#i swear to Allah I am not fucking gonna take this shit anymore

[masked-and-doomed]

Shut the fuck up for once. Maybe.

#negative #/negative #I'm so close to killing myself I'm not fucking around. #I CAN'T TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE! #i cant. for so goddamn long. #it's not really that long considering I'm young but too fucking long. still. #can you imagine. this stupid society. where you're fucking 11 and your parents are urging you to get better with your studies #because fuck you better get into a good highschool. get good UPSR marks. and that happens at the end of the year when you're 12. #youre fucking 12 and you already have pressure on your back. then you get to secondary school. form 1 and 2 aren't better #you get low ass scores. and it builds up more #and your low point gets lower and lower throughout the years. #i cannot state this enough when you're fucking 12 they do want you to study hard for the end of year exam that determines #if you're getting in a fancy pantsy enough secondary school that could get you more. credit. #but whatever. I'm lowest in class. i personally can't care. but my mom! oh she does! #yknow someone *has* to be at the bottom. eventually. someone will. someone will just not get it #is it so hard to believe it's your kid? #would you rather some other parent scold their kid and threaten worse because they couldnt keep up? #why are you doing this? this isnt helping anything. you see that. it is in fact a problem with me but you dont see how you're affecting me. #i swear to Allah I am not fucking gonna take this shit anymore #I am so close to losing it. I've already reached the end of the threads that hold my sanity together. i can't. #i don't hate you. but i can't live with your thorns digging into my flesh anymore #i can't fucking take it