#i hope they’re doing well nowadays and that they still rock out to mdm. i hope the feel incredibly valid in their blackness.

[genderqueer-karma]

what the fuck i didn’t expect to cry just now. it’s so amazing how you can connect to people you’ll never meet.

#yo it's d :) #💙♾️ #rant incoming -> #okay so if i’m being honest being a black fan in mana/mdm/mm spaces is actually kinda isolating sometimes if i’m being honest bc a lot of #western fans are white people. that’s just the truth. and like i’ve been sorta subtly ‘bullied’ (lightheartedly) for years over my interests #misaligning with what is typically ascribed to black people. i know it’s silly to let it get to me but after a while that shit wears you out #that being said. i was watching the mdm 2007 paris show bc i wanted to see a specific song real quick. the video pans over the crowd and obv #it’s white people as far as the eye can see. shocker. however. then it gets a bit closer to the stage. not too close. but sorta. right there #is a black fan. they stand out a bit. besides their skin being brown their hair is also in cornrows! a protective style!! at an mdm show!!! #seeing them in the crowd caused me to be overcome w/ emotion. i felt so instantly connected to this person across time and space from a two #second clip of them. and of course i shouldn’t cry about it but knowing that hey. i’m not alone out here and that we’ve probably had similar #experiences is so……? it was so easy to suddenly put myself in their position. a person that looks like me in a room full of people who don’t #god. #i hope they’re doing well nowadays and that they still rock out to mdm. i hope the feel incredibly valid in their blackness. #HOLY SHIT WE BELONG IN THE SCENE !!!!! WE BELONG !!!!! #I BELONG !!!!!!!!!!! #dev rants