm done. fuck this scholarship #personal #my posts