#i love hawkeye and radar so much and they deserve a soft epilogue

[zeawesomebirdie]

Things ive gotten out of actually sitting down to write this afternoon (before ive even gotten my documents to load):

1) i really did pavlov myself into going into writing mode when i make myself tea and i love that for me

2) i have the song (I've Got a Gal in) Kalamazoo stuck in my head but only the part that goes "ive got a gaaaaaal!!" and anything after that i cant remember the tune of

3) i hate that guilty feeling that comes from telling the people in my life that im going to be writing and then knowing that even though they werent going to do anything with me this afternoon anyway, im still purposely making myself not available to them for a few hours

#its the like #the knowledge that even though they *never* need me in the afternoon #this might be the one time they *do* need me #yknow? #and even if i know ultimately ill feel better once i write #(because i always do) #right now theres just this overwhelming feeling of guilt #and i talked to my therapist about it #and idk #its just something i now need to work on #so cheers #anyway time to write some more!! #i love hawkeye and radar so much and they deserve a soft epilogue #...im not positive i spelled that correctly #anyway #i need to get off of tumblr #love yall happy timezone