#i was obsessed with mermaids and fairies and shit because it was a safe outlet to Not Be Myself

[longhands]

There’s such a specific flavor of cartoon dude I owe my whole life to? Like okay Dipper, Hiccup, and Wirt did all of the heavy lifting for my Trans Realization. I have such an ultra specific way of relating to them that it’s like “wow they’re literally me” and also “i’m mourning the loss of a childhood where I could have been them” and it’s a very bittersweet thing. I watched all of these properties on repeat when I was a kid because I so clearly saw myself in them. That shit was magical and a little confusing for a long time, and now I kind of miss it so bad it hurts. Idk I’m sleep deprived and nostalgic rn.

#don’t get me wrong I love the perspective being trans gives me #i just get sad abt it sometimes #unfortunate side effect of fixating on little dudes is thinking you have a crush on them #i didnt i just wanted to be them #im still kind of unpacking that #now im just realizing all of my crushes have just been like. dudes i had gender envy about. #i was obsessed with mermaids and fairies and shit because it was a safe outlet to Not Be Myself #I think childhood fixations really do inform the rest of your life im still seeing trends lol #httyd #otgw #over the garden wall #gravity falls #if you’re still reading what was your childhood queer projection character i wanna know #longhands rant