#i shouldve just. shut yp

[kill-la-kill-me-please]

even my fucking cat runs away from me for two days in a row lmao

and then my mom yells at me

fucking fantastic

i feel so fucking unloved and unwanted but what else is new

really glad i have no followers rn

i'll probably delete social media for now before i fuck something else up!!!

#whatever #im so mad at myself #im trying to br okay because i dknt want to fuck this up more but ?? i fucked yp and im scared as shit #i dont want this to be six months again or something becayse thats terrifying and im moving soon so... #im really fucling scared #i just wish i could apologize byt i cant so #i really fucked up #oh god #im so fucking sorry #idk what to do #im just scared and i hope nothing changes between us... #it wont happen again ill make sure of that but im still terrified what if she doesnt want me around anymore #did i fuck up too badly???? #i'll have no way of knowing until she says something to me #i mean im gonna give her her space vecause i lpve her but im terrified #im. so terrified. i just hope she xan forgive me #i didnt mean to overqhelm her #i was upset about so many things it came out so wrong i shouldve just shut up but i didnt #i wish i could have a day off to rest and gather my thoughts but nope :))) #god tho i think id die if she saw this #we aint followin eaxh other rn so ik i rlly fucked up #i cant message her if i do want her to speak to me tho #im tryin not to be obsessive lile last time u g h #i hope she talks to me by the time im up again in june #itd .. rlly suck if she didnt #idk...i hope she still loves me #i hope she doesny think ill of me #i rlly rlly didnt mean to go off on her i wasnt even mad at her i was mad at everyone else #and i just wanted her to talk to me but look where that got me #this is why i hate venting to peoplr or talking abt my feelings at all