#i had a dream where phil made a very sincere like no Youtube Entertainer stuff at all video about himself and dan

[straggy-luvs-u]

ok i have a couple of theories about why phil isn't there actually

1) youtube now "favours" dan over phil bc dan is The One Gay British Youtuber™️ ya know? BIG was a huge hit, it came out at the same time as eugene lee yang's masterpiece of a pride video too, they accidentally promoted eachother! youtube looked at this and decided that dan, now, is the representative of queer ppl on yt (in the UK at least) and rolled with it ever since. a part of me thinks phil wasn't even asked to be there :/

2) phil declined. this is v possible, my reasoning? "keep it lowkey". he never wanted to share this much of himself with oursiders in the first place, he's really only comfortable being super gay with us bc we're his audience, he doesn't want the attention!!

3) dnp dont want to be seen together in the public eye...yet

so ya idk🤔

i am a simple woman i see an ask from may and i go :D A Win For The Bisexuals and then i see it’s not only a long ask, they’re talking to me about the New Thing and i go :D A True Win For The Bisexuals

i was totally thinking the same thing as 1) and like kinda it bothers me a little? (which is stupid cause it’s none of my business) cause that’s what i feel like is probably the case and it just kinda irks me that despite phil making content regularly (also big gay pride vibes) it seems like people kinda like put him on the back burner, but that brings me to 2). because that would make a lot of sense and i honestly hope that’s what it is!

i can have as many opinions as i want but they don’t actually matter and what actually does is whether they’re both happy or not with what they’re doing; if phil doesn’t want to be in the spotlight then i’m glad that he’s not! i think the fact that we don’t really know exactly how he feels about that kinda stuff we’ll never really know if he isn’t being chosen for this kinda stuff or if he just chooses not to. so i honestly should stop caring and just accept things at face value instead of thinking about all the other possibilities. and yes i agree with 3) 🥲

#if phil doesn’t want to do big official things but he wants to be sponsored by creepy hotels and startup apps then go off sir #power to you king #(​i hope people don’t literally hate me for saying this lol) #also #i had a dream where phil made a very sincere like no Youtube Entertainer stuff at all video about himself and dan #and it made me cry #clowning isn’t a hobby it’s a lifestyle there’s no break #ain’t no rest for the clowns #hi may 💞🌸✨ #asks #may