#i get im young and im growing but its just getting tedious. everyday i feel tired. i dont want to get up anymore half the time.

[vilelittlecritter]

"hey! I think I found my footing in life!"

*proceeds to have the most earth shattering and perspective changing months of his life*

#it's been. alot... #some good. mostly bad. #im trying to actually better myself because ive found that i am frankly not that great both mentally and as a person #i get im young and im growing but its just getting tedious. everyday i feel tired. i dont want to get up anymore half the time. #id really like to have a regular ass upbringing and not deal with all this shit. #i haven't stayed with my parents properly since august and thrankly it feels awful #i miss my mum and i miss my siblings #i constantly feel so alone and yet in company i either dont feel better or i make things worse #and god knows i cant keep to a schedule. work is just piling and piling #i also don't want to work anymore. my life is trickling away and im spending my time at a development point behind a cash register #and its not like i can quit because i need to pay for myself #i dont know #i really dont know #ill likely delete this later #vent #random rambles