#i have always been sensitive and being bullied due to my weight genuinely wrecked my self-esteem and confidence for years

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tonight i'm thinking about fatphobia in the society and how much it has affected my life and now i'm incredibly angry

#i have always been sensitive and being bullied due to my weight genuinely wrecked my self-esteem and confidence for years #i have struggled with body image issues as long as i can remember and it's still an ongoing issue #it's so fucked up!!! i was a child when it all started!!! and the bullying basically stopped when i was around 14 but it didn't even help #diet culture + some fucked up relatives + societal expectations + past experiences = a fucked up teenager #i'm just so angry about how much that all still affects me. i have unlearned so much internalized fatphobia but i still catch myself #worrying over how i look or thinking if i can do something or what others think about me. i'm so angry!!!!! #fatphobia is so deeply ingrained in our society. you literally can't escape it. it has hurt me more in my life than my weight ever has #yeah. rant over. this is what happens when i get mad and i don't have an outlet for it #fatphobia tw #ask to tag idk #personal