#i prepare for them11 i schedule them earnestly! but when the actual fucking time comes i freeze or

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my god, i am never leaving my job am i

#liveblogging life #despairing of myself bc this is the like 10th interview i've scheduled that i just fucking didnt do #i prepare for them11 i schedule them earnestly! but when the actual fucking time comes i freeze or #i decide at the last second that the anxiety of doing the interview isn't worth the prize of getting a new job #this is why i should oNLY job search when i'm between jobs - when i've got a cushy job w/ decent pay it makes it harder #to push past my interview anxiety and actually do the damn things #this one was for a good academic job too :(((( why am i like this :((((