#i feel like everything i write is rlly bad but if i keep nitpicking at it im never gonna get it done and i’ve dedicated myself to

[teruthecreator]

oh god the “you’re a bad writer” demon is on my ass again -__-

#in neg city #ughhhhhhhhh trying to get back into ur hobbies is rlly hard and nobody understands #or maybe they do but. still. i’m suffering #i feel like everything i write is rlly bad but if i keep nitpicking at it im never gonna get it done and i’ve dedicated myself to #finishing ideas before i start new ones but it just feels like maybe i should give up writing for good or something #i get stuck so much more often than i used to bc i just feel like what im doing isn’t my best and if im not doing my best then why am i #doing it at all. yknow? doesn’t help that i’m always looking over my shoulder at people who write better than me #bc the envious little freak in my brain can’t stop comparing me to my friends like. i should just be normal about this! #it’s a silly hobby i do for fun!!! yet i can’t feel that way abt it bc i’ve put a lot of my own self worth into my skills #and writing is one of the few skills i can actually Do rn #ugh. i just wanna be happy w what i’m doing i wanna like what i write the first time not after the millionth edit #idk maybe i am just rlly bad at it and everyone’s pretending to like my work to make me feel better -__- #SIGH. whatever.

[finalhaunts]

I have a lot of complex feelings about Vivziepop tbh. Viv is by no means a person who is free from criticism and there certainly are a lot of things about her, from her past to her writing, that can and Should be criticized. But I look at how vitriolic the hate for her in particular is, how it seems the hate has been ongoing ever since the hazbin pilot released, and I can’t help but think that some misogyny may be fueling it. Like, I have NEVER seen someone on the internet get THIS much hate and criticism before, and for so long too.

I’m not rlly Into viv’s stuff (at least not right now. I’m planning on checking out helluva boss and seeing what’s up for myself, seeing if it’s Really as bad as people say) but I scrolled the hb tag earlier out of curiosity and I saw multiple instances one after another of people making entire posts dedicated to calling her out every step of the way and nitpicking every single thing she says, as well as… Keeping up with each episode still, despite their hate for her, and their hate for the show, JUST so they can nitpick even more. And it’s like… Doesn’t that ever get exhausting for y’all? Being so dedicated to getting pissed off over one singular person every chance you get? Don’t any of you have better things to do?

And I think it’s even more interesting that nobody ever really acknowledges the fact that Brandon Rogers is the co-writer of Helluva, and he’s done some REALLYYYYYYYYY fucked up skits that have certainly not aged well. Like, “holy shit this is AWFUL” kind of not aged well. The only time I’ve ever heard him criticized is for saying the r slur in the pilot, but that’s about it. Everything has been directed towards Viv specifically. Like i wish to stress again this is by no means a defense of her and ppl have every right to be uncomfortable with her and her work and she has definitely done some fucked up shit but it’s…….. Really telling what exactly is fueling a lot of the ongoing hate when you compare people’s attitudes towards her to the fact that you never hear a thing about Brandon. Idk. Many thoughts

#.txt #sorry if the way I described this is like. weird or anything #i had trouble finding the right words for my thoughts and I don’t really have the cadence for discussions like tjis #but I hope this at least gets the point across #i’m turning reblogs off btw. like straight out the gate #i dont want any discourse I really don’t give a shit. i have better things to do lol #helluva boss #hazbin hotel #vivziepop #<== I. REALLY dont want to put these in the tags less i get a wave kf discourse #but I’m putting them there in case anybody has that shit filtered