#i dont want to process how much ycgma or sbi meant to me

[mariaiscrafting]

Maybe Minecraft is itself a tree that's grown rotten. Or maybe I've simply outgrown it.

(I had a mental breakdown in the tags sorry)

#something something so much of my personal neg experiences w the internet have stemmed from minecraft #maybe its time for this blog to go #maybe i need to cut that game and all its brambly roots out of my life #all the content creators and youtube channels and servers #ive lost close friends. ive been personally betrayed. ive experienced direct racism and misogyny. all bc of this stupid game #and ofc theres all the unnecessary and secondhand hurt from content creators #shitty internet drama. addiction. shipping. fandom discourse. bullshit and more bullshit #all i experience w this game is loss #im being dramatic but i dont fucking care #i dont want to process how much ycgma or sbi meant to me #how much of my emotional healing and outpouring went into them #sleepy boys was my entire world at one point #now i have to rip it out of my psyche root and stem #invested so much time and energy and emotion and for what #personal #to delete #.txt