#i dunno i feel like i’m pretty disconnected from writeblr as a whole and have been for a while which. i dunno

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man i wish numbers didn’t stress me out so bad

#like i know notes/follower count/whatever don’t matter but like. i get so wrapped up in all of it #sometimes i want to just completely start over because i get so stressed by my follower count #i dunno i feel like i’m pretty disconnected from writeblr as a whole and have been for a while which. i dunno #it’s all weird #i wish i had more energy to engage more but i really just. i’ve got a lot to deal with mentally and sometimes it’s harder to be active #i really just treat this blog like i meant to from the start!! it’s a place to share my writing and talk about my projects/my process and— #—boost the stuff that crosses my dash #but because i’m pretty detached from the community i don’t actually See Much content to boost you know #idk it’s a lot #point is i don’t really know why people follow me and if my follower count drops i get stressed and feel like i’m just not providing what— #—people want from me. even if it’s barely a noticeable drop idk #and i gotta remind myself like!!! it doesn’t matter!! but i get so anxious about trying to live up to nonexistent expectations of me #that i forget that it’s My Blog and it doesn’t really matter #sorry for rambling it’s just so much sometimes #i rlly don’t know how to stop getting so hung up on all of it #.txt #please ignore the repetition and typos and whatever i’m very sleep deprived