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#i lost a lot of friends thru covid and my homelessness-mental breakdown-isolation-hospitalization years
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#im rly mad at myself bc i was gonna go to a local queer art hang yesterday
#but got halfway to the bus stop and had a full blown panic attack
#and had to give up and go home
#i know why it happened its bc i had a drs appt earlier in the day that went rly badly and i was already an emotional wreck
#but i was rly hoping to make it to that event so i could cheer myself up and make some good good queer connections
#but i freaked out instead and had to sit on a curb while i shook like a fuckin chihuahua
#and now there's only 1 hang left this summer before it stops which i Will make myself go to no matter what
#but still
#im just. rly upset bc i wanted to go
#i know some of the folks who attend and they're all rly fun and it would've been nice to see them and chill w them again
#and im just. very fuckin upset idk
#im Disappointed in myself and i Know i shouldnt be but i fucking am
#im so stupid mad at mysslf for never being able to handle fucking anything
#even when its something i rly rly wanna do
#like
#its just. getting to the point of devastating
#i lost a lot of friends thru covid and my homelessness-mental breakdown-isolation-hospitalization years
#and the few i still have r gr8 but i dont rly get to see them often
#and i'd like to see them more often but ofc i cant make myself ask that bc oh look another impending panic attack
#jfc im just. so done w my brain. i h8 living inside this stupid thing so fucking much its literal hell
#I MISS MY FRIENDS
#I MISS HAVING COMMUNITY
#I FEEL ALONE ALL THE FUCKING TIME
#see i can scream that into the internet void just fuckin fine but cant even reach out to ppl to be like 'hey. been a while. sup?'
#just. UGHHSHSJSJ
#like ya my agoraphobia is 10x worse since i got transphobically assaulted this month but like
#even when its not for that reason i am still an anxious MESS all the time
#and that shitty drs appt? was a psychiatrist telling me he refuses to prescribe me anxiety meds bc he doesnt trust me on them
#and that im too dependent on them to cope/function. ummm. YA MY GUY THATS WHAT THEYRE FOR ??? TF ????
#now that im off them i cant be in public w/o hyperventilating. fuck rite off dude i'll find a diff dr to renew the script who isnt a jackass
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