#i think about scenarios where ness leaves kaiser

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#blue lock #blue lock fanart #alexis ness #ブルーロック #art #fanart #blue lock manga #my art #michael kaiser #in spirit #i think about scenarios where ness leaves kaiser #whether just to pass to isagi or for good #and i believe this is the key to kaiser's awakening #given that his “identity”/ego first appeared not out of malice but out of the desperation to protect the one thing he cared about (the ball #and of course his monologue in 260 about how he treats the ball explicitly parallels how he treats ness #which makes me believe losing ness or the risk of losing ness is instrumental in kaiser's reawakening #BUT. #kaiser is a deeply sad angry person and he cannot let the world know he's weak #so i fear that ness leaves him and instead of admitting oh maybe i do care kaiser snaps #because ness can't leave him if he pushes ness away harder right? #kaiser telling ness exactly what he was to him #exactly why he approached him in the first place #you're nothing but a dog #an experiment #because fury covers up the hurt (hurt that kaiser is even angrier that he *has*) and so the damage is done #so that's what this doodle is based on el oh el #and ness is left reevaluating every moment they've ever shared and wondering if it was real at all #(because even if kaiser did care he doesn't have the capacity to realize he did-- i do believe his behavior in 243 was genuine and proof he #-cares for ness in the only way he can he just does not understand that yet because he fundamentally does not understand kindness) #and he won't before it's almost too late